[cluelessNJ]

Hello everyone! I cant sleep tonight! It is just amaxing to me that I have been cleam for so long and I still have problems sleeping! WHY? Shouldn't this have passed? I hate it! I took sominex 3 hours ago! Its driving me crazy!

xxzeon- Welcome! Did you have something to say? I think the reply got in the way! Regardless, you were here and I appreciate that! Come back and tell us your story!

Girliegirl- Hello, I know you will be back! Were waiting for you! Come and join us again! You know you want to! Ok! no pressure now but you know you have the desire to get clean so whenever your ready, were ready! I got your back!

Chrish, You should just change your member name to something more masculine. I love you anyway! Without you I wouldn't still be here. Thank you a hunderd times over and over! I really hope your having a blast in disney right now! I just found travel arrangements for orlando. I think my boyfriend might be taking me to disney to propose. Don't want to think about it because I don't want to ruin the surprise for him (or me). I feel bad just finding them (I marked the email unread and logged out). O-well we shall see.

Have a great Monday! I will be back on in the afternoon!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[cluelessNJ]

Sorry, thats amazing that I have been clean so long............

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[chrish1]

Not So Clueless,

It IS amazing that you have been clean so long. It is amazing when any addict puts together some clean time. I'm SO glad that I could take a part in your recovery, but it is YOU that is doing the deal.[8D] Just imagine, you will have 2 months clean in 10 days - one day at a time! That says a lot about you. It seems that we haven't heard from some of our friends in a while, and I suspect that (not all), but some have relapsed. The first couple months are the hardest.

Had a really great time at Disney yesterday. It was sooooo cool. I have a 7 yr old boy and a 6 yr old girl, and they had the greatest time. We have 2 more days in the park, and we head home Wednesday. Everything just seems to get better with more clean time. Clueless, you are going to have the greatest time at Disney, and I hope all goes well. Oh, BTW, "Chrish" is a play off my last name, my nickname growing up. LOL

Girlie, great to hear from you. Keep comin' back!

Gotta run, another busy day today.... One more day clean everyone!

Chrish













CLEAN DATE 1/23/06
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[lordy]

Hey all!
Chrish, I forgot to tell you CONGRATS on Saturday, for having 5 months clean!! That is just something else!!! Same to you, Not-so-Clueless. I'm coming up on two months, myself. Whoo hoo! Who woulda thunk? It's so nice to be *thinking straight*. I just finished a third book and sent it to my agent, so I've been on pins and needles, waiting to hear back from her...but I'm finding ways to keep busy. Shopping, mostly-- guess I've transferred my addictive behavior to that-- luckily, I'm the thrift store queen, so it doesn't put much of a dent in the family finances.
You know what I find interesting, but sort of bad? That's sometimes coming to this site makes me really sad. I don't know how to explain it, and I want to make very sure that you all don't think I sound ungrateful; because as you all know, this site about saved my life, several weeks back. But sometimes when I come here, I feel exactly the way I do when I have to cross a particular intersection here in town-- the awful place where my husband totalled his car last June-- it's really weird, really bad, but sometimes coming here puts me in the same state of mind. Does anyone else ever feel this way..?
Anyway, I hope that just by reading and reponding to other stories, I'll get over it. It's silly. Just thought I'd blab.
I guess now I'll have to take my kids to Disneyland! They're begging, and finally old enough (8 and 6). I think it would be AWESOME!! Tips, Chrish?
Well, take care everyone! I'll try to check in more!
Nicole

[cluelessNJ]

Hi everyone!

Lordy- I do understand about the feeling bad sometimes. I know when I read certain posts and you can read how messed up someone is because their post is so crazy and usually makes little sense. I get sad then. But usually it makes me feel better to know that maybe I might be helping someone. Even if it is just one person its worth it. 2 months for us! Its so great! It feels so good to be able to finally say that!

Chrish- Now the name makes sense. I'm glad you are having fun in Disney. Today is the last day. Make the best of it! I bet the weather has been great down there too. I'm so jealous. I can't wait!

Anyone lurking, You CAN get control of your life back! If you take anything away from this just remember, IT CAN BE DONE. We are doing it! I AM DOING IT! YEAH! []


Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[tinkers]

hi all

IVE BEEN AROUND A LONG TIME BEEN USING DIFFERENT PILLS FOR MANY YEARS HAVE TRYED TO STOP MANY TIMES BUT AS YOU ALL KNOW ITS NOT THAT EASY. IVE QUIT HERE AND THERE TRYED NA NOTHING SEEMED TO WORK IVE BEEN CLEAN NOW GOING ON 48HRS AND I HAVE TO SAY ITS NOT THAT BAD I DID A LOT OF PRAYING AND SEEKING FOR HELP IVE BEEN ABLE TO KICK ALL MY BAD HABITS EXCEPT FOT THE PIILS AND SMOKING JUST WANT TO SAY SOMETHING AND LOOK FORWARD TO ANY HELP AND SUPPORT I CAN GET

[tinkers]

HI XXZEON

IT LOOKS LIKE YOUR WERE IAM I USED OXIS FOR A LONG TIME IT WAS VERY HARD TO GET OFF THEM BUT I USED ONE FOR THE OTHER I HAVENT USED OXIS FOR A LONG TIME BUT IT WAS A nice lady TO GET OFF THEM NOW ITS JUST THE HYDRO IVE BEEN FIGHTING I KNOW IT CAN BE DONE AND IT WONT KILL YOU ITS JUST STAYING CLEAN THATS THE HARD PART BUT YOU CAN DO IT WHEN YOUR READY AND IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU HAVE HAD IT WITH THEM SO GOOD LUCK TO YOU

[tinkers]

hi again

just cant stop talking i tell you all about me ive been on pain killers for abou 10 yrs started off for a real problem then just because i was hooked i dident even like the pills at first but i knew people who would tell me that i had to give it a chance and there i went i would take one tab a day at first but that went up quick to about 15-30 a day and if i couldent get pills at one point in my life i would get coke nice sub right well 2 yrs ago i gave that up and the pills at that time but not for long i went back to the pills hard and heavy oxi hydro what ever i could get like they say 1 is too many 1000 isnt enough it is so true i did learn some things from na but i dident like it to many clicks so i turned to god and was born again and that worked for some time but again i still messed up but no coke or oxis or booze i know i can do all things through god i know he is strong and i am weak so i pray a lot to help me do the right thing every day and i still get tempted to do the wrong thing but i know all things are possibly through god and if i can stay on track i will be fine

[tinkers]

quote:Originally posted by keiths121

hi
you sound just like i did ive been taking them for about ten years and i feel the same way as you i could do anything with them work better faster longer ext but you are and addict call it what you will just like i did after a few weeks you will see things different thats for sure give it a try let us know how it goes

[cluelessNJ]

Tinkers,
WELCOME!

48 hours is GREAT! That just proves that with some prayer and determination you can stop. You were taking oxy's? Thats what grabbed me too. Giving up the drugs will be the best decision you have made in your life. I know the physical withdrawl will pass quickly. Its the mental part that will mess with you! I wish you the best of luck! Keep posting and let me know how you are![]

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[tinkers]

thanks clueless

Yes i was taking oc's for a long time its been about 2 or 3 months since ive used them my main problem is with the hydro i just cant seem to kick that i have quit many times but always go back to them i always think that only a few lol never happens its not just me its my wife too she is really having a hard time at home all day she said it sucks the life out of her but im at work going through this and i can make it i use her as an excus to get them so she wont be so moody but then i take them too i just need to take a stand and not give in we were both better people without them and had more cash we have almost lost every thing because of this it is so stupid to let these take over your life because you all know that you take them just to feel normal ya right today i feel good but the wife not so good i dont want to go home and deal with her i know its bad to say that but its the truth she dont want to here me talk about it i guess because i let her down so many timeas in the past she just thinks ill do it again i sure hope not im the man and its my job to make a stand and stick to it i sure hope i can open her eyes i just hope she feels better tomorrow and she start to get some hope i think she is just waiting for me to come home with just a few[}]but its not happening i have to stay strong like i said i feel a whole lot better than yesterday she said she feels the same i think its a lot in her mind. well any help would be good at this point from any one thanks

[cluelessNJ]

Everyones withdrawl is different. Unfortunatly she needs to want to quit or else it will be worse for her. I think it is a mental battle. I know I felt the worst day 3-5. But I would tell her to try to trick her mind to think she has the flu and it will go away in a week. If she can alter her thinking it might be easier for her. It must be hard for her to be at home all day too. She has to keep herself distracted. Whatever it takes.. watching movies or cleaning. If its nice out tell her to take a walk. I know she won't feel like it but the fresh air will be good. Also hot baths are great. I remember I would sit in the tub until the water got cold. I would drink lots of water and cranberry juice to help flush your system and to keep you hydrated. Taking vitamins helped me alot too. Get one with a few b's in it. B-12 is good for energy. You won't notice it over night but it does help. ImmodimAD is great to control your bathroom issue. I was taking it alot when I first quit. You have to keep a positive attitude for the both of you. I know it will not always be easy but it does help. Think about life before pills. You didn't need them then. You don't need them now. Your mind can be a tricky thing. Just be aware of her trying to tempt you too. If she doesn't want to stop then her mind will tell her she needs these pills to go thru her day. Believe me she will thank you in the long run. I hope some of this helps. Let me know if you have any questions. Most of us posting here have been thru it.

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[chrish1]

Lordy, I don't get that sinking feeling about this board. I can understand what you are saying though since certain things make me feel that way also. I'm a firm believer that I can't keep what I have unless I give it away, and that is why I keep coming back here. You are doing fantastic! Almost two months - wow. Your kids would LOVE Disneyland for sure. We took our kids 2 years ago when they were 4&5 years old, and that was great. This time was just as good since they moved up to some bigger rides like the roller-coasters; space mountain, the matterhorn, splash mountain... so, it's fun for mom and dad also. One thing I can say is make sure you spend at least 3 days in the park, otherwise you feel hurried. It was kind of cool since we were able to hit every single ride we wanted, and then we just hit the ones that the kids wanted to go on on last time. So, today was a very leisurely day, and we left the park at around 4PM. Then, we played some basketball in the hotel gym - pretty fun. While I was using I probably would have never done that extra activity for the day (basketball) since I would have been too tired or looking for one last high for the day.

Tinkers, welcome to the board. I hope that this helps you. There is some great support on here. Keep comin' back.

Not So Clueless, I bumped up my daily vitamin to 2 a day and bumped up my water intake since you said it did a lot for you. It seems to really help my energy level - thanks. That is so cool that you are almost 2 months clean. You are right, the mind part is the hardest part. It doesn't really go away either... but, it does get easier. The cravings always pass. I had some pretty big cravings at Disneyland since I was having such a good time, my mind started playing those tricks with me, telling me it would be even BETTER with some painkillers. This addiction is SO cunning - it seems like it never gives up, and it always hits at different angles. But, guess what... I made it another day. I can only stay clean one day at a time. Some days are tougher than others. Overall, most days are good, and it sure beats that feeling at the end of my using days. That feeling of spiritual death. ****, that was the worst. Now, we can "run the tape" and we can feel pride in our clean time and our growth as human beings. If we don't have that, we have nothing. We have been given a 2nd chance, and how many addicts can claim that - freedom from active addiction? Anyway, I kind of went off on a tangent. The weather is great down here in Cali. We'll be heading back to Chandler, Arizona tomorrow at around Noon.... Overall, had a great time in Disneyland, but I think I'm all Disney'd out for a year or 2. I'm ready to go back home.

Hope all is well with everyone.

Chrish




Clean Date: 10/11/05

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[tinkers]

Hi all

Thanks for all the help i sure need it going on 72hrs longest i have went in a long time my wife is having a harder time than me she was up before i was this morning and i think up most of the night i really feel bad for her i wish i could take all the pain for her but i cant so i keep trying to talk to her and she dont want to here it right now and i dont blame her i got about 4 calls last night from people looking to sell me some pills so i made i through that and today is another day so pray for me and my wife and i will do the same for you thanks

[cluelessNJ]

Tinkers- It would be easier to change your number. I waited till I was 30 days clean and then did it but I put myself thru hell trying to talk myself out of meeting people. Why don't you look into some sort of suppot for both of you! Meeting other clean people really helps! Its gets all the not so clean people out of your life. I would look into an NA meeting or even so kind of substance abuse counselor. Either or it helps to know that people are cheering you on. You can keep coming to this board (that what I did) and basically get alot of suppot here. I do feel bad for her because I know she must be going nuts at home. Plus, not sleeping. Gotta be rough. Get her some sominex. It does help! I am praying for you both!

Chrish- I'm glad I can see things thru your writing. Its always so refreshing and positive. I'm glad you had a good time in Disney! I am jealous of the weather but you have nice weather in Arizona too. I need to move out west. I think the east coast is way too cold for me.

Wanted to keep this short and sweet have to run errands!
[V]
Will be back soon!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[cluelessNJ]

Tinkers- It would be easier to change your number. I waited till I was 30 days clean and then did it but I put myself thru hell trying to talk myself out of meeting people. Why don't you look into some sort of suppot for both of you! Meeting other clean people really helps! Its gets all the not so clean people out of your life. I would look into an NA meeting or even so kind of substance abuse counselor. Either or it helps to know that people are cheering you on. You can keep coming to this board (that what I did) and basically get alot of suppot here. I do feel bad for her because I know she must be going nuts at home. Plus, not sleeping. Gotta be rough. Get her some sominex. It does help! I am praying for you both!

Chrish- I'm glad I can see things thru your writing. Its always so refreshing and positive. I'm glad you had a good time in Disney! I am jealous of the weather but you have nice weather in Arizona too. I need to move out west. I think the east coast is way too cold for me.

Wanted to keep this short and sweet have to run errands!
[V]
Will be back soon!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[cluelessNJ]

Tinkers- It would be easier to change your number. I waited till I was 30 days clean and then did it but I put myself thru hell trying to talk myself out of meeting people. Why don't you look into some sort of suppot for both of you! Meeting other clean people really helps! Its gets all the not so clean people out of your life. I would look into an NA meeting or even so kind of substance abuse counselor. Either or it helps to know that people are cheering you on. You can keep coming to this board (that what I did) and basically get alot of suppot here. I do feel bad for her because I know she must be going nuts at home. Plus, not sleeping. Gotta be rough. Get her some sominex. It does help! I am praying for you both!

Chrish- I'm glad I can see things thru your writing. Its always so refreshing and positive. I'm glad you had a good time in Disney! I am jealous of the weather but you have nice weather in Arizona too. I need to move out west. I think the east coast is way too cold for me.

Wanted to keep this short and sweet have to run errands!
[V]
Will be back soon!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[tinkers]

clueless

Thanks for the support we do take sleep aid and it dont work to good at this point i talked to her and she is very sleepy but no pains thats good i have been so busy today its not funny whatever could go wrong has but i keep praying and im getting a rush of energy for now as for na been there done that too clicky dident like it plus people kept hitting on my wife and thats no good. so im going to keep my head up and stay the course i know it can be done its just staying clean thats hard i just wish i could put some hope in my wife last night i made dinner and cleaned up to try to help also went to the store for her went to bed at about 8:30 or so and was up around 3-3:30 am but one thing i know for sure is that you dont need as much sleep when your clean thats a fact when useing i needed much more sleep and was very sleepy untill i took my first 3 or 5 pills in the am today i woke up and was wide awake so keep praying for us thanks for the help and i will keep checking posts

[cluelessNJ]

First, I don't know why my message got posted 3 times! Thats weird!

Tinkers- It can be done! You are doing it. It wil get easier as more time passes. Just try to keep her positive as well. I know it must be hard to know how Sh*tty she is feeling. Keep reminding your self that it will get better! I know that for a fact! I am motivated by money and once I noticed how much money I was really spending and how time consuming it can be to go on a mission for pills it is a wake up call. You start to notice the money quickly. You realize you have more time to do whatever you want. You don't have to worry about the bills or any dumb stuff like that. You can start to enjoy other things in life that you take for granted being messed up. I started taking longer walks with my dog, food, don't even know where to begin but its great when your appitite comes back. Sex, that was hugh for me because for years I never had sober intercourse. Sounds crazy but being clean is much more intimate. It didn't happen over night but slowly little things started making me happy again. Its very rewarding to know you are not depoendent on a pill to get you thru your day!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[dizzy23]

Clueless is absolutely RIGHT!!!!The world is a brighter place when you don't have to spend all your time worrying about how to get your next fix or where the $$ is coming from!













Debbie

Try to be correct!But not always successful!

[tinkers]

Hi all

Thanks for your help im now on day 4 soon to be day 5 i did sleep like a rock last night and feel pretty good today havent talked to wife yet so i pray she feels better i took my kids to church last night and she dident go so ill let you know how she is later today.

[cluelessNJ]

Tinkers,
I'm glad your sleeping. Is she taking any vitamins? Also I would think about Immodium. I know some people on another site I read on have used it to detox. I don't know the specifics but I will cut and pate it below.


overit
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Immodium
---------------------------------------------------------------------This stuff is very good for detox. Look into it. Do a search. It helps and it can save you a bindle of cash if you the WD's are stopping you from quitting your pill habit. It is an opioid that does not get you high. IT stops restlessness, and sneezing, and all the other physical effects but it takes a long time to kick in. Please try this before you try short term bupe. I AM NOT A DOCTOR but it worked for me several times. More information has been posted regarding imodium in the past so check it out. The best way to go is to buy a bottle of the 2mg generic pills called loperamide. That is the cheapest method although the liquid kicks in faster. ------


I would google it. It has worked for others maybe it will make it easier for her.




Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[cluelessNJ]

Hello everyone! I came accrossed a poem that is beautifuly written. Sort of sad! Sorry if it brings anyone down but it will keep me clean another day! Love Ya'll!

~He Said He'd Be Home Early~

He said he'd be home early,
And though I didn't doubt him,
I had this funny feeling...
(There was something strange about him)

He asked me for some money,
Then promised there'd be change,
But, as he made his promise,
He looked at me so strange...

As if his eyes could tell me...
"Please...don't ask what it's for"
I remember wanting to stop him...
Too late... he closed the door.

Then I recalled the message
I had gotten yesterday,
It said "Your old man owes me,
But, I'll give him one more day"...

Just one more day is all we have
To pay that past due bill...
We've never had much money;
We probably never will...

I remember now...the phone call...
Later on that very day.
"It's urgent that we see you...
Could you make it right away?"

The ride...it seemed liked hours,
But, I finally found the place.
When I realized just where I was,
The tears poured down my face...

"We need you to identify...
'John Doe' in Chamber Two."
"He died, today...an overdose...
Was he someone close to you?"

He said he'd be home early...
(The words now make me cry)
I have the strangest feeling,
That he didn't even try...

~unknown~

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[knapptown]

quote:Originally posted by CheySapphire

Just wanted to say hi to everyone and no I have not even tryed to cut myself back, but today is monday I don't have to be back at work until Friday so am going to try and cut myself down or even try to go three days with nothing, am just so scared of my mood swings and flu like feeling. susan

Susan37 Mother of 10 and Two grandchildren and one of them live with me.

[cluelessNJ]

Happy St Patricks Day!!!!
[][][][][][][][][][][]

Even this Irish girl will not use today! I might have to have a green beer! LOL! I never got the food coloring in beer!

I don't like when it gets real quiet! I get nervous for everyone! Thinking of all of you!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[chrish1]

Hey Tinkers, Keep it up! It can be done. There are several of us on this board that are living proof. You have to put your recovery first though, over everything.

Hi Not So Clueless. Happy St. Patricks day to you! I'm back in Arizona. Nice weather this time of the year - I think we will get a high in the mid 70's today... not to rub it in. Don't worry, in a month or 2 it will be hot as hell for several months. We are the reverse of the midwest and eastern states - our best weather days are in the winter and fall. Then we usually get 100+ days over 100 degrees. It's all good - I'm used to it. Getting back to work again sucked. It seems like it is always like that after a vacation. Oh well, life goes on, and I am having a great month in sales, so that helps. It's good since I have been on somewhat of a spending spree - $3-4k disneyland, $800 new guitar amplifier, thinking about buying a new guitar for $1700, buying a new keyboard for my wife- $1500-2k, new mp3 player $300... the rush of spending - priceless. LOL Anyway, with that I'd like to say, have a great CLEAN weekend and I'll try to put in a couple posts to touch base.

Chrish

Clean Date: 10/11/05

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[chrish1]

To the lurkers:

There is no good reason to be defeated by this cunning addiction. Get educated on how to live without drugs. There is education out there - you just need to find it; outpatient/ inpatient programs, NA, AA, On line education, support groups (like this board)... etc. There was a time when I felt defeated by the addiction, but now I am free of active addiction and all of the time, money, and energy that goes into that. However, I still need to take it one day at a time. Do not feel beaten by this. It can be conquered, but we all need help. Usually people who try to do it alone end up relapsing in the first couple months, but those who devise a good support system and get educated can win the battle, one day at a time. Days turn into weeks, and weeks turn into months. I am still not free of the thoughts about using. It is not the thought that destroys us, but what we do with that thought.

Choose not to use just for today.

Chrish

Clean Date: 10/11/05

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[cluelessNJ]

Chrish~~
Well put!

How are ya? About the weather, SHUT UP[}][][}]! I am so jealous. Its been like 30 here and with the wind it feels like 20. It sucks! I completly get the money spending! I have been treating myself to things I wouldn't while using! I had to cut other areas in order to maintain my habit! So sad looking back! All that money I wasted for years! WTF! I'm just glad I don't have to spend it on that anymore. I actually spent $135 on a pair of jeans! YES, jeans! It felt great too! Find myself spending like crazy at wal-mart and target on silly things that I really don't need but I want! Its a new high for me! I do enjoy saving money alot too! Its just very comforting to know you have alot of money in the bank! Instead of getting overdraft notices!

Tinkers~ How are you? Hopefully your making it thru the weekend alright without wanting to leave your wife [}][][}]! Just kidding! Let us know how you are!

Anyone lurking...... As chrish said..........

quoteo not feel beaten by this.

You CAN quit! We are proof that it can be done!


Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[DixieGirl]

*sticks to in the water to see if it's the right temperature

Hello all,
Well, I haven't been lurking long (less than 24 hours), but have been reading and decided to jump in here. The bottom line is I am looking for a new home online. I am addicted to hydrocodone and my last day of abusing narcotics was 11/5/2005....so I guess that puts my 1st day clean at 11/6/2005. I am beating this problem with Suboxone. (And that is a whole different discussion in itself, for many find that this is the lazy man's way to beat addiction).

Like many here, I started off as a pain patient and quickly discovered my love of the poppy. I told many that my addiction was only 2 or three years, but when I look myself in the mirror, it's really more like 14 years. I have had many ups and downs, but the most earth-shattering experience for me was realizing that I must be abstinent for life......my life depends upon it.

Also, like many, my addiction was kept in the closet. No one, including my husband, was totally aware of my abuse. Addiction can isolate you....make you feel like you are fighting the battle on your own. I have tried face 2 face meetings - but find online support benefits me more. Call it a sign of the times if you will. I believe each and every person must do what works for them....there are so many options open to us, we just need to explore them.

I thought I had this addiction "thing" beat and got careless in my recovery. (No slips to date). One night I came home stressed and wound up pretty tight. Without even thinking about it, I reached for one of my old favorites, Bailey's Irish Creme. See, I rarely drank and this bottle is probably almost one year old. I poured a few ounces (last of the bottle) and drank it while reading my email. Didn't get drunk, not even a buzz. The next day, I bought a new bottle. This time after pouring the two or so ounces, I mentioned it in an email to one of my recovery buds. The reply smacked me right upside the head. "Examine what you are doing." I reacted as if I had committed a mortal sin and spent the next few days examing my recovery. Sure enough, I had put it on the shelf in the closet, got lazy, and was in the process of replacing my drug of choice. That date in early February is when my recovery really began......the date I finally "got" it.

My recovery is still in it's infancy, with many miles to go. I look forward to meeting the folks here and see if it's a good match.

Dixie
(edited to correct dates from '06 to '05)



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[ginafl2]

Hi Everybody,

You guys probably don't remember me. I started on this thread about 7 months ago. I am a opiet addict. I too started out as a pain patient about three years ago. I got my back problem fixed about 9 months ago and was left with the 'other' problem. I took as many as 20 vicodin a day just to stay normal. When i finally came clean to my doctors, they were so supportive. It has taken 8 months of tapering and going from norco's to suboxone then to liquid oxycodone. I got down to 10 mg's of the oxycodone a day. Yesterday was my first opiet free day. I had very, very mild withdrawls. I started taking immodium and the valium my doctor gave me and I feel great. He only gave me 10, 5 mg valium just to make sure I didn't take too much. My biggest challeng was sleeping last night, but I managed to pull out a full 7-8 hours. Anyway, If anyone is out there that thinks they can't do it, you are wrong. I feel great and I thank God for helping me through this. The best advice I can give anyone is GET HELP! Don't try and do it alone.

May the Force be with All of You,
and God Bless,



Gina