[Baby Steps]

I'm with you as always Dave!!

Hugz,

Baby Steps

Clean Date 01/12/07

[sydbean]

Hate/Love ~ I don't know if you just didn't notice or what but the "need to talk" forum has had the locked message for over a month now. If you look at the date when you click on the mods post to see the reason why you will see that it was a while ago that they "locked" it. I am not sure exactly what that does because everyone has continued to post there.

Just wanted to let you know. FYI, I did address the situation with our little "friend" with the Mod and it will be taken care of!!!

Hugs no thugs,
Syd

[hatelove percs]

yeah, syd i did know that but every topic on it is locked now. there are itsy bitsy locks on every one of the threads now. u can't answer anything. u know how u still could post on it? well that wierdo chantelle whoever posted to that jim guy and said something about telling someone named vicki to call him or something. well, thats MY NAME. so i got mad and was gonna go ballistic on her for whatever she was trying to stir up, but it won't let anyone on any more. oh well, so much for the better. nothing but a bunch a freaks.

[tom316]

Snoogan's All! I just wanted to pop on and say Snoogan's! I'm glad to see that you're back Baby steps.All these crazy chicks on here wouldn't leave me alone.lol.H/L,Tamm & Syd I'll talk to ya all later but I hope all of you are doing great today.Snooch!

[scared_ohio]

Hey guys,
Tamm, I have swollen ankles too!! I officially have "cankles" for the first time in my life! I think I posted on the other thread that I talked to my doc and he said it's probably nothing to worry about, and it is a side effect. I don't know about you, but I'm not peeing as much, I wonder if that has anything to do with it?...Hmmm...
Babysteps...CALL AA and ask for a supervisor. Do it tonight!!! My job was listening to people complain about their flights, and issuing compensation. ie: vouchers for $$ towards another flight, upgrades, etc...Don't let them tell you there's nothing they can do, if a supervisor says they can't do anything, ask for THEIR supervisor, once you go above the supervisor who takes your call, they'll pretty much do anything you want. So don't wait to call, the sooner the better. And trust me, you'll get alot more if you're kinda "nice". Ya know, let them know you're upset and you may have to choose another airline in the future, your trip was ruined, etc...whenever I got a psycho b***c on the phone, I wouldn't give cra*. Good luck, and let me know how it goes!
Gen

[scared_ohio]

Ack! Babysteps, I just read the rest of your post. I'm supposed to get a bunch of lab tests done next week to check my liver, kidneys, etc...Now I'm really glad I'm getting it done. I'm back to freaking out over my cankles again! Eep!!! At least I'm not "squishing" like I did after I had my c-section. That was gross.[]

[ComingHome]

Hi Babysteps. Thanks for thinking of me. That is important to me, seriously. I got a clean day today, including ultram. I'm not counting days as clean unless it is clean of all mind altering substances - not just opiates. I went to an AA meeting, and the speaker had 25 years sober. WOW! What a story! I'm pumped from it. I thank God for this day clean.

ComingHome

There is ALWAYS hope

[Baby Steps]

quote:Originally posted by scared_ohio

Ack! Babysteps, I just read the rest of your post. I'm supposed to get a bunch of lab tests done next week to check my liver, kidneys, etc...Now I'm really glad I'm getting it done. I'm back to freaking out over my cankles again! Eep!!! At least I'm not "squishing" like I did after I had my c-section. That was gross.[]

Hey Scared... Thanks for the advice and I will call today if I can find the number. Your so sweet for thinking of me in this way! I'll let ytou know how it goes if I do.

I am very happy to hear you are going for tests!!! And Tamm... please go too!!! I lost function in 1 kidney when I was internally bleeding and didn't even know it until I started swelling in my feet, legs and ankles! It was the swelling that drove me to go to the doctors to find out I had lost more than half of my blood and had to have a transfusion of 3 units. The kicker is... it was my ex husbands infedelity that caused all of this for me. He gave me a terrible UTI that I didn't know about until it caused all of this... Jerk! But after the transfusion and meds in the hospital I was ok. I don't think yours or Tamms is this drastic nor do I think a UTI is ytour cause but I do believe your kidney's are involved somehow and that is serious! You maqy need to take some kind of a water pill but please let me know how it goes... ok? I will def. pray for you both!!! And Keep Up The Good Work!!! How are you today????

Luv Ya Guys Bunches!!!!!!!!

Hugz,

Baby Steps

Clean Date 01/12/07

[Baby Steps]

quote:Originally posted by ComingHome

Hi Babysteps. Thanks for thinking of me. That is important to me, seriously. I got a clean day today, including ultram. I'm not counting days as clean unless it is clean of all mind altering substances - not just opiates. I went to an AA meeting, and the speaker had 25 years sober. WOW! What a story! I'm pumped from it. I thank God for this day clean.

ComingHome

There is ALWAYS hope

Oh Coming Home I always think about you!!! For Sure!!! You are so very special to me and I am always holding a great hope (like your signature says... "There's Always Hope!") for you!! I know it's hard... I relapsed onse after going through 7 days clean and it was so devistating! I was so very hard on myself! I didn't want to post here... so I kinda lost my support... but I have done it again and just by the Grace of God it has stuck! No matter how many times you fall... I am here for you always! Do the best you can... Find a very very important reason to stay clean (This is what I did that helped me stick with it) something so important that you know will help motivate you to stay clean. I so agree with you on the claiming clean theory. If you are taking Ultram you are not clean... I hear they are worse to come off of than opiates! Yikes! That would just be so terrible for you! I don't want to see you go through this ever again!

I am SO SO proud of you for finding and going to an AA meeting!!! GOOD JOB Sweetie!!!!!!!! That is a HUGE step in your recovery! I myself have not done that and have so far been able to use this board and the AWESOME family and friends I have found here for my support. However, I believe that was the right move for you. I believe you need an accountability partner... a sponser that can help you make sense of this terrible addiction.

I am just so very proud of you Coming Home!!! I have the biggest smile on my face right now for you! Please hang in there... One minute at a time until you get to a week... Then 1 day at a time until you get a month and then it won't much matter anymore. I am just over 1 month and honestly I don't think about it anymore and I don't count days anymore... not that the cravings aren't there every now and then but they are just not as bad as they were that 1st few weeks.

PLEASE PLEASE stay in touch to let me know how you are doing and I will truly pray for your HOPE, Strength, Peace and physical health. You will be ok Coming Home I just KNOW you will!!!!

Luv Ya Tons!!!


Hugz,

Baby Steps

Clean Date 01/12/07

[Baby Steps]

quote:Originally posted by tom316

Snoogan's All! I just wanted to pop on and say Snoogan's! I'm glad to see that you're back Baby steps.All these crazy chicks on here wouldn't leave me alone.lol.H/L,Tamm & Syd I'll talk to ya all later but I hope all of you are doing great today.Snooch!

Hey You Tom!!! I'm so glad to see you pop in here every now and then!!! I know you read our posts more than you write... and yes these girlz are CRAZY huh!!! LOL I love them girls!!! So hows life at home? Good? How are you doing? Working? Tell me whats happening... I miss chatting with ya son! I hope you are having a GREAT DAY!!!



Hugz,

Baby Steps

Clean Date 01/12/07

[tamara02]

Goodmorning All!! Hi Babysteps,how are you doing?glad to be home? These mutts are driving me nuts already,and I still got to keep them w/their momma for3-4 more weeks,its like having a bunch of kids that constantly need something!!I have to force momma to feed them.anyways you mentioned something abt red and white blood cells.abt the swollen ankles,they seem to have went down alil,kept my feet elevated alnight,I have hemmeroids from when I was prego,and everyonce in a while when I strain,they bleed real bad,especially since being on the sub it constipates you sooo much,therefore making it worse,do you think all the blood loss may have something to do w/itThanks Tamm ps (guys don't read this,girl stuff.lol)

[Baby Steps]

quote:Originally posted by tamara02

Goodmorning All!! Hi Babysteps,how are you doing?glad to be home? These mutts are driving me nuts already,and I still got to keep them w/their momma for3-4 more weeks,its like having a bunch of kids that constantly need something!!I have to force momma to feed them.anyways you mentioned something abt red and white blood cells.abt the swollen ankles,they seem to have went down alil,kept my feet elevated alnight,I have hemmeroids from when I was prego,and everyonce in a while when I strain,they bleed real bad,especially since being on the sub it constipates you sooo much,therefore making it worse,do you think all the blood loss may have something to do w/itThanks Tamm ps (guys don't read this,girl stuff.lol)

Hey Miss Tamm Tamm! Yes I'm glad to be home and Yes I think the hems are responsible for the blood loss. Please keep on this especially if your counts are low now! Losing kidney function is not something to mess with. Please keep me informed sweetie! I know all about the puppy thing... my yellow lab had 13 and it was like having 2 freakin jobs... 8 weeks was a LONG time! I was happy when the owners all came and picked them up... they cost me a fortune and a lot of time. But that was years ago. I hope you are having a great day missy!!!

Hugz,

Baby Steps

Clean Date 01/12/07

[sparky]

Good Morning....Its been a long while since I last post and I tried to read back and catch up on some of you....I have noticed quite a few newbies (welcome and best luck escaping your DOC)

NYmom....you must be at about 5 weeks...no sub (thats fantastic)...how are you?

Kaidog...you are about the same days!!

Lisa girl....so glad to hear your Mom is doing fine..thanks for your concern of my dissaperance...how are you doing with you Sub weaning?(if you are)

I noticed quite a few like bobbyz is close to a month clean....and Baby steps ...you too....thanks for your prayers

Tamara...hate/love percs...hello how are you?

anyone I don't mention....I hope you are on the path to getting your life back from drugs!!!!

Lyde...newbie...hang in there ...your story is very similar to mine...secret addiction..shame...upholding a false life...God is very forgiving, with His help we can beat it, Prayer and good choices....

So... about me.....I just had to get away from the computer...It aided in my procrastination ( if that makes sense) ...anyway...I have weaned down to 2mg. sub....and hope to jump ship very soon....I have gone back to the gym consistantly...and I am getting in touch with the "female" doc to ask "those" kind of questions....so all in all I am well, as well as any struggling addict can be....but the good thing is I know it can only get better and better as long as I keep my resolve not to use ever again....

have a great day all

[lyds]

quote:Originally posted by sparky

Good Morning....Its been a long while since I last post and I tried to read back and catch up on some of you....I have noticed quite a few newbies (welcome and best luck escaping your DOC)

NYmom....you must be at about 5 weeks...no sub (thats fantastic)...how are you?

Kaidog...you are about the same days!!

Lisa girl....so glad to hear your Mom is doing fine..thanks for your concern of my dissaperance...how are you doing with you Sub weaning?(if you are)

I noticed quite a few like bobbyz is close to a month clean....and Baby steps ...you too....thanks for your prayers

Tamara...hate/love percs...hello how are you?

anyone I don't mention....I hope you are on the path to getting your life back from drugs!!!!

Lyde...newbie...hang in there ...your story is very similar to mine...secret addiction..shame...upholding a false life...God is very forgiving, with His help we can beat it, Prayer and good choices....

So... about me.....I just had to get away from the computer...It aided in my procrastination ( if that makes sense) ...anyway...I have weaned down to 2mg. sub....and hope to jump ship very soon....I have gone back to the gym consistantly...and I am getting in touch with the "female" doc to ask "those" kind of questions....so all in all I am well, as well as any struggling addict can be....but the good thing is I know it can only get better and better as long as I keep my resolve not to use ever again....

have a great day all

Sparky, thank you. Your words of encouragement are so kind. I'm three weeks clean right now and though I have more great days than not, it's still so wonderful to get that "atta girl" from time to time. Very important part of staying clean. This forum is nothing short of a blessing from God.

I pray you have a great day, too.

[lyds]

Good afternoon, everyone. We just got home from church and I thought I would pop on before I started laundry, etc. You know how stuff like that goes.

Coming Home: I love your signature. I just wanted to let you know that. It's an awesome thing to read and to remember, so post more often!!

Baby Steps: It's good to see you got home safe from your time in San Antonio. It's always great and very uplifting to read your posts.

Tamm: My southern sister, how are you?

Hate/Love, Syd: Hey girls! Just wanted to shout out to you. I pray you all are well.

Tom: Love reading your posts. They are brief and in and out, but they always bring a smile to my face.

Gen: PLEASE keep us posted on your ankles and your doctor appointment. Email me if you'd like to talk.

Kai: When you pop in, HEY THERE. I just had to speak to ya, and to tell you how proud I am of you. I think about your clean time a lot and the support you have been to me. Thanks, again.

Bobbyzworld: If you're out there lurking a bit, I just wanted to also thank you. You've been an important part of my clean time. When I had that tiny relapse, you got on my butt and held me accountable and I appreciated that. I appreciated everyone's support during that little episode. I guess because we're clean date buddies your response meant a lot.

Well all, I am off. I pray everyone has a great day today!

[tamara02]

Hello,Sparky nice to hear from you ,glad you are doing great,pop in a lil more often if just to say Hello!! Lyds my southern pal,I feel guilty I did not go to church ,today,its cold out and Just don't feel to great,just want to stay covered up on the couch watching TV,Take care young lady ,say Hi!! to you're sweetie for me,Love ya,Tamm

[hatelove percs]

hey all. just poppin in to say hello, and let everyone know i'm still at it, bein clean! congrats to everyone on their cleanliness also. i haven't had time to get on cause my oldest daughter is visiting from college, but will try to get on later. love u guys!

[tamara02]

Hello!H/L,first of all congrats on all your cleantime[And I hope you're having a nice Peaceful Sunday. I just read my e-mails today,that was really funny,jeez'louise..sent u 1 bac,chat w/ me later,Tamm.....Syd -hope your havin a peaceful day,too .I will try my hardest to get some Pic of the pups,asap...Lori,are you enjoying your evening? well tomorrow's monday and monday's are so darn hectic..gotta go bake some choc.chip cookies w/my lil guy,chat w/ ya later..Tamm <<<<<HI! GUYS!!! ,And Tom your such a trouble maker,you were flirting w/all us girls,and u told babysteps the opposite!!! Men...lol ,,Later Tamm[8D]

[lyds]

Congrats on your clean time, Hate/love. I really hope you enjoyed the time with your daughter!

[sydbean]

Hey Ya'll,

How ya doing this evening? I have been out surfing the web but wanted to stop in and say hi!! I hope everyone is doing well this evening and keeping the faith!!

Hugs to all and snoogin's and snookum and snooky nooky doodle too!!

~Syd

[Baby Steps]

Hey Everyone!!! I hope everyone had a great weekend!!! I was a complete vegetable!!!! Still recovering from the American Airlines Trauma I guess!! Well now lets see... I hope I can remember everyone... If I don't it doesn't mean I'm not thinking of you or praying for you it's just age!!! LOL

Tamm... Hey Girly! I've talked to you a bit today but I hope you had a restful day and btw they reopened the need to talk forum. I want a pic of you and your puppies please... please!!! Luv ya girly!!!

HL... I hope you are doing good as well... And CONGRATULATIONS on you 3 weeks!! Has it been that long? I thought I was more than 1 week when you quit... see there's the age/memory thing again... I am so proud of you!!! How have the headaches been? I hope you had fun visiting with your daughter!!! Luv you too girl!!!!!

Lisa Girl.... WHERE ARE YOU MISSY!!!!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!! How is the BF thing going? I've been thinking a lot about you and feel bad for not e-mailing or posting much but I was away and the convention kept me extremely busy... But I hope your Ma is doing better... please let me know how you are ok?? OK!! Luv You Girl!!!!! I mean it!!!

NY... WHERE ARE YOU TOO????? I ALSO MIS YOU GIRL!!! I hope your doing ok off the sub and I am also very proud of you for taking that leap!!! What are you now 3 weeks???? Excellent!!! Stay in touch... Luv Ya!

Kai Kai... My fearless Leader... How are you doing??? Still doing ok?? Did you go to SF this weekend? How is your family? I am so proud of you as well!!! You simply Rock and Roll!!! Keep it up!!

Tom... Hey you... where is my reply? How is everything at home? How was your weekend? Any new songs? You also rock and have become a very impirtant part to this forum and others. I've read your advice and it's always Good!!! Keep it up!!! Stay in touch... I miss ya!!!

Lyds... I am so proud of your time!!! Congratulations and stay strong and fight the fight... it's so worth the rewards of freedom!!! I'm just so encouraged and excited about everyone on here!! How was your weekend??

ComingHome... I wrote you a pretty long reply on the previous page therefore I'll just say... How was day 2??? Please let me know... And I'm always here for anyone if anyone needs to talk... Stay strong son!! I know you can do it!...

Scared... Your a great part of our forum as well... Like Lyds... keep us informed and I really enjoy reading your posts like everyone else here... Stay sweet and clean!! Luv Ya!

Syd... Ahhh My Sweet Friend Syd!!! I sent you an e-mail w/the pics and have already written to you but I love readingf your posts and love how you keep us protected... I swear my nick name for you is the forum police!!! I Luv You Girly!!!! Stay Sweet!

I hope I've gotten every one but if I missed you it doesn't mean I'm not thinking of you!! Stay sweet and continue to fight the fight no matter where you are in your stages of recovery or possible recovery.... stay on board or read read read!!! I Luv You all so very much!!! Nighty Night and sweet dreams to all!!!




Hugz,

Baby Steps

Clean Date 01/12/07

[ComingHome]

Hi Baby Steps. Day 2 was okay. I kept busy. Lots of exercise and I went to an NA meeting, and then an AA meeting on the way home. I need lots of help. LOL When I was clean for 11 months, I think that is what I was doing but forgot somewhere along the way (the willingness to ask for help). I was a bit emotional for a while, and I am dealing with some resentments. Acceptance and forgiveness are key for me right now. Cross your fingers, day 3 tomorrow.

Lyds, thanks. I WILL try to keep posting.

ComingHome

There is ALWAYS hope

[Baby Steps]

OMG Coming Home!!! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! It takes a lot to go to meetings and it truly shows your will to stay off the DOC!! You Rock!!!!! I am also proud of you for taking responsibility for your issues... issues that only you can deal with and control. I know... I had to deal with resentments and forgiveness and it wasn't easy... it was probably even harder than w/d c/t!!! But I was able to confront them and the people I had to forgive and have learned that their lives aren't any better. But my life is 100% better now that I don't carry that around with me anymore! My forgiveness became ny own freedom. What a concept. It was like I was the one who swollowed the bitter pill that was killing me and not them... Not fair right? So whatever you are dealing with can be acomplished and will bring you freedom. I think that was when I was closest to God.... because He was the one who held my hand through it all. I will pray that you are able to get through day three... you're already past the worst and I'm impressed that on day 2 you were able to do things!!! Me? I was a complete mess! I couldn't even get down my flight of stairs on day two w/o every muscle and bone aching!!!! Way To Go!!!!!!!! Keep it up!!!!

You are such an assett to this board!! Thank you ComingHome.... you were actually one of a few that helped me to get off the meds!!! So I really have such a special place in my heart for you! Keep in touch!!



Hugz,

Baby Steps

Clean Date 01/12/07

[IAMCANE]

Good morning everyone,

I do not have computer access during the weekend and I just wanted to let you know a little about how my weekend went. When I left Friday I decided that I was going cold turkey(again I was taking 30-6o mg of methadone a day) for a bout a year. I couldn't take it so Saturday i took 40mg. I had been cutting down previously so the W/D's have kicked in pretty bad. I have the runs really bad, the ammodium doesn't really help, but I keep taking it.
I am just sooo freaking lethargic, it is everything I can do to get out of bed, much less take a shower and come to work, which I have to do or I will lose my job.
The thing that is actually killing me the worse is what I call "noodle" legs. They are so weak and it hurts to walk across the room.
I really want to quit this thing cold turkey, but there is a side of me that just wants to say screw it and actuall get on the methadobe program and fet my 180-200 a say. Don't worry, I am not going to do that, but I am just saying how miserable I am.

Please, please is there anything aover the counter I can take to help me with the withdrawal pain.....I am just sooo freaking miserable. I can't imagine I will even make it through this dy, much less the mext month.

I really hope the rest of you are doing well, this is only like the 3rd time I have been here, but I feel for all of you.

[Baby Steps]

Cane... Iam so so sorry you are going through this at work! But I am so so proud of you for taking this step!!! My advice would be try the best you can to eat anything w/protein... plus vitamins B as well as either pedialite or gatoraide as your legs/muscles are probably missing all these nutrients and rebelling. Melatonin for sleep. I will be in deep prayer for you and hope you get through the day ok. You are on the worst of the days I believe... so just maybe try to leave early due to being sick because I'm sure you look it and maybe be able to carry that through tomorrow as well because they see you today. Flu works. Please let me know how your doing and Stay Strong sweetie!!!!

Hugz,

Baby Steps

Clean Date 01/12/07

[tamara02]

good late morning,all!!!!Babysteps ,hi there !! promise to get the pics sent asap...also ,What a brave group of people we have this morn.I am so glad that you are here for us all.Hey,Didn't Tom stop c/t on 100mgs methadone? Do you remember what he said helped him thru? Maybe that would help out Iamcane,anyways how are you doing on this mon.morn.?So far so good,here .I think I made a big mistake,keeping the pups in my computer room,I do not enjoy sharing the place with these stinky piggies..when they were just born it was ok, but now the bigger they get the stinkier they get,am spraying lots of lysol!! And where is everyone else? miss you guys!!!Tamm...Ps :Babysteps,Ya I noticed they opened the need to talk forum,I think the reason it gets alot of weirdos,is the title ,Need to talk,Weirdos are needy and they spot forums like that one,maybe if the name was changed to something else,it would stop the rif-raf from visiting,just a thought.

[tinkers]

All,

Just stoped in to see how everyone is! I havent been in hear for some time I see alot of new people are hear that is good I have been taking 1/4 of a sub a day for about a month I think i'm getting ready to go to 1/4 every other day I'm not sure yet I think I will try to read some of the other post to catch up its been so long good luck to you all.

[hatelove percs]

hey hey hey it is me! CANE: oh my gosh i feel for u. holy c r a p. i have heard coming off the metha is the worst. they are right TOM is the expert on that one. COMING HOME: so proud of u! those first few days are stinkers aren't they? SPARKEY:it is good to hear from you! drop in more often.LYDS how ya doin girl? LISA hows your mom? TAMM: so it's a little bit smelly in there is it? haha. gosh it is to bad it is so cold outside. i would probably be afraid to put them all out though that something might happen to em.BABYSTEPS: i am goin with starting my third week clean i've got two weeks clean.i wish i had three already!! i have decided i am going to drive down to key west area for my trip. there is a marriott in key west, if u think u can do something i will email ya the info, girl as in when i am going and all that. hey, maybe you should go too!! i can't get anyone to go with me!!!![V] crazy people. you see, there are these nasty things called jobs that people go to that aren't in school full time like me...and....GASP...they dont get spring break[:0] is that not the most horrible thing you have ever heard? what is this world coming too? what are these "jobs"? that give you no spring break? i don't seriously think i want to entertain the thought.....lol.

[IAMCANE]

The morning was better than this afternoon has been. I just want to be normal is that so freaking hard. I know, I know....i didn't becaome and addict in a day so I can't be cured ina day. The thing that freaks me out is that I used to be a world class type athlete and now it is all I can do to walk to the bathroom, to either throw up or have the runs.....I know I have ran myself down this road and no one else is to blame. I am tired of sweating and the next minute freezing. I just want to be freaking NORMAL!!!! Why can't i go back in time?

[hatelove percs]

CANE: in my mother's great words of wisdom: this to shall passit is awful for you now, this is true. i used to be a fitness trainer and after that i had a career in one of the most physically active jobs out there and now i don't have the energy to get out of bed and go to the store and am so depressed. i want that energy back so bad and that is the hardest part for me. i have no muscles left what so ever. i have done this to myself. but if i stayed on the pills they would kill me. so i know in time i will get better, and so will you. time is the key. your worst physical withdrawl won't last long. YOU CAN DO IT. STAY STRONG. U ARE BIGGER THAN THOSE STUPID PILLS.