[stoph]

social bunch aren't we.

what a waste of time comming here.

thanks for 0 (except Patmamma)

i'll go wallow in my own self as most of you seem to prefer... by the way5 days now and starting to feel hopeful.

peace, pax, paz...wotever seppos

[patmamma]

Hey Babe!

I just was prepping for my first road race, between training, the kids, work, etc, I havent checked in for a spell......Dont judge the posts by the recent lack of enthusiasm.....I know how hard those first few days are, and I am watching with great hope for you! Especially with a new baby! Ugg! You hardly get sleep as it is, let alone the issues that I at least had with sleep after stopping the popping.

I hope you check in, and I am so glad to hear you are hanging on. Just seemed to me like day 15 was a real change moment.
Patmamma

[stoph]

cheers Patmamma,

had to have a look to see if i got a bite- wasn't going to, but i'm naturally gregarious.

in another forum i like (australian snow website) people just seem to be a little more responsive, maybe my posts suffer from a language barrier- i'm trying not to be too aussie...my friends took an english guy to the footy (australian rules football) and of course when you get a group of people from a similar demographic, you all tend to talk in a similar vernacular- the pom (english guy) announced that until comming to Aus, he thought we spoke english, and that he could barely follow us, and this is from a place where they use similar addresses like mate etc.

what sort of road race: cycle, motor bike, car...?

what distance?

as for the hanging on, i got a great report from the doc; next to no liver damage (mine must be cast iron given what i've done), blood pressure dropping, and all round happiness that i've taken the initative to cut back my prescribed dose 25 %.

feeling good, even though i mangled my ankle in a skateboard accident yesterday. at the time i thought it was broken [i have had experience with that! bloody skaties!] and so i thought, "this will be an interesting test of my resolve."
but it is only badly sprained and while it is a touch tender, it hasn't caused my mindset to waver, or my inner vioce to doubt my ability to go without painkillers and get through it. i wonder if the prescribed dose of codiene is helping, but i'm taking about 1/3 of what i was abusing, so i don't think so.

thanks for replying to my surliness, sorry about the seppo line, please know that i'm doing really well [and am aware of the honeymoon effect i'm currently enjoying], i must go now as it is late here, and while it would mean nothing to people in the US, australia is about to play in the final of the cricket one day world cup- and as we all (should) know, cricket is the game god would chose to play if it ever felt like taking up a sport. [8-)

[Junkie781]

Been dabbling again for the last few months.....stupid. I never get to the point of using daily.....but I use every week. Rarely for more than 3 consecutive days.....but once again, I've gotten to the point where I am taking 15 or 20 pills at a time to catch a buzz.....get me through my days.....I'm an idiot for doing this to myself *again*

So, now, here I am starting my 3rd day clean *again* and feeling ok, but a little out of sorts....

Anyway, some of you may remember me from last year. I came on this board, got clean, stayed clean for about 6 or 7 months....life was good. Then I relapsed.

That relapse, while pretty bad, hasn't gotten totally out of hand, but for a junkie like me isn't *any* usage of opiates just asking for trouble? Of course it is!

So, here I am. Starting over again. Very sick of the merry-go-round.

[timeandplace]

sorry to hear that junkie. i've got 24 days clean and believed that when i make it to 3 months i've got a chance at staying clean. reading your experience makes me think there has to be a time where your chance is very good but what is that? 6 months? a year? i hope not because my goal of 3 months was based on what others have said regarding a significant milestone that would give you the best chance at stayiong clean..........

[rorvan76]

hey all,
havent been around much the past week..been having some personal probs..and also,wont lie but i was put to a test this week.. been arguing with hubby a lil ,and been stressed over alot of different things..well when i went into his pocket to get some change out,found a bottle of the tylenol 4 with codeine(thats what i had my prob with this time, up until feb.)..well i held the bottle in my hand,sat and stared at it for about 30 min..was soooooooo tempted.i tried to say to myself,well i wont do what i did before because i knew the hell i would go through,and then the addict part was saying who cares i need that rush,hell with the consequences....well thankfully i didnt cave.and i told him to make sure they are nowhere to be found......so anyway,hope all is well with everyone.. babysteps,lyds,patmamma,never me,and to any lurkers,newbies,and anyone ive never spoken to. hope youre doing ok.

[patmamma]

Rorvan, I am so proud of you! Wow! I understand though. I think at this point I would be able to walk away, but I remember a time I thought that would be impossible. I guess you have to go through it a few times, (not in everyone's case), to get it right. I know all of you know I had shock due to meds I was allergic to, had miserable migraines, (I have never had one), was given epi-pins, and, yes, had to use a few percocets to get me through the total abdominal pain which was the reason I asked for something else to help with the pain and got put on this ******************** I was allergic to....here we go, round and round. But, I did flush the remaining perscription, and was very careful to not take these except as was absolutley necessary. By the way, I have had no withdrawls from the 5 pills I ended up needing, and am not craving them at all. So, I feel in some way that is a victory! Very important changes are taking place in my chemistry. Sorry to go on and on, but I feel things are indeed changing. If you go by my original clean date in March, I would be almost 2 months clean. I know that isnt fair to those who have not had to take one, and have stayed totally clean, so I no longer post my clean date. It doesnt seem to matter to me anymore, b/c I think it is no longer an issue to me.

Stoph, babe, I have an Austrailian kick butt red head nut ball best friend. I love her! I seem to find myself bonding to Austrailians all the time, its funny!

I am sorry to hear about your skateboard accident. I hope you are feeling better! Sounds like all in all, you are doing very well, so keep it up!

I am a cross-country mountain bike racer, as well as a road bike racer. I am kicking my husbands arse all over Park City right now, so it looks like I might have a good season!

anyway, good to check in, sorry it isnt more often, but you know I am there!
Patmamma

[rorvan76]

thanks patmamma,it definitely wasnt easy..but as ive said before nothing worth having is easy..glad to hear youre doing so well,and glad you had no probs from the pills that u had to take..and i guess youre right about your clean date,as long as you know ,thats really all that matters! ur also right by saying its a victory.feels good doesnt it? well im off to food shopping and my daughters karate class,and then later this week has her first softball game for the season,so i will have plenty to keep me busy in the upcoming months.ok,well have a great day,and to everyone else,hope youre day is going well

[patmamma]

Hey all, that is what my oldest used to say when he was only 2, R doin'? Where is everyone lately? Ah, Spring.

Junkie, how are you doing? Taking that many pills could tend to reak some havik.

Rorvan, good to "see" you, hope all is well on the playground.

Take care everyone.
Patmamma

[Kaidog]

Wow. I've been so busy! Then on top of that, I just returned from a three week vacation in London. There's just not enough hours in the day.
It's good to see the regular old (not that any of you are old) faces and some new ones as well.
Saturday will be 4 months clean for me. These past two months have been fairly easy. Good sleep patterns, very little craving and better energy levels all the time. I will confess though, every now and then, with this crushing work load, I do think of how I'd like that energy rush I used to so crave. Not to worry though, I'm clean as can be and no longer have any easy sources.
Still working a zillion hours a week and spending lots of time on the road. Being busy is a good thing but this is just crazy!
Hugs and kisses to all.

[patmamma]

Hey Kaidog! Long time no see. London? I LOVE London!!!!!!!! You lucky bugger. One thing, I bet it was interesting not to have to worry about your pills on the trip. With me, I had to remember my percs, my ambien, my neurontin, Yikes! I am like a couple of months behind you, but I am so excited to hear what you are experiencing. Keep checking in and let us know what you are feeling, because that is the kind of thing people need to hear.

Okay, where is everyone else? You guys, come on, this is crazy!!!!!


I have a mountain bike race on Saturday, and my legs are already covered in scratches and bruises. Yeehaw!
Love,
Patmamma, (I am thinking of changing my handle to Cowbell)

[lyds]

I see a new face....Stoph, I am sorry you feel like you aren't getting the support you need at this board. I take that personally because I received so much help. I'd like to extend an apology to you. I haven't been around lately as I've been running in many different directions. Like Rory, I've had some personal problems that took a very HUGE toll on me and my family. Also, I have been preparing for my son's high school graduation. We're going to have a house full and that takes a lot of preparation! All that said, I know I should have made some time to come by and see what is going on at the board. So Stoph, I pray you are still coming by and checking to see if anyone has posted. I think you're a pretty strong person to be handling things of this nature with a 6 week old child. Go you! Please keep coming here and posting. I am sorry that I have dropped the ball.

Rory: I was sorry to hear about your personal problems but girl, I know what you mean about being tempted. After what I've dealt with recently and not taking anything to cope, I now know that I will be clean forever. I am serious. Anyway, thanks for being a faithful poster and thanks for being you.

Patmamma: The same goes to you and your faithfulness to the board. Thank you for that. I pray everything is well your way.

Junkie: I am sorry to hear that you're starting over again. I know each and every one of us can relate to that at some point during our addiction. I will pray that this is your last time to relapse.

Kai: Thanks for checking in. I think of you often. You have a very special place in my heart.

Addicted2long, Never_Me, pdxRx, Baby Steps, Tinker and the rest: I am still praying for us all. None of you are far from my thoughts.

[rorvan76]

Originally Posted by patmamma

Hey all, that is what my oldest used to say when he was only 2, R doin'? Where is everyone lately? Ah, Spring.

Junkie, how are you doing? Taking that many pills could tend to reak some havik.

Rorvan, good to "see" you, hope all is well on the playground.

Take care everyone.
Patmamma

thanks patmamma,good to be back on..still not on as much as i was,but slowly coming back..as i said,things were kinda crazy around here.but im doing much better now..as for the playground,things are so so,lol..actually met the cutest lil girl.she just transferred to our school in march,and she just introduced herself to me 2 weeks ago.well she asked if i needed anything done around the playground.thought that was so sweet.she then went on to say she has no friends yet,and that she really likes talking to me.she lives with her aunt because her mom just died ..wanted to scoop her up and hug her when she said that.she has the most amazing attitude considering what shes going through.just goes to show u the strength some people have.if a child that young can go through something so traumatic and still remain so positive,gives me alot of hope.does my heart good..well thats all in roryland,lol. hope youre having a good one.

[rorvan76]

Originally Posted by lyds

I see a new face....Stoph, I am sorry you feel like you aren't getting the support you need at this board. I take that personally because I received so much help. I'd like to extend an apology to you. I haven't been around lately as I've been running in many different directions. Like Rory, I've had some personal problems that took a very HUGE toll on me and my family. Also, I have been preparing for my son's high school graduation. We're going to have a house full and that takes a lot of preparation! All that said, I know I should have made some time to come by and see what is going on at the board. So Stoph, I pray you are still coming by and checking to see if anyone has posted. I think you're a pretty strong person to be handling things of this nature with a 6 week old child. Go you! Please keep coming here and posting. I am sorry that I have dropped the ball.

Rory: I was sorry to hear about your personal problems but girl, I know what you mean about being tempted. After what I've dealt with recently and not taking anything to cope, I now know that I will be clean forever. I am serious. Anyway, thanks for being a faithful poster and thanks for being you.

Patmamma: The same goes to you and your faithfulness to the board. Thank you for that. I pray everything is well your way.

Junkie: I am sorry to hear that you're starting over again. I know each and every one of us can relate to that at some point during our addiction. I will pray that this is your last time to relapse.

Kai: Thanks for checking in. I think of you often. You have a very special place in my heart.

Addicted2long, Never_Me, pdxRx, Baby Steps, Tinker and the rest: I am still praying for us all. None of you are far from my thoughts.

i really feel so good after passing that test..was hard,but getting through that made me realize theres hope for me yet..and if u read what i posted in my message to patmamma,that lil girl gave me so much hope..she even went on to talk about how she trusts god to get her through this rough time.when i hear a lil 3rd grader say that,im shocked..u dont hear too many people,let alone a kid,mention thier faith..really made me feel good.

[BornYest3rday]

Hey people,

forgot what i "googled," but somehow ended up here. just lucky i guess. needless to say, i can relate to what most of you are going through.

in a nutshell i've been fighting opiate addiction for over 5 years now. i've done every drug you can think of but nothing brought me to my knees like painkillers have. the first couple of years of use was dare i say manageable. i was able to afford the relatively low dosages that i was taking(1-2 lortab 10's/ day.) but at $5 a piece i was a fool for thinking that in the first place. anyway, my girlfriend at the time had no idea. i was expertly leading the "double-life" of an addict. i knew i was playing with fire, but couldn't stop the freight train that i had already set in motion. besides why would i want to stop feeling euphoric. i would soon be eating those words. i started to notice when i couldn't get my hands on any pills i would become "irritable" and everything seemed to suck. at the time i didn't know that i was experiencing withdrawls.

another year or so went by, and slowly but surely my intake(tolerance) doubled. soon thereafter i found an online pill source, you know to try and save money and have pills for an entire month. well.... that blew up in my face. found myself going through a 90 count in like 10-12 days and of course having to go back to street sources until my next months supply came in. behold the nightmare!

once the online source cut me off(had no legitimate records) i then became fully aware of what exactly withdrawls were and how big of a mess i had gotten myself into. but i wasn't done yet; not by a long shot. i still had much more f***ing up to do. lost my girlfriend, lost my job, overdrafted my bank account, lost my "good" friends. still falling.

over the next year and a half i must've tried to quit about 50 times. i know so much about withdrawls/ detoxing now that i ought to write a book about it.... er apparently i've started. i've DT'd enough now to know that it only takes about 5-10 days to get over the physical symptoms. its been 8 days now since i took half of a "big wheel" (methadone-which is a miracle drug by the way ONLY if you're trying to QUIT opiates.) i'm ready. i've FINALLY hit bottom. just need to find support now and just let go.("God? are you listening?") i'm not smoking pot now either. get all this c**p out of my system. i know i can stay clean. just gotta do it. gotta WANT it real bad.

i told some one once who was in the same boat i'm in now, "when you're as high as you can possibly be, feeling as euphoric as you can possibibly feel, loving yourself and everything around you- that's who you really are. its just an illusion that you need drugs to feel that way. just have to quit and be patient. it does get better. way better." ironically he's now 13 months sober and here i am at day 8.

[Never_me .]

With each passing day you will get closer to that year and a half mark . You seem to be doing pretty good and know what your up against ... I can iwsh the best for you andbe here to support you ... Hope you continue to fight the good fight it is the only was you can win against this addiction ... As you mention it is one of the toughest things going ...

[simple.days@hotmail.co.uk]

Mate I'm addicted mentally to several meds fortunately this not one. knowing what i know you can only stop when the supply runs out. if it is a mate to do the best thing you need to talk to a pro. if its you then if you are like me an unable to contact the GP as its a local town then seek help through call lines or drop in centres. a med is with side effects is useful only if the aliment is worse than the effects. Good luck.

[simple.days@hotmail.co.uk]

hey not been quite in your situation but I'm also suffering from an addictive personality and have been like this for years with anti-depressive and the recs if you need to chat add me as this is personal!!!! simple.days@hotmail.co.uk

[Kaidog]

pat-mammacito: London is wonderful isn't it? Great food, nice hotels and 1200 years of history to explore. Really, really expensive though. I had to keep reminding myself that the 21.50 price tag I saw on the menu for dinner wasn't dollars but pounds. At just over 2:1 conversion ratio, that made for a really expensive dinner. Oh well, after 33 years of marriage and this being only our third vacation during that time, my wife deserved it.

lyds: How are you my friend? It is so wonderful that you are here to offer words of encouragement to all who enter. How is your journey progressing? You are a wonderful addition to this forum. BTW, what's up with them removing pictures in our profile? My Pee-Wee Herman picture has been removed as has everyone else's picture. Email me if you need to chat.

nymommy: Sorry to hear that you are still experiencing cravings and some depression. I myself have a bit of cravings now and then but only occassionally. It is odd how our perceived time frame of recovery changes as we continue down this road. Initially we are sweating-out the hours a minute at a time. Then when we have a few days under our belt we hope that it will all be over if we can just make a week. Now that I'm at 4 months, I have grown to believe that while the worst is behind me, I am not yet completely free of the romantic pull of these pills. Physically, there is still a bit of progress to be had. Restless legs now and then, (but thank God not at night) and cravings now and then. Stay strong woman! You're one of my favorites here. You're an inspiration to us all.

[lyds]

Originally Posted by rorvan76

i really feel so good after passing that test..was hard,but getting through that made me realize theres hope for me yet..and if u read what i posted in my message to patmamma,that lil girl gave me so much hope..she even went on to talk about how she trusts god to get her through this rough time.when i hear a lil 3rd grader say that,im shocked..u dont hear too many people,let alone a kid,mention thier faith..really made me feel good.

That's so great, Rory. Really. I love it when folks share stories like this because they are an inspiration to everyone. So, thanks for that.

[rorvan76]

Originally Posted by Kaidog

pat-mammacito: London is wonderful isn't it? Great food, nice hotels and 1200 years of history to explore. Really, really expensive though. I had to keep reminding myself that the 21.50 price tag I saw on the menu for dinner wasn't dollars but pounds. At just over 2:1 conversion ratio, that made for a really expensive dinner. Oh well, after 33 years of marriage and this being only our third vacation during that time, my wife deserved it.

lyds: How are you my friend? It is so wonderful that you are here to offer words of encouragement to all who enter. How is your journey progressing? You are a wonderful addition to this forum. BTW, what's up with them removing pictures in our profile? My Pee-Wee Herman picture has been removed as has everyone else's picture. Email me if you need to chat.

nymommy: Sorry to hear that you are still experiencing cravings and some depression. I myself have a bit of cravings now and then but only occassionally. It is odd how our perceived time frame of recovery changes as we continue down this road. Initially we are sweating-out the hours a minute at a time. Then when we have a few days under our belt we hope that it will all be over if we can just make a week. Now that I'm at 4 months, I have grown to believe that while the worst is behind me, I am not yet completely free of the romantic pull of these pills. Physically, there is still a bit of progress to be had. Restless legs now and then, (but thank God not at night) and cravings now and then. Stay strong woman! You're one of my favorites here. You're an inspiration to us all.

hi kaidog.. weve never posted back and forth or anything,but as i was scrolling through messages ,saw your clean date at the bottom.thats awesome..congrats on that!

[lyds]

Originally Posted by BornYest3rday

Hey people,

forgot what i "googled," but somehow ended up here. just lucky i guess. needless to say, i can relate to what most of you are going through.

in a nutshell i've been fighting opiate addiction for over 5 years now. i've done every drug you can think of but nothing brought me to my knees like painkillers have. the first couple of years of use was dare i say manageable. i was able to afford the relatively low dosages that i was taking(1-2 lortab 10's/ day.) but at $5 a piece i was a fool for thinking that in the first place. anyway, my girlfriend at the time had no idea. i was expertly leading the "double-life" of an addict. i knew i was playing with fire, but couldn't stop the freight train that i had already set in motion. besides why would i want to stop feeling euphoric. i would soon be eating those words. i started to notice when i couldn't get my hands on any pills i would become "irritable" and everything seemed to suck. at the time i didn't know that i was experiencing withdrawls.

another year or so went by, and slowly but surely my intake(tolerance) doubled. soon thereafter i found an online pill source, you know to try and save money and have pills for an entire month. well.... that blew up in my face. found myself going through a 90 count in like 10-12 days and of course having to go back to street sources until my next months supply came in. behold the nightmare!

once the online source cut me off(had no legitimate records) i then became fully aware of what exactly withdrawls were and how big of a mess i had gotten myself into. but i wasn't done yet; not by a long shot. i still had much more f***ing up to do. lost my girlfriend, lost my job, overdrafted my bank account, lost my "good" friends. still falling.

over the next year and a half i must've tried to quit about 50 times. i know so much about withdrawls/ detoxing now that i ought to write a book about it.... er apparently i've started. i've DT'd enough now to know that it only takes about 5-10 days to get over the physical symptoms. its been 8 days now since i took half of a "big wheel" (methadone-which is a miracle drug by the way ONLY if you're trying to QUIT opiates.) i'm ready. i've FINALLY hit bottom. just need to find support now and just let go.("God? are you listening?") i'm not smoking pot now either. get all this c**p out of my system. i know i can stay clean. just gotta do it. gotta WANT it real bad.

i told some one once who was in the same boat i'm in now, "when you're as high as you can possibly be, feeling as euphoric as you can possibibly feel, loving yourself and everything around you- that's who you really are. its just an illusion that you need drugs to feel that way. just have to quit and be patient. it does get better. way better." ironically he's now 13 months sober and here i am at day 8.

8 day is better than day 7, 6...you see where I am going with this.

Thanks for posting. So many of us are clean and have been for weeks and months now. But, there are people lurking out here and when they read posts like yours they find hope. So, again, thank you.

It's wonderful to know that you are ready. Keep on posting!

[rorvan76]

Originally Posted by lyds

That's so great, Rory. Really. I love it when folks share stories like this because they are an inspiration to everyone. So, thanks for that.

oh youre more than welcome..u know,for every bad kid,there is one like the girl mentioned..im surprised more and more all the time...and another nice thing,when im outside of school,like at the grocery store,or at my daughters game last night and they tell thier mom or dad,thats the lady from school and come up and hug me..really does my heart good...oh and speaking of baseball game,my daughter got a single,but then went on to steal 2nd and 3rd base..unfortunately she didnt slide when going home and was out..the rules for this age level are that u have to slide when going home if the ball is going home at same time..well it was her first time in this age level,so she will catch on...anyway,have a great weekend lyds,im going to her game 2moro and then to visit my hubbys niece in hospital,she had a lil baby boy..cant wait to go shopping today for him..shopping is great therapy for me lol..say a prayer though,hes a teeny baby,only 4 pounds..hes doin ok,but still when they are that small,could use some extra prayers..then again,cant we all.. ttyl



everyone else,have a good weekend

[lyds]

Originally Posted by Kaidog

pat-mammacito: London is wonderful isn't it? Great food, nice hotels and 1200 years of history to explore. Really, really expensive though. I had to keep reminding myself that the 21.50 price tag I saw on the menu for dinner wasn't dollars but pounds. At just over 2:1 conversion ratio, that made for a really expensive dinner. Oh well, after 33 years of marriage and this being only our third vacation during that time, my wife deserved it.

lyds: How are you my friend? It is so wonderful that you are here to offer words of encouragement to all who enter. How is your journey progressing? You are a wonderful addition to this forum. BTW, what's up with them removing pictures in our profile? My Pee-Wee Herman picture has been removed as has everyone else's picture. Email me if you need to chat.

nymommy: Sorry to hear that you are still experiencing cravings and some depression. I myself have a bit of cravings now and then but only occassionally. It is odd how our perceived time frame of recovery changes as we continue down this road. Initially we are sweating-out the hours a minute at a time. Then when we have a few days under our belt we hope that it will all be over if we can just make a week. Now that I'm at 4 months, I have grown to believe that while the worst is behind me, I am not yet completely free of the romantic pull of these pills. Physically, there is still a bit of progress to be had. Restless legs now and then, (but thank God not at night) and cravings now and then. Stay strong woman! You're one of my favorites here. You're an inspiration to us all.

Hey there, Kai. I am doing fine. My journey is going okay. Like everyone, I have my moments when I battle a craving here and there, but for the most part, it's okay. Thanks for asking and thanks for all the kind words. I still have your email address and will surely email to chat if need be. Oh, and I wondered myself what is up with them removing the pictures. Your Pee Wee Herman picture cracked me up!

[lyds]

Originally Posted by rorvan76

oh youre more than welcome..u know,for every bad kid,there is one like the girl mentioned..im surprised more and more all the time...and another nice thing,when im outside of school,like at the grocery store,or at my daughters game last night and they tell thier mom or dad,thats the lady from school and come up and hug me..really does my heart good...oh and speaking of baseball game,my daughter got a single,but then went on to steal 2nd and 3rd base..unfortunately she didnt slide when going home and was out..the rules for this age level are that u have to slide when going home if the ball is going home at same time..well it was her first time in this age level,so she will catch on...anyway,have a great weekend lyds,im going to her game 2moro and then to visit my hubbys niece in hospital,she had a lil baby boy..cant wait to go shopping today for him..shopping is great therapy for me lol..say a prayer though,hes a teeny baby,only 4 pounds..hes doin ok,but still when they are that small,could use some extra prayers..then again,cant we all.. ttyl
everyone else,have a good weekend

Go Rory's daughter! I remember the days of sports when my boys played. You feel like you live at the fields! You're right, she'll catch on. Sounds like she's doing a pretty good job already.

I'll say a prayer for your niece's baby. 4 pounds is teeny. I can't imagine. My niece was only 5 pounds when she was born and I remember how teeny *she* looked.

Have a great weekend, too, Rory!

[stoph]

thanks Patmamma, now i know you are fair-dinkum (i think you'll know what that means) about knowing aussies when you used the word arse, as in kickin your hubbies on the bike (or should i say the treadly! ...) go girl!

still roaring along here, i think the ankle thing was a positive as it really made sure my resolve was good...and it was/still is. down to 1 1/2 codiene tabs a day now [i keep forgetting to take 'em too so thats a good sign, don't tell my councillor that- she wants me to run-the-course, cest la vie.

thanks Lyds for your imput too. i was just a bit disgruntled that day, so sorry about the seppo line.

gotta go, 3 year old is up now.

[Never_me .]

Just stoppng in to say a quick hello... And to wish everyone well... Alo of new people that is always good to see ... Baby Steps must be having fun sure hope so ...The board sure has been dead of late...Lyds , Good to see you as always and keep on praying for us all... Life has been so busy of late hope it slows down soon ...lol... Seems like there is so much more to do and so much more I'm getting to these days. Rory keep up that awesome work I enjoyed your story on the little girl that is always awesome to see ...She must be something and it looks like she sees something in you she likes... Can't blame her... Patmamma keep up that good work it will make your hubby push harder too...lol... You go girl...

To all the newbies keep on fighting it is never easy and I'm not sure it ever goes away ... But the fight does get easier ...

[rorvan76]

Originally Posted by Never_me .

Just stoppng in to say a quick hello... And to wish everyone well... Alo of new people that is always good to see ... Baby Steps must be having fun sure hope so ...The board sure has been dead of late...Lyds , Good to see you as always and keep on praying for us all... Life has been so busy of late hope it slows down soon ...lol... Seems like there is so much more to do and so much more I'm getting to these days. Rory keep up that awesome work I enjoyed your story on the little girl that is always awesome to see ...She must be something and it looks like she sees something in you she likes... Can't blame her... Patmamma keep up that good work it will make your hubby push harder too...lol... You go girl...

To all the newbies keep on fighting it is never easy and I'm not sure it ever goes away ... But the fight does get easier ...

awww thanks u know,kids like her make me forget all the complaining i do when one of the kids annoys me,or does something bad..i kinda feel a bond with her since i lost my mom so young.she really is so sweet,and to this day still comes right over to me as soon as she comes out to the playground... hope u have a good weekend

[rorvan76]

Originally Posted by lyds

Go Rory's daughter! I remember the days of sports when my boys played. You feel like you live at the fields! You're right, she'll catch on. Sounds like she's doing a pretty good job already.

I'll say a prayer for your niece's baby. 4 pounds is teeny. I can't imagine. My niece was only 5 pounds when she was born and I remember how teeny *she* looked.

Have a great weekend, too, Rory!

u really do feel like u live at the field..this year she decided not to do swim team..im kinda relieved.6 days a week,early mornings all summer was tough to take..so just taking it easy this summer with karate and maybe some art classes(she loves to draw)..well 2moro mornin,have a game,and then off to visit the baby.just did some shopping for him earlier..his grandmom said hes doing really well.eating well,loves being held.. i cant wait to meet him!.. have an awesome weekend!

[Baby Steps]

Hey Kids!!! Baby Steps has been MIA lately and I so apologize!!! My company, family, kids and friends have been keeping me pretty busy and most of my work lately has been e-mailing and computer research and traveling so it's like the last thing I want to do is see the computer when I get home!! But you all have truly been on my mind daily and continue to stay in my prayers!!!

Stoph... Welcome! Where in Australia are you? I went to Brisbane in 1985 and absolutely fell in love!!! I said then and continue to say now that if I were ever to pack up my bags and leave...It would have to be to Australia!! The people are beautiful, the beaches are breathtaking and I couldn't believe how absolutely clean it was!!! Oh and the casino's were pretty fun too! I have to share a story about language (or lack thereof) translation... Our friend Randy was at the casino and wanted to talk to this beautiful Aussie girl and went up and said "Hi, I'm Randy" as he extended his hand ... she slapped him in the face!!! Come to find out... He was saying Hi, I'm horny!!! Ahahahahahahaha My ex and I laughed so hard as I couldn't really stand Randy much anyway!!!! Anyway... welcome aboard and I'm so very proud of you for having the will power to wean yourself off of the codeine!! Good Job!!! Please stay in touch as I may not write as much as I used to be able to I do read everyday!!! Hang In There!

And to my dear friends Lyds, Rory, Kai, Never Me, Dublin, Syd, Pdx, Patmamma, NyMommy, Lisa Girl, and everyone I've missed... Keep up the good fight... I am so very proud of everyones clean time!!!! How amazing!!!! You guys are all Rock Stars in my book!!!! I'll be 4 months in a few days but I have to say... I think I quit counting my days at 3 months! I guess that was the mile stone for me... The No More Looking Back Time!!! My safety zone!!! My depression is gone, my life is full and I don't think about the pills. I have found other ways to control my pain in natural remedies and rest during my bad days that seem to work great!

To all who are reading this... The Hope Is There! Never give up... The bad days are few compared to your freedom in life from now on!!! Keep on Truckin... I promise good things and a full exciting life await you once you are rid of the pills that seem to consume your every thought!!

I Love You All and will try my best to stay in touch more often!!! I am heading off to Mt. Laurel NJ on biz today for another week... Argh... I just want to stay home once in a while! LOL Nah... It's all good... I am absolutely blessed to have the career I have and it has sure helped to keep me busy when I really needed to be busy! Sometimes I think free time can be your worst enemy!

Have a wonderful week kids!!!! Baby Steps signing out...