[tamara02]

Hey All,I heard this lil bit of info.and I thought it was neat,The guy on the radio yesterday said that this monday is called Blue monday,its the last mon. in Jan.and suppost to be the saddest day and most stressful,I guess because of just getting over the holiday spendings ,unfulfilled resolutions,etc....But 151 days from blue monday is suppost to be the happiest day of the year which falls on June22.thought I would mention that,hey maybe that sicko thats been posting was so hostile...later Tamm

[sydbean]

Tamara ~ That is really interesting. I love little facts like that. Oh btw you were talking about the drinking water thing. Did you guys hear about that woman that was trying to win a nintedo Wii and the contest was to drink the most water without going "wee" so she did it and won and then promptly died!!! Do you know what she died of?? She died of water intoxification!!! I had never even heard of it? Have you ? I was thinking of all those diet programs that tell you to keep drinking water all the time...I wonder what the cut off is between good amount and bad amount. I bet if you google it you could find that story.

Anyway...where is everyone it is only 11:53pm you can't all be in bed??

[sydbean]

LOL~ Babysteps...I was posting when you were posting thats why I said where is everyone!!! LOL Rah Rah the gangs all here!!!

[tom316]

Baby steps- for all you know the boring guy that you don't have the heart to crush may be the wierd bastard on here! Makes ya think!

Hate love- Didn't you cave in when u saw an old friend w/pillz? flush what's left,get your butt in gear.It's not that bad!

syd-thanks for the email

tam-what's up?

[hatelove percs]

TOM: no, that wasn't me. i'm the one with the bad migraines. i can't find a way to control them thats why i caved. i went to the dr. to try to find a different medication but he just gave me another perc script.[B)]
BABYSTEPS: i got a guy like that! everytime i log onto msn messenger he beeps me EVERYTIME. i can never chat on that thing. drives me nuts. plus he calls all the time. he is a nice guy, just not for me, plus i have a boyfriend and he knows it. good grief. i never call back or anything but he never gets it.
TAM: smokin cigs or herb? i never could get into either one. herb makes me run to the fridge and eat the whole thing, that is if i can make it there before i fall asleep! yeah, i'm not the life of the party.lol.
SYD: i am starting to wonder if the wierdo is the guy sweetchik is talking about (chris brown) who od'd on heroin last night. i am really wanting to know. i asked about it but don't know if i'll get a response cause i am just being nosy.

[hatelove percs]

k, wait a minute. now i am wondering if jahred is the wierdo. if not, he is another one

[ComingHome]

Hi Y'all. It's great to see this online community develop, change, and evolve. We cannot beat this thing on our own. I heard a cool saying at an AA meeting tonight: "we cannot fix our broken minds with our broken minds." I thought that was pretty cool, and addresses the fact that we need others.

Have a super Wednesday!

Coming Home

There is ALWAYS hope

[sydbean]

Okay ya'll get on AIM so we can chat live...my AIM name is sydbean6464

AIM is free if you don't have it!!

[Baby Steps]

quote:Originally posted by tamara02

morning All,Hi Tom,No I think Its you thats making you happy not the drug.Take care babysteps where are you??work I guess,ck w/ ya later.Tamm

Hey Girl!!! I'm here... How was your day? Pretty mello if I'm reading right... LOL What part of ALA. are you from? North East, West or South? I've been all through AL. Liked it. It was just so southern and down to earth! I love the simple southern life and people. And if you ever really wanna take a road trip... Virhinia is calling!!! That would be so cool. Forgive me if I'm mistaken but did you say you were weaning from sub like NY? Let me know how it's going if that's the case.

Ya know... I read a very disturbing post from an Aria that said she dissaggreed with the way these forums were... Just a bunch of people looking for pity, people who congratulate failure etc and not people serious about their addictions or helping others... And that's why she no longer participates in any forum except pill identification. She had said this to our friend MVPT Dave... Hey Dave!!! And I was just so bothered by it because the first time I tried c/t I failed.... I ended up picking up a waiting refill but noone shunned me for it, noone called me a failure here, noone judged me or tried to tell me what I did was wrong because hinestly... I am a grown adult, I make my own decisions, I come here for support, advice, friendship and to offer support. Had you all treated me terribly because I failed that first time I would have never kept coming back to learn how to succeed this 2nd and hopefully last time... Ya know? I don't need to be told I made a mistake, I needed someone to talk to so I would continue to hold hope for a successful end to my own pain. And I feel great now on day 13. I got here because I see so much hope here. I know we all want the same thing no matter how long it takes to get there it is an ultimate goal of all of us. And along the way I have met the most Awesome people who actually know where I was and who encourage me through my race to stay clean no matter what. So this is to everyone here... No matter how long it takes you, no matter how many times you fall, the most important thing you do not want to lose is the drive and will to desire to quit. Who knows what will happen to me tomorrow? No one does but I would hate to think that anyone of you would beat me up and treat me like a 12yr old child thinking that would help me to feel guilty enough to stop forever. I dunno... maybe I'm talking in circles here and if I am I apologize.... I just want everyone to know I care about you guys no matter what!! We all have so much to be thankful for and one of them I thank God for is finding you guys!! Because I could'nt have done it again so soon this second time and in my heart and mind.... without you guys!!!! ALL of you:

Syd, HateLove, LisaGirl, NYMommy, Chrish1 (from past posts), MVPT-Dave, Tom, Dublin, ComingHome, Kai, Tamm, Sparky, and now Bobby and so many others!!! Thank you! My success to this point is 1/2 due to your support and no matter what others say... NEVER EVER Beat yourself up if you fall, or are still using or on sub or whatever the case... Only you can be the one to make the decision to jump or skim or wade etc... Like some people can just dive into a cold pool when they are dry right? Me I wade in VERY Slowly!!! and sometimes I get up to the thigh and I'm out! Cause I'm not ready to dive into that COLD pool.... We're all different.

I am so proud of each and every one of you and my heart breaks for you whwen your heart is breaking and I am sad when you are sad... it's just the way it is when you form friendships... even online ones as I've learned here (cause I've never done anything like this before in my life!) There are times I wish I coould really give the real hug of support!

Anyway... I promise... it's the Itailian in me that can't stop writing!!! LOL BUt I didn't intend for this post but I'm glad I got it out. [8D]

Hey Bobby... The smell thing; isn't it awful? I remember it was about 3 days for me. It was like burnt skin almost. Has anyone ever had that? I'm thinking it's a metabolism thing because I have an over active metbolism, maybe you do too. But it will go away very soon. Hang in there. I am so proud of your progress and you are an inspiration to us here. To know there is hope of doing something physically so soon is inspirational. Maybe if I thought it was possible I would have tried it sooner than I did. So Thank you.

Lisa Girl.... I am just so happy for you right now I could scream!!! I am so glad you will be able to see your mom this weekend!!! That is so awesome! I know you have been waiting for this and I know she has been too!!! Enjoy your time with your MoM... She probably can't wait to just see your smiling face!!! Luv Ya Girl!

Syd... Girl You did an excellent job on controlling that freak! He did try to get me going but I am just not moved that easy. And I def. don't have self esteem issues so nothing he said hurt me however it was so awesome with you, HL and Tam and Vcamo having my back!!! You Guys Rock!!! I promise I will never make you guys mad!!![8D] Thank you so much and I really love you all!!!

NY.... where are you girl??? You are amazing girl along with Kai!!! Tom, CominHome OH MY all of you.

Stay sweet ya'll!!!!!

BIG Baby Steps Hugz to you all!!!

Lori

[tamara02]

hi all its almost 6am in Tuscumbia,Al.this Morn. and Freezing,Boy guess I fell asleep last nite alil early for once ,Boy I needed it,this cold still sucks,Hey babysteps the stuff that makes you eat the frig,sorry,lol...I think I mentioned before I live in a small town now,(birthplace of Helen Keller) kind of neat) I do miss the Ocean,,,Hi tom hope you are doing goog,Buddy>>>everyone w/chat in a min.got to go make some coffee and let the dog out...Later Tamm ps--ya'll are probably all sleepin,I probably missed all the good action last nite....

[tamara02]

Hi Lori(babysteps)Who is this Brown dude? and wonder what sweetchiks is talking abt???Tamm

[tamara02]

Hey just incase (lori) my # is listed in Sheffield,Al. under Shoals Roofing.Tamm

[Baby Steps]

I'm with you Tamm! And thanks for the info... I'll have to give you a call!

Lisa Girl!! Thank you so much for the e-mail and e-mail address! I don't know what I'd do if I lost contact with you guys! You are so sweet! I really hope you have a Fantastic day today!!!!!!!!!

And to everyone else... I have to head out to work... But you are all in my thoughts today and I hope you all Have a Great Day!!!!!!!

Baby Steps is on DAY 13!!!!!! I am soo Happy!!!! Still having some major headaches and my energy is not back but I am making it!!!! I'm coming KAI!

Hugz,

Lori

[tamara02]

Hi Syd I know this sounds stupid but,how do you get on AIM/Thanks Tamm

[Baby Steps]

Hey Tamm... go to aol.com and click on aim and follow the download instructions... That's awesome girl!!! Let us know what your screen name is when you get on. See ya later girl!!!

Hugz,
Baby Steps

[bobbyzworld123]

Thanks for the info Babysteps!

I'm 5 hours from starting day 5. My lower back (reason for pills originally) hurts like heck!! Yesterday the stress of 2 teenage daughters,back pain, and just the emotions of w/d almost caused me to quit (i've got lots of pills left), but I thought it thru, realized that it would solve NOTHING, just cause additional problems, and I am still clean!! : )

I have been back to work for 2 days although I'm only working 1/2 days because of my back and it's the slow season so that's all thats really needed.

I feel bad that I'm doing so well.... My stomach feels fine (I'm eating "firehouse chili" for lunch), I get enough sleep to function (i wake up alot, but still get around 6 - 7 hours), and I really don't have the desire to use.

I do have back pain and my emotions are still very crazy and the odor is still there (babysteps, i opened my bottle of pills (friend needed one) and it smelled just like the toxic odor we discussed. I never noticed the smell before) Besides that, I'm really doing well!

I just want to tell you guys to give you hope. I know its really early for me and this is my first time, but I think I'm in control!

I have taken a daily multivitamin, drank lots of water (2 gallons in two hours kills you *Nintendo Wie contest*) - over the day, and used my hot tub to help get the junk out. I read about a hot tub detox and tried it yesterday. 104 degrees for 20-30 minutes. I lasted 15 minutes, I got dizzy and my heart was pounding out of my chest!!! Be careful what you try I guess. Adjust treatments to your situation. I'll do it again today but only for 10 minutes.

I definately have needed and used this forum to get me through the first 4 days and I cant thank all of you enough!!! I wish all of you success in your own personal journeys!!! Talk to you soon!!

Bobby

quote:Originally posted by Baby Steps

Hey Tamm... go to aol.com and click on aim and follow the download instructions... That's awesome girl!!! Let us know what your screen name is when you get on. See ya later girl!!!

Hugz,
Baby Steps

[tamara02]

Hey Bobby Just thought I'd ck.my pc a sec.and wanted to let you know that you sound like you are doing great!!!! Wish I was In your place right now....keep up the good work..Tamm

[bobbyzworld123]

That's what I mean when I say I feel bad. I want you all to be doing great as well!! I wish you were in my place too!! I know how terrible this experience has been and I can't imagine going through it more than once!! Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me! My success has come from a few things: I guess I just hate being sick so I wouldnt want to go thru w/d again. If i take the Vicodin again, i will get sick again. Secondly, getting a buzz for 30 minutes a couple of times a day for 4 years cannot make up for the last 4 days that I couldn't spend with my wife and kids and the deception I felt from hiding this from them. Not to mention the health problems associated with taking the pills long term.

Good luck Tamara, you can do this!!!!

quote:Originally posted by tamara02

Hey Bobby Just thought I'd ck.my pc a sec.and wanted to let you know that you sound like you are doing great!!!! Wish I was In your place right now....keep up the good work..Tamm

[tom316]

Bobby I think one of the worst things about going c/t is the craving.siting there knowing you want one,your body telling you that you need one when you don't.I had seen that you don't have the craving for them and that's more than half the battle.The thing that was driving me crazy was the pain I was in. After some research I found out that when you go c/t that the pain you had will be like 20 times worse during w/d .It's your body trying to trick you into taking a pill.Hang in there if your back gets to the point that you can't take it keep that in mind!It happened to me when I went c/t from methadon

hate love-Sorry about that with the background story.My mind has been mush lately.My dr had changed my anti d and it was messing with me BAD!I had double vision and this weird sound thing going on when I turned my head.I told him today so he changed it again.talk to ya later.


baby steps,syd & Tam- the aim or whatever it is sounds like a good thing.maybe I'll get to jump on there sometime with all of you.hang in there all of you,I'm posting and going to lay down.My blood pressure which is always good is 143/83 for some reason.I have one hell of a headache and just feel like ****.Take care!Snoogin's!!!

[tom316]

one last thing! Bobby I read your post and you said that you still have a bottle and you gave a friend one.If you don't want to get rid of them have your wife hold them! Just a thought.

[tamara02]

hey guys,,,I think I got on aim I got the screenname part done ,then they said to unblock pop-ups,Im not on AOL I'm on msn.com(fast access DSL) may have to let my son get it going for me after he gets home from church..Hope all is well !!!The Pups are keeping me quite occupied,they are cute as heck.don't know what I'm gonna do when they all start running around the house!!!! Now I think my cat is pregnant ,too!!! after this they both are going to the vet to get fixed!!!Later,Tamm

[tamara02]

Hi ,Bobby Please dont feel bad ,Im proud of you,Bud....takecare of yourself,chat later.....Tom hope you're feelin better,love ya'll Tamm

[hatelove percs]

babysteps: can i spot a lunatic or what? lol. lots of experience.ha! anyways, how is everyone tonight? HOLLA BACK! i am finally rid of my stupid headache after about four days, thank you God!!!! i actually got some laundry done.
syd:i tried to download and get on aim last nite but couldn't get my computer to work with it; grrrrrrrrrr.
tam:hope u didn't eat the fridge too!lol.

[ComingHome]

Hi Babysteps and NYmommy, and everybody else who has shown empathy. I have one day opiate free. Went to an NA meeting today, which was good. I need to try to hit one a day no matter how busy I am. My recovery needs to come first, no excuses. Period. I know I can do this thing again. God bless.

Coming Home

There is ALWAYS hope

[Malakaivampire]

i'm not sure what i'm going to say.. this is the first time i have ever used a public question bored.. or whatever you want to call it...

i'm 21, with an incredible strange personality, and look for interests.. i'm into astral projection, meditation, and lucid dreams... i've been taking darvocets for the last.. well i really can't remember... but i'm feeling the urge to come off the drug. It does help in my meditations and projections, but I want to actually come clean... I want to stop taking the pain killers... Origionally i got them due to the almost crippling Leg pains that I get... but then I found they induce many of my lucid dreams, and projections...

It's becoming a problem... help me.

[tamara02]

Hey all,,,Bobby and Tom I dont know why I keep mixing my posts up ?I mean't for Tom to feel better ,said you had a headache and your B?P was high,which is not usual for you,right? and Bobby ,Yeah! wish I was in your shoes ,But,Please dont feel bad abt.that ,So proud for you .......Hate/love,hey girl how ya doin? No I didn't eat the frig that nite ,But I sure slept good,lol..I'm also havin a hard time getting the AIM thing done,I was on AOL years ago and seemed to know alot more abt.how to operate this pc ...But since I switched to The fast access DSL I don;t like it as much,Its just alil more convenient ,pay for it thru the phone co.,anyways hope everyone is ok tonite,Where oh where is is U know Who? ..Babysteps of course.lol...chat w/ya'll soon Tamm PS hate/love ,,so glad your headache is gone,girl!!!!bye for now

[tamara02]

Hey MALA.... when you astro project do you do the thing where you relax or meditate and surround yourself w/the white lite,I read alot abt.it awhile back on some site was really interesting,,had something to do w/ getting the universe insink cause we are headed for so much trouble soon if we dont do something to protect the way everything that is going on in our world ,,,cant remember to much sorry,but it was very interesting ..tamm

[tamara02]

Hi cominghome,sorry didn't notice your post at first, Sure you can do anything you put your mind to do,,, So glad you are trying,,will keep you in my prayers,,,Tamm..Can't wait til we are all free of this drug sh--!!!I'm even thinking abt. going to church some or on a regular basis..my husband said,,7 days without church will make one weak...thought that was kind of neat...sure won't hurt..because there is a GOD...

[hatelove percs]

TAMM: hey tamm: gurl, give me an email at iam_onecrazeegurl@msn.com-there is a underscore between am and one.

[tamara02]

hate/love just sent you my e-mail add,ok !!! got to run out side w/ the momma dog be back shortly,Tamm