[IcameIdidIconquered]

EN OPP-
U have no idea how much talking to u has helped. As im sure u know when ur world is consumed with pills everyone u know and hang with is either on them or selling them, so the only answers my "friends" have given me are "y are u doin that 2 ur self, here take a pill" or "y do u think i sell the ******************** and dont take it" so its been awesome to talk to someone whos been there! Last night was better. I slept 2 hrs strait thru and it was heaven. I have been clean of the tram either 4 or 5 days now and think the worst is over I keep loosing time though its like my body is so tired it keeps shutting down for a couple minutes here and there- I went to a local pharm and talked w/the pharmacist she recommended StressEase Tabs and pills for RLS (both herbal)and either they worked or i finally died but either way i slept luckily i actually do not crave the pills what so ever! I have 2 kids (23mos & 5 mos) my habit was taking food, toys, whatever away from them so i have more than enough motivation the w/d just has/is kicking my butt. On a happier note- im very proud of u for ur sobriety and will continue to prey for you- please do the same for me and i will keep u posted. Another day down (14 days now) a lifetime to go...........

[EN OPP]

IcameIdidIconquered - When I quit, I also had someone, a random person to talk to me on this forum everyday. It helped me more than I could ever imagine, which is why I'm praying for you and I'll try to help you as much as I can through this. It's easier to relate to someone that is/was in your position, I'll be here to support you until this is over.
I also felt like my body would shut down, I would have energy for some of the day and then just hit a brick wall. My energy level got better by the day tho, I think I mentioned before by the 3rd-4th week my body was not shutting down anymore. I'll check in here tonight...keep taking it one day at a time.

[steve sponaugle]

Thyroid, Testosterone, DHEA, Estradiol and Progesterone hormone levels can all become deficient, after opiate withdrawal. Florida Detox has measured thyroid deficiency, occuring about six months after an Oxycontin detox.
These deficiencies and the fatigue and depression they produce can be eliminated with medical treatment.


The prolonged constipation produced by opiates, sometimes produces malabsorption of iron and vitamin B12. Systemic fungal overgrowth can also occur, during prolonged constipation, due to opiate use. The fungal overgrowth can often be treated successfully, with herbals and probiotics. Prescription Nystatin and Diflucan can also be used to treat the fungal overgrowth.

The gastrointestinal system has more serotonin receptors, than the brain. Healing the gut, which is sometimes called the "second brain," is sometimes necessary to reduce post opiate abstinence withdrawal syndrome.

Steven Sponaugle
Research Director, Florida Detox
www.floridadetox.com

[sm01040]

My boyfriend takes painkillers (percocets) and they totally change his personality is there anyway I can help him. He's not very reasonable when he takes them. And I'm not sure how to help? Do I just have to wait until he realizes its a problem? we've dealt with this in the past and I know exactly where it will lead? What is the best way to help an addict?

[IcameIdidIconquered]

EN- its day 17 and im still alive Oh my God what a ride.... I took a couple days off of here to try and finish getting ME back! Last night i slept 4 hours...STRAIGHT....I feel myself starting to come back little by little. Im still not doing too hot with my energy level but Ive been making sure i get my butt up and moving. I never realized how much of myself-my true self i had let go while usin an abusin. I went from cant keep me still with superglue to cant get me off the couch without a pill. Im still struggling with that 1st pill- u know the early morning "coffee pill"- other than that i have no desire to take those freakin things! I want to thank u again for stickin thru this maddness with me and everyone else im sure youve helped- your sobriety has been a true inspiration. Will keep you posted and u please do the same!


sm-
Girl I hate to say it but addicts HAVE TO hit rock bottom before they can rise. This $hits a cruel game to say the least. Worst part is its everywhere so even when u kinda think u wanna stop then u meet a new hook up and its on. It took me almost loosing my children, marriage, home- everything ive worked 25 years to have to wake me up and decide to come clean. A friend recently told me the only way out of addiction is to loose- loose everything you have or loose your life! Unfortunatly i dont have a magic answer if i did i would offer it on a gold platter. I do know it will never happen unless HE truely wants it to happen. Just stay strong- get ur boy on here to talk and read threads- that was one of my biggest problems when i was using- i was scared to detox! Its by no means a fun experience but In the end its going to be so worth it. But u will find there are some awesome ppl on here ( like EN OPP )that can help, be it recommeding a OTC med to help the withdrawl or a shoulder to lean on- maybe just knowing there are ppl out there going thru the same thing will wake him up. Please keep us up on how u are doing. Good luck and God Bless

[EN OPP]

IcameIdidIconquered - Congratulations! I know the time has been going by slowly, but surely, you are now at 18 days clean and that's great to hear. Are you over all the physical symptoms now?

I remember when I was at your stage in recovery I tried a few things for energy, besides exercise I tried that "5-hour energy" and it worked pretty well when I felt too lazy to even move from the couch. When I was taking pills, I was down for anything, never too tired as long as I had some pills left. Alot of people are scared that they won't be able to do everything they used to without all that energy they used to have. Especially the moms here who felt they were "super-mom" when they were high. Well I can honestly say now being clean for 53 days I have more energy, motivation, and health than I ever had on oxy.

Also that first pill of the day stuck in my mind for a while, until I woke up one morning, looked out my window, and I thought about working out and going to the beach instead of getting high. I promise you'll also wake up soon (probably after your first full night's sleep) thinking about the things you enjoy and cherish in life instead of a drug.

[sm01040]

I was afraid of that. Thanks for the advice.

[EN OPP]

As I'm reaching the 2 month mark, I couldn't feel better. Being free from an opiate addiction is wonderful, I can finally enjoy my life again! I hope everyone out there struggling with this addiction is on their path to recovery. It can be done everyone, if anyone reading this is considering quitting I'll be glad to try and help.

[Playmookie]

Hi Everyone, I am new to this. New enough to post a new thread instead of just add to this one! I figured it out though.

I have been addicted to Vicodin and Percocet off and on for 20 years now. I won't bore you with the long story. Once again, I am on again and ready to say goodbye. Yes, I started because of Surgerys and learned to think that they were fun to have around. I have no control and at my worst have taken over 200mg in a day.

I read all these stories and I read about me. It's crazy that there are so many of us wanting to kick this. You would think if we were United we could actually accomplish something amazing like curing this! If there is such a thing.

Bottom line: We all want to feel good. We want to feel good about who we are and understand a little about why we are here.

Thank God for me understanding that I am capable of feeling great Sober and I even believe that I am actually happier, full of energy and excited with life if only I would give myself the time it takes to heal from this addiction. (Which I haven't for the past year) You would think this knowledge would have led me to be Sober now! That is the baffling part. My mind always lies to me and I actually believe it! That is addiction: One big fat lie laced with FEAR of life in general.

And yet, this knowledge is why I intend to quit (again) and not touch another. So here I reach out to you because I am starting my withdrawels going cold turkey tomorrow. Of course scared of whats to come and excited for making a step to get my life back. I want to feel "real" again. I want to feel that peaceful feeling when you wake up and hear the birds singing out your window and you feel that excitement with the day and whats to come. When you can actually make plans to do something with someone without fear of getting tired or being out of pills. I want to have spontanous laughter enter my life again and have some geniune moments and remain present in the moment.

So I dust off my sweater and get back into the game of life.
I do appreciate this forum. Thankyou for listening.

[IcameIdidIconquered]

EN- 21 DAYS "and the crowd goes wild" I am done!!!!!!!! All physical w/d gone. Sleeping 4-5 hours a night again... getting my "mom game face" back on and challenging the world. Started a new job today and that was kinda weird- i havent craved pills thru this whole process except in the morning but the whole day today that was all i thought about. Dont know if it was b/c it was the first day in 4 years ive worked sober and was kinda in awe of the whole "oh this is what normal ppl do" train of thought or b/c it was the first day in 4 years ive worked sober and i felt it all over....My body feels like its been ran over Thats what sux the most. I was put on the freakin pills 4 a reason...so now what? Hopefully my body will build its own tolerance & the pain will fade BUT its ok.....its gonna have to be Id rather hurt and sleep well than hurt, crawl outta my skin and etc. over and over again...... 2 a happier note im very proud of u for ur sobriety! Keep up the good work and inspiration- i honestly hope u know i couldnt have done this w/o your support and advice and im sure there are many others who have also came and conquered w/ your help!

MOOK- Good luck on your new journey. Youre already ahead of the game by knowing the symptoms you will have thru detox (but my God man lets make this the last time....)and having the foresight to know there is life without pills! Those are the things that scared me the most so good luck good luck good luck- God Bless and keep us posted

[EN OPP]

IcameIdidIconquered - I couldn't be happier for you! You've accomplished something that not everyone can, and you should be very proud. Time and time again people jump from a few days of sobriety to addiction multiple times before actually stopping for an extended period...or FOREVER (like us right? )

As for the pain that you mentioned at work, I remember when I was at the same stage of recovery as you, any small pain like stubbing my toe felt excrutiating. That also in time goes away as your receptors heal. I don't have any aches or excessive pain now, and haven't since around the 4th week of being clean.

I'm happy that I could help you out a little, support is an amazing tool for us addicts and it took me a while to learn that. Now that you are clean, the only concern is not going back and taking even one pill, but I'm sure you know that. Keep up the good work. I really am proud of you.

[Playmookie]

Hi Everyone,

I fell off the wagon in Dec last year and was taking around 150-200mg Oxycodone since. I'm on Day 2 1/2 without any pills and I think I am going to make it. I know life is better without pills and I hold onto that thought.

I wanted to give you some hope. I am sorta surprised that I haven't suffered all that much and I'm hoping it gets even better. Yes, I do feel cold and hot at the same time and I'm extremely tired. I've had some headaches that I've been able to keep at bay and I've been able to sleep all night (thankgod). My legs haven't ached that much this time and I'm wondering if it's due to the supplements I was taking before I quite. Like the magesium and Potasium. No Diarrhea as of yet. I'm praying this is all I'm going to get.

I also started a supplement for depression because I know that gets me everytime: 1-100mg 5HTP 1-500 L-Tyrosine and 1-100 tab of B-6. My head hasen't crashed into Depression as of yet. (The supplements increase your Serotonin levels thats crash after withdrawels)

During this period, I haven't allowed my head to say any negative thoughts regarding guilt, or putting myself down, or even thinking about what's to come. I know I am not strong enough to deal with those emotions yet.

I am just allowing my body to heal. So here goes Day 2.

[me717]

Hello, I have been lurking around here for a few weeks. I am addicted to opiates, with my favorite drugs being hydrocodone (10's) & oxycodone (7.5's). I can take between 10 - 15 pills a day when I have them and have been doing so for about 2 years. I am 31 and a mother of 2 beautiful children. The only person who knows of my addiction is my husband and he really is of no support. He actually helps add to my problem because he gives me his pills for his chronic pain. I decided to join and post today because I need real support and advice. I know I need to stop and I have tried cold turkey several times over the last few months but the wd's are so hard that I usually end up caving...After reading posts, I decided to go to a clinic here to see if anyone could help me. I met with a therapist for an intake evaluation and I walked away a bit disappointed and felt worse. I had done research on Suboxone, even had them mail me some of the literature on it and the web site said this clinic was suppose to be trained in dispensing it (that is why I chose them in the first place). I need an outpatient program because I am a mother of 2, with one of my children being disabled, work full-time in a very unsupportive environment and I have a husband that is more like a child than an adult. I thought I had explained this to the therapist pretty clearly but she said the only way they could begin to treat me is by me checking into the "Recovery House" for two weeks and then doing intensive outpatient care 3x a week for three or more months. She also went on to tell me that I would have to quit taking my antidepressants (Cymbalta) while i detox because wd can mimic everything and I might not even be depressed. Now I have been on antidepressants since I was 19...I have tried to stop taking them several times but my world falls apart...I know that I am just one of those people that have to be on them or I will kill myself so her telling me that scares the stuffing out of me. She also said that they don't prescribe meds for addiction. I know that breaking this addiction is going to be FAR from easy and uncomfortable but what this lady told me made me feel uneasy and a little worthless...I was proud that I had put myself out there, on my own, and tried to take steps to get clean. So I guess why I even wanted to post is to ask: Can I look around to see what other programs are in my town or is this pretty typical? I don't even know how to bring this up with my family doctor. I guess I just need some feedback and advice.

[mtdewlvr_99]

I came here looking for help. I am in day 3 of wd's for probably the 10th or 11th time. This one was the worse by far. I don't know why I keep going back. I started taking percoset in 2003 or a torn ACL and was hooked. I was in the military so I couldn't keep getting them but subsequently had to foot surgeries and once again I was in heaven. I am now retired and have been taking them steadily for a little over 2 years. The VA took me off Percoset and put me on Vicodin, I transitioned very easily. I get 120 for a one month supply but they don't last and every month I go through withdrawals eagerly awaiting my mailman's delivery of the mail for my next fix. I really want this time to be the last. I am the mother of a wonderful 11 year old daughter and every time I go through withdrawals I lay in my recliner for 2 - 3 days in agony telling her I have the flu. My next delivery is scheduled for Tuesday or Wednesday and it can't come quick enough. I feel terrible, I even called my niece who live in the city to see if she knows someone who has them, how terrible is that?? I previously went though alcohol rehab in 1994, I have no desire to drink, just to take pills. I also recently lost my partner to brain cancer so life hasn't been that great but it could be worse. Just needed to get that off my chest, I actually feel better.....until tuesday or wednesday.

[tbone12]

Originally Posted by Felicity

Hi, I have a question. My husband is addicted to pain pills and I'm trying to find a clinic in our area that will give him suboxin, can anyone tell me how to go about finding one? I would really appreciate it. Thanks

To me Soboxone sounds like a trade off drug, Like methadone.
Might be better to get your husband to just stop and goe through a few days of pure hell.
I have been on Vic.s,Lorocet, Norco , at least 8-9 different times and have always been able to get off the stuff alone , but it aint fun. Why so many times Quiting , Doctors. Break a shoulder , prescribe vicodin, snap a knee cap, prescribe vicodin, throw your back out, prescribe vic, well thats the vicious cycle.
Im on my third day of recovery after eating 15 vicodins a day for 13 months now, and I am a mess but I no in a couple days Ill be better and better.
Sure as hell hope Im right .
Good Luck ,
Vicodin starts off as a life saver but then it really sucks This $%^% sucks

Tbone

[toughytaco]

http://www.drugs.com/forum/featured-...nal-43458.html

Someone found a method to help detox at home. I didn't want to steal there idea so i figured i would send you the link. I hope this helps.

[laurastaff]

Of coarse, research Doctor's in your area. Depending on his level of addiction, dosage I mean, ( addiction is addiction ) substituting one drug for another may not be needed.Get every opinion you can ( from Doctors ) and go with you gut. There are always ather options than suboxin. I wish you much luck.

Originally Posted by Thunder

I copied his URL from the suboxin website, it is a loctor of dr's qualified to treat with buprenorphine [suboxin]

http://buprenorphine.samhsa.gov/bwns_locator/index.html

below is also suboxin ebsite

http://www.suboxone.com/Suboxone/home.htm

[IcameIdidIconquered]

EN OPP- I have fallen....I thought i had beat my addiction but am still fighting. 8 days ago i told myself since i was detoxed taking one pill wouldnt hurt me and since i didnt really crave the pills when i quit that one pill wouldnt hook me again either. I was wrong. I took one 1st thing in the morn. as u know i have 2 small kids and one had been sick and up all night and i had to go to work and hadnt slept yet so i took a pill to help boost me up. That was all i took and felt fine. Then the next day came and i took another before work. Now its been 8 days i have taken a pill every morning to get me up and going. At 1st i thought i was fine since i was taking one 10 hydro a day compared to the 15 10's hydro and 8 5's oxys a day i was taking when using, but 3 days ago my 1 turned to 2 and today i took 4 10's and 2 5's i dont know what happened. I thought i was better than this....go thru literally weeks of pain and torture to get clean and swore off pills forever now i feel like im back where i started. Good thing is i have no more pills so i cant take anymore definately have no money to buy more but im affraid that since it hasnt been so long since i detoxed that my body will cycle again and that will kill me! Do you think my body will have full withdrawl again? Guess i will find out soon enough. I cant believe i let myself slip like that. I was so proud of myself! I am not feening for pills but when they were here i couldnt help myself- i obviously am not strong enough to turn down whats in front of me..... I hope i can do it this time for real. I already notice the effects on my body though- u know attitude change, lack of appetite, constipation...all that is what scares the ******************** outta me....i just dont wanna detox like that again. Please write back- i screwed up thinking that after only a month clean i was superwoman and could be around them w/o breaking and taking. Ive read all these ppls stories about falling off the wagon and kept saying "My God why would you put ur self thru all that pain and craziness again for a freaking pill- once ur off stay off" i guess i thought and spoke too soon- Help

[me717]

Hi IcameIdidIconquered, I know you posted for EN OPP but I saw your message and I could relate. I hope you don't mind me talking to you. I posted a few days ago but no one posted back and I could really use some support as well. A few weeks ago I went for 14 days without anything. I had a few bad nights with my child, he is special needs, and he was having trouble sleeping so then i did. I had to go to work so I decided that I could take a pill to get by just one day...yeah right. I reverted back. I ran out of pills today and am getting ready to start the detox process again. I work in a very unsupportive work environment in which I can't even call in sick unless I have a doctor's statement. I feel so ashamed and like I am the weakest person ever! I have so much stuff to do this week and a job interview and I don't even know how I am going to get through it all. I kick myself for thinking that I could even take one and be alright. I come to this board looking for people like myself that are in the same boat and don't pass judgement. My husband knows of my problem and I finally just begged him to step up and take over my responsiblities until I can get through the worst of the detox...but he tells me (after I have poured my heart and soul out) that he doesn't know if he can! So frustrating because I KNOW I have to get clean but the resources available to me in my town just can't meet my needs and then my only support is wishywashy...I just don't know what to do. I am hoping someone here can befriend me because I really do feel like I am at the end of my rope and so very alone. I am sorry for dumping this all on you ICame, but I wanted you to know that we are all very much alike in our battle and that you are not alone.

[EN OPP]

IcameIdidIconquered - Don't beat yourself up over taking these pills, you will not feel "full-blown" withdrawals, but you will have some. Before actually quitting this time I had tried to quit and started back up more than a few times. It's normal, and most of us addicts go through this. The important thing is to once you fall off the horse, get back on right?

The thing about taking that 1 pill is not that it will harm you, that 1 pill will make your brain think it's ok to take 1 more, and then 2 more... just like you experienced. It's just as hard to stay clean as it is to get clean. You really have to understand that you HAVE to change your lifestyle after getting clean, do everything in your power to not even come across any pills. Hope you are feeling alright today. If you just need to talk remember I'm always here.

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by me717

Hi IcameIdidIconquered, I know you posted for EN OPP but I saw your message and I could relate. I hope you don't mind me talking to you. I posted a few days ago but no one posted back and I could really use some support as well. A few weeks ago I went for 14 days without anything. I had a few bad nights with my child, he is special needs, and he was having trouble sleeping so then i did. I had to go to work so I decided that I could take a pill to get by just one day...yeah right. I reverted back. I ran out of pills today and am getting ready to start the detox process again. I work in a very unsupportive work environment in which I can't even call in sick unless I have a doctor's statement. I feel so ashamed and like I am the weakest person ever! I have so much stuff to do this week and a job interview and I don't even know how I am going to get through it all. I kick myself for thinking that I could even take one and be alright. I come to this board looking for people like myself that are in the same boat and don't pass judgement. My husband knows of my problem and I finally just begged him to step up and take over my responsiblities until I can get through the worst of the detox...but he tells me (after I have poured my heart and soul out) that he doesn't know if he can! So frustrating because I KNOW I have to get clean but the resources available to me in my town just can't meet my needs and then my only support is wishywashy...I just don't know what to do. I am hoping someone here can befriend me because I really do feel like I am at the end of my rope and so very alone. I am sorry for dumping this all on you ICame, but I wanted you to know that we are all very much alike in our battle and that you are not alone.

I posted for you on the thread you started about the dr you went to. Check it out. You just saw a bad dr. Have some suggestions to help get you through this. Will be looking for you.

[me717]

Thank you so much Robert_325. I saw you did and I really appreciate the advice. Now just to decide what move to make next.

[IcameIdidIconquered]

EN OPP- so far i feel ok yet it has not been 24 hours. I guess i thought....well i dont know what i thought...obviously i wasnt thinking at all! I appreciate the "realness" the honesty and niceness about whats happened. It helps to know that just b/c it happened does not mean i cant do it and do it right this time. Changing my life as true as i know that statement to be is as hard as the detox. In living your whole life around pills for 4 years you come to aquire a "circle" that consists of only other addicts or dealers. I am trying to stay away but its hard. In some twisted reality i have bonds with those ppl i will never have with others. Thanks 4 writing back and plz stay close to ur pc so i can contact u again soon.


Me717- It sounds like we are twins in our addiction although my husband was/is an addict too. Unfortunately he fell off the wagon with me but as EN OPP said we have to get back on the horse. I cannot imagine trying to detox without support- i am so sorry! My husband and i detoxed 2gether so even when we couldnt move it helped to know the other was right there going thru it. I will be here for you in anyway possible. EN OPP was my detox angel and hopefully i can be yours. I just have to keep my stubborn self clean this time. Its hard for someone who doesnt know addiction to truly understand it. It prob hurting ur husband as much as its hurting u in that u are his wife and he cant fix u or doesnt think "u love him and ur family enough to just stop" I watched my father and step mother go thru the exact situation where my dad was an addict and she didnt understand. I used to watch her get so mad and just scream " just stop..quit b**ching about it and just quit" He cant understand and never will. Try asking him to read thru this site and its threads (mainly this one) It might help him to see how powerful this ******************** is and maybe reading that everyone has basically the same wretched detox symptoms will show him its real, its hard- the hardest thing u will evr do, and its hurts mind body and soul and hopefully although he still will not truly understand he might have a little more insight and compassion. Just have faith in knowing you did it once and made it 14 days so you know you can do it again. As far as your children go when i was at my peak detox they are what saved me in the sense WE HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF THEM. They are our babies! Our innocent angels that did not ask to be born into addiction. So the simple tasks like feeding, diaper changes, playing that were torture while detoxing still had to be done and done with a smile or as close to one possible. You need not apologize for "dumping" anything on me Lord knows i have dumped more than my fair share and it helped me 100% Unfortunatly i do not have any golden words or a great success story (yet) to share with you to help u in your battle but please know i am here whenever you need to vent . Hopefully you and i can be telling each other how many days weve been clean soon and this will be a fight we can proudly say we have fought and won. Until then keep your head up you are not alone

[wxman]

Hi,
I took Hydro 7.5 for about 5 months 3 to 4 pills per day. Doesnt sound like much compared to some on these boards. But nonetheless, I quit because just a few days ago, I slumped into depression. Yesterday morning I woke up and decided I would not take them again. ANYWAY!!!!

I have been up alllllll night. No sleep!!!! but my depression is gone and I feel so much better. I was even getting anxiety that was causing me to have a tight chest and was feeling terrible.

My question to anyone, is, how many days can I expect to have restless sleep? Also, do people who have taken 3 to 4 suffer the same as people who take larger quantities?
Just wondering. I want to be normal again!!!

[EN OPP]

IcameIdidIconquered - I guess you could say I was lucky, I only had a few connections and once I decided to quit, it was very easy to delete their numbers and cut them off. Those people were never my friends, just people trying to profit from my addiction. None of the people closest to me including my girlfriend of 2 years knew of my problem, it was like a secret life I had, and no1 suspected a thing...Now I understand it's hard to not be around your friends because it seems like they support you during tough times, but if they are bringing pills around you, it's only taking you closer to relapsing. I can't even lie, if any of my friends put a couple roxies in front of me right now, even after being clean for almost 80 days, they would be up my nose or in my stomach very quickly lol.
Changing your lifestyle after getting clean is important just for that reason, that "circle" you mentioned needs to be broken, if you don't want to lose your friends, then try to help them get clean, and if they don't want that help...they will eventually bring you down. I'm sorry for being somewhat harsh, but I know how hard it is trying to stay clean when you got pills around.
Anyways, are you having any withdrawal symptoms today? I hope you're doing good.

wxman - Withdrawals last depending on how many pills you took a day and for how long. Your 30mg a day habit for 5 months will not lead to as severe withdrawals as me when I quit doing 150mg a day for over a year. I can't give you an exact time frame of when your sleep will come back, but due to your low dosage it shouldn't take more than a week. Good luck.

[me717]

I want to thank you, Icame, for your offer of support. I will take you up on it because I don't know how to make it without the support. I am up to 24 hrs right now. I had to drag my sorry self into work and later today I have an interview for a position that could up my income to about $9,000 more than I make now. It is so very important and I am praying that I can pull myself together enough to ace this! So anyone out there reading this, please send me positive energy today so that I might make it through. Having my hubby read where I post is an excellent idea...maybe he can get some support as well because I have noticed partners posting asking for advice. It is also so true about the babies...they are my guardian angels and the only reason why I get up and get going. In my darkest times, if I didn't have them, I believe that I could step over the edge, but because i have them I never contemplate that...I pull myself up and take care of my assets. I am so glad I found this board and I hope through this it can be the support I need to keep going.

For wxman, I might suggest to you a pm medicine. Tylenol PM has helped me but there are several out there: Advil PM, Benadyral (SP?)-which is basically the Tylenol PM without the Tylenol, & Nyquil. It might help you get through a bit. I can't tell you how long all of it will last but I can second EN OPP, you were not taking as much as some so from my understanding and research your withdrawal shouldn't be as bad or last as long as those of us that have been on the evil substances at higher doses/longer times.

[wxman]

Thanks for the response. What a terrible addiction!!! I feel for those who have been doing it longer and finally quiting.
I feel lousy today. I just hope I get a little sleep tonight. Will try the Tylenol pm.
Peace to you all

Originally Posted by me717

I want to thank you, Icame, for your offer of support. I will take you up on it because I don't know how to make it without the support. I am up to 24 hrs right now. I had to drag my sorry self into work and later today I have an interview for a position that could up my income to about $9,000 more than I make now. It is so very important and I am praying that I can pull myself together enough to ace this! So anyone out there reading this, please send me positive energy today so that I might make it through. Having my hubby read where I post is an excellent idea...maybe he can get some support as well because I have noticed partners posting asking for advice. It is also so true about the babies...they are my guardian angels and the only reason why I get up and get going. In my darkest times, if I didn't have them, I believe that I could step over the edge, but because i have them I never contemplate that...I pull myself up and take care of my assets. I am so glad I found this board and I hope through this it can be the support I need to keep going.

For wxman, I might suggest to you a pm medicine. Tylenol PM has helped me but there are several out there: Advil PM, Benadyral (SP?)-which is basically the Tylenol PM without the Tylenol, & Nyquil. It might help you get through a bit. I can't tell you how long all of it will last but I can second EN OPP, you were not taking as much as some so from my understanding and research your withdrawal shouldn't be as bad or last as long as those of us that have been on the evil substances at higher doses/longer times.

[me717]

Hello Everyone, I was able to get through my interview yesterday. I think it went well and should know in a few days if I got the job promotion or not. I am feeling pretty lousy today but i expected I would...2 days in to withdraw I ache all over and my tummy is doing its thing...I am super tired. It is raining here which I think adds to my need to just sleep but I have to fight it because I had to drag my sorry self to work. I hope everyone else is doing well.

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by me717

Hello Everyone, I was able to get through my interview yesterday. I think it went well and should know in a few days if I got the job promotion or not. I am feeling pretty lousy today but i expected I would...2 days in to withdraw I ache all over and my tummy is doing its thing...I am super tired. It is raining here which I think adds to my need to just sleep but I have to fight it because I had to drag my sorry self to work. I hope everyone else is doing well.

You are doing just fine. The second day is a tough one. Realistically the next couple days will not be fun, but just stay focused and you will get through it. Remember the Immodium for your stomach, the Gatorade for dehydration and try to go for a walk if the rain lightens up some. It will help make you feel a little better. And you are NOT sorry. You are taking major steps to improve yourself. Cut yourself some slack ... you deserve it! We are not bad people we just made some errors in judgement with choices we've made in the past. Good luck and keep posting.

[me717]

Originally Posted by Robert_325

You are doing just fine. The second day is a tough one. Realistically the next couple days will not be fun, but just stay focused and you will get through it. Remember the Immodium for your stomach, the Gatorade for dehydration and try to go for a walk if the rain lightens up some. It will help make you feel a little better. And you are NOT sorry. You are taking major steps to improve yourself. Cut yourself some slack ... you deserve it! We are not bad people we just made some errors in judgement with choices we've made in the past. Good luck and keep posting.

You are a really good person Robert, thank you. I am so glad I found this site because I probably wouldn't have come as far as I could without it and people like you.