[Baby Steps]

quote:Originally posted by dublinjoe

Another day, another chance for a fresh start. It's interesting to post on this site, at times I feel a bit like an outsider as many of you have 'known' each other for a long time. I was wondering how many of you go to meetings regularly, I have a feeling I should but somehow they just put me off. Not sure why. Part of it is the fact I am a fairly private person, which is why I like the anonymity of this site and yet also being able to be totally honest, if need be, and yet safe.
I've been an addict for over 10 years, all starting with migraines and a scrip for Fiorcet w/.codein. Love that codein! Then on to bigger and better stuff. I've quit so many times for a while, but it's amazing how many opportunities you get to start back up. I play competitive golf (amateur) and you only have to mention back pain, which I have - who hasn't?- and someone will mention they have Vicodin, or Percocet or something and offer it. Recently a perfect stranger gave me 50 Percs he said he no longer needed. Of course, I am pretty good at asking, without asking, if you catch my drift.
I don't know what I'd do if I were an alcoholic, the fact that my fix was on every street corner, can't imagine the pressure!
It just seems after a few months I forget the misery of addiction and get seduced by the idea of popping 3-4 Percs and feeling that initial euphoric rush. God help me. God help us all. Thanks.

Hello Dublin... You're doing great! Hang in there. I do not go to N/A meetings but I consider this board my help and it's a good source of help. Please don't feel like an outsider, with us you just gotta jump right in! I know I am thrilled when new people join because it means they really need someone to talk to and that's what we're here for.

I had a friend who got addicted to that stuff you mentioned (Fioricet #3) and when she had to get off of it her withdrawal was 10x worse than what I'm going through. I thought she was going to die. So that stuff must be strong! Forgive me if you already mentioned this but how many days clean are you now? Stay strong and definetly get to a meeting if you can. I hear from many on this board that they are awesome! Please keep us informed of your progress. And know we are praying for you.

ComingHome and Kai... Good Job Guys!!! I am so proud of you guys!!! I know it's not easy but just think... You could be back where I'm at at miserable day 2!!! You don't want to come back to miserable day 2 trust me. This is by far the worst day. I feel like someone had put a lead weight on my body. It's taking me a loooong time just to write this with resting my arms every 5 seconds. Yikes! My skin is crawling, hot and cold and my upper body shakes a little every now and then. But believe it or not the melatonin is working cause I just woke up an hour ago! Thank Goodness cause All I want to do is sleep through this day!! I am so craving a pill to ebnd this and am very glad I took my last one and chose over the weekend so I can't just call my doctor to end this. I will conquer this... I will conquer this!!! So think about how far you've come and be so proud of yourself!!! I am.

The only thing that bothers me is that you said 9 days and your still suffering??? I don't like that at all... why so long? I am praying this will all end physically by Tuesday morning because I have to have the energy to get in the shower and go to work. Ugh!! I hate this.

Thanks again all you guys's support... I know I really need those prayers today!!!

Syd dear... where is my poem today... I so need a laugh!! LOL JK Take your time... I'm not going anywhere that's for sure...

Hey Where's NY??? How was your day yesterday NY??

Lisa Girl... I'm still praying for you Girl!!! Hope you doing ok.

Hey Tom how are you today??? And thanks for the challenge yesterday on the other post... it got me to use my mush mind for something other than thinking about my w/d...

Hello Tamm and everyone else... I must check out now... way too much to handle right now...

I have to say the news (since that's all I'm able to do is watch the news LOL) about the 2 boys found alive have really made my day! I am so happy for them and their families.

Ok guys... I'll be back later...

Hugz and Prayers to all!!

Baby Steps to a Normal Life

[nymommy]

dublin~~~i know what you mean,about being private..i couldnt believe the 1st time i posted here...so unlike me, but it got the ball rolling for me...4 mos later i'm still on sub, but a very miniscule piece...its not easy coming off it, but thats where i heading...posting has diffently helped the mental end of this battle!..hope you continue to type...~~~baby, the fact that you can type amazes me..keep it up..~kai, sorry you struggled last nite..but you know you're nearer than further..everyone stay stong!!

[Baby Steps]

Thanks NY... You are doing Great!!! Has it been difficult weaning down to your miniscule piece? Are you experiencing any w/d? Hang in there girl... You will get past this in the right time! Don't push yourself too hard as I've read you have to go slowly on getting off of sub. I think you're doing great. And trust me... if it weren't for having my laptop right on top of me in this bed I could never type! But it's keeping me sane so I must do it.

I hope everyone is having a great day today!!!

Hugz,

Baby Steps to a Normal Life

[sydbean]

So here I sit with my a$$ slightly numb,
reading about how far you've all come!

Coming home is day four, Kaidog is rockin' day 9
and look at babysteps day two and doin' just fine!!

Welcome to Dublinjoe we are glad your joining our little group
we're thrilled for new friends (not sweetchikk though she's a poop!)

Now back to my sweet babysteps as this poem is really her gift
some silly, pointless ramblings to hopefully give her a lift

anyone that lurks here and scans the OH SO MANY pages
and has read post after post for ages and ages

will know what I know from reading and reading every little bit
as much as I post and I post I am totally full of sh1t!!!!!

[Baby Steps]

WHOA Syd That was incredible!!! I am impressed! I Love it and I have to say I laughed outloud when you got to sweetchik!!! Sooo funny!!! I Love you girl!!! THANK YOU cause I soo needed that!!!

So how are things up in NH? It's 70 degrees here but overcast so I think that aided in me sleeping past noon. It feels like it's much later cause my room is so dark.

I have to say to everyone... I truly believe these vitamins have helped tremendously!!! I don't feel great but I feel a lot better than the first time. And outside of having the immodium this time that's the only difference. Just some advice. I started taking it a week before I knew I was going to start. Who knows.

I wish I could write poetry cause I'd have do much to say!!

Hugz,

Baby Steps

[hatelove percs]

BABYSTEPS: you are doing great!!!!! you may have heard this before but the length of the w/d period can depend upon the length of time you have been hooked on the drug. i have been on the percs for over five years so last time i tried to quit i was still in it after three weeks and that caused me to cave in, i had not realized it would be soooooooooo long. anyway, day six for me now. don't u stop
!!!!

[Baby Steps]

Hate Love... Thank you for giving me my hope back!! I didn't realize that and was really feeling a sense of total DREAD! I had only been on my meds about a year and a half consistently. Listen to me... only! That's a long time! []

Wow you are doing so great Hate Love!!! 6 days? That's quite an accomplishment! I remember when you quit a few times back and I can certainly understand why you caved if you had to live like this day after day after dreadful day w/o a light at the end of the tunnel! What made you decide to quit this time? I'm so glad you did. And that your in here with us. Because you have truly helped. I just don't know if I could go on like this for 9 days because I am alone and self supporting and a little baby when it comes to suffering!! That's why when I say I'm proud of you guys.... It comes from the bottom of my heart!!! [:I]

Where are you from?

Stay strong HL... I know you can do it this time... you have come a long way!!

Hugz,

Baby Steps to a Normal Life [8D]

[dublinjoe]

Baby Steps: Thank you for the encouragement. I think it's pretty amazing you can think of others with what you're going through. Today is 1 week clean for me. I think it's been the longest week of my life. Feel incredibly weak and dejected. Not sure how much of what I feel is the flu and how much the withdrawal. It's good to come to this space and read of others successes. It reminds me IT CAN BE DONE. I wish you all the best, you are in my thoughts.

[LISA GIRL]

Hey all.. just in to say congratulations to all who are in their early days of giving up their DOC... you are all doing great.. continue to post and encourage each other.. that helps so much!

No new news on mom..just praying that the spinal compression is in her neck...at least that way they could probably do surgery. Last night was terrible... lots of time to sit around and "think" about things...the boyfriend thing hit me harder than I thought it would...to top it off... I work with him! So moving on will be more difficult than it would be otherwise. But I am proud to report no relapses.. I did however, go out and spend $800 at the mall today. I am quite the believer in therapy shopping. At least it was cheaper than resuming my addiction would have been.

Kaidog..also sorry to hear of your bad night. If it's any comfort, your weather is like a heat wave compared to Denver.

Babysteps..thanks again for your support and inquirys... You are a VERY SPECIAL PERSON.. I am keeping you (and all of you)in my prayers as well.

Sydbean....GOOD STUFF! You also bring so much cheer to the board lately.. believe me I can use that!

Dublin...welcome...the others are right.. just dive right in....in the big picture...we haven't all really known each other that long...but addiction can bond people in a short period of time.


LOVE YOU ALL...Thank you for your continued prayers for my mom.

[hatelove percs]

everyone here is sooooooo encouraging and friendly. it is AWESOME encouragement. congrats on 1week DUBLIN!!!
BABYSTEPS:i am here in MO watching the ice storm! uckkkkkk. but can't get any energy to go out ne ways. lol. i think my dog helps me with w/d. haha. seriously, when my legs are restless, she lays on them, when i am cold, she snuggles up, when i cry, she does something cute to cheer me up. i love my dog she hasn't left my side during this whole thing!!

[Baby Steps]

quote:Originally posted by LISA GIRL

Hey all.. just in to say congratulations to all who are in their early days of giving up their DOC... you are all doing great.. continue to post and encourage each other.. that helps so much!

No new news on mom..just praying that the spinal compression is in her neck...at least that way they could probably do surgery. Last night was terrible... lots of time to sit around and "think" about things...the boyfriend thing hit me harder than I thought it would...to top it off... I work with him! So moving on will be more difficult than it would be otherwise. But I am proud to report no relapses.. I did however, go out and spend $800 at the mall today. I am quite the believer in therapy shopping. At least it was cheaper than resuming my addiction would have been.

Kaidog..also sorry to hear of your bad night. If it's any comfort, your weather is like a heat wave compared to Denver.

Babysteps..thanks again for your support and inquirys... You are a VERY SPECIAL PERSON.. I am keeping you (and all of you)in my prayers as well.

Sydbean....GOOD STUFF! You also bring so much cheer to the board lately.. believe me I can use that!

Dublin...welcome...the others are right.. just dive right in....in the big picture...we haven't all really known each other that long...but addiction can bond people in a short period of time.


LOVE YOU ALL...Thank you for your continued prayers for my mom.

Hey Miss Lisa Girl!!! I'm so glad you popped on! Thanks so much for your encouragement... It helps More Than You'll Ever Know!!! Thank you, Thank You, Thank You!

OMGah! You work with your ex??? Oh how hard that must be. You are really going through so much right now and haven't turned back!! Girl That is awesome and says so much about your will and strength!! I can only hope I have half as much! Keep up the good work... I am so so Proud of you! And I'm with you on the shopping therapy and trust me if I could peel myself out of this bed and get out that's exactly what I would do.... But there's time... No worries... LOL As soon as I can get enough strength... Tysons Corner Mall will be like N/A for me... Big trouble. LOL

Please let me know how the MRI turns out on Tuesday (I believe you said it was Tuesday) I know everything is going to work out for you and your Mom. Of course the prayers will continue. God is so perfect and has a purpose for everything. Even if we don't think it seems normal... He has a plan for even our mistakes to turn even the worst situation into an unbelievable blessing... I know because I am Living Proof. I should not have survived that accident and was told that by everyone and so many times wished I hadn't but Oh Boy have things changed in my life since then and I can see how He turned that tragedy into an enormous blessing (except for the addiction of course but I'm sure he already has plans for that too!)

Is it still snowing in Denver??? This weather here is record breaking!!! Kinda freaky!

Anyway girl... I'm nearing the end of day 2 and still feeling pretty ****py but the key word here is Day 2!!!

Stay sweet and strong Lisa Girl!!! You're Doing Great!!

We Love You Too!!!

Hugz,

Baby Steps to a Normal Life

[Baby Steps]

OH HL I am so happy you have your dog there!!! I wish I had one right now. I used to have a yellow lab who passed away but I know she would be doing the same things! Very loyal and such a sweetheart! What kind of dog do you have? And Man oh Man the weather your getting is all over the news!!! Terrible. I'm looking right now at a mac truck hanging off the side of an overpass!! Yikes unbelievable.

Stay warm and strong... You are doing great!!! Everyone is doing great and I am a lucky girl to have such great friends.

Hugz,

Baby Steps to a Normal Life

[Baby Steps]

quote:Originally posted by dublinjoe

Baby Steps: Thank you for the encouragement. I think it's pretty amazing you can think of others with what you're going through. Today is 1 week clean for me. I think it's been the longest week of my life. Feel incredibly weak and dejected. Not sure how much of what I feel is the flu and how much the withdrawal. It's good to come to this space and read of others successes. It reminds me IT CAN BE DONE. I wish you all the best, you are in my thoughts.

Hey Dub!!! Thanks so much for your kind words and thoughts. They are very encouraging and keep me going. 1 WEEK??? Wow... That is absolutely awesome!!! Good Job!!! I am on my way there... right behind you!!! Are you sure you have the flu? Because I know I feel like I have the flu and certainly plan on using that as my excuse for not going into work on Monday but I know it's really w/d. I learned from many many posts that w/d mimics the flu almost exactly!

And you are so right... This board is a constant reminder that it can be done and even if we fail we can get up and try again w/o being judged by people who could never understand what it's like. In here we know exactly what it's like and it isn't easy but can be accomplished. Look at Chrish1... and so many others... They are inspiration for me as I lay here suffering physically, it reminds me this too shall pass.

Stay strong and know you are in my and others thoughts and prayers!! You've made it past the worst of the physical and that is excellent!

Hugz,

Baby Steps to Recovery

[Slimmy]

Okay I've been reading this forum for months now. I live in Denver and I've been addicted to lots of drugs over the years and recently have been taking painkillers for a couple years and specifically Oxycontin for over a year. I was up to about 80mg a day and last week I got on Suboxone. I started on Wednesday and am on a pretty low dosage...about 4 mg a day. It's been going wonderfully. I feel great and am very optimistic about my future and my ability to stay off Oxy. Today however, I'm having a major problem. I go to a clinic to get the sub and I have to go once a day. Most of the people there are on Methadone and I think I'm one of the only people on Sub. Anyway, the clinic closes at 9:00 a.m. on Saturdays and I didn't realize that. Monday is a holiday and they're closed. They were going to give me my dosage for tomorrow and Monday. Basically I'm missing today's, tomorrow's, and Mondays dosage so I am having a dilemma. I'm either going to get sick or I'm going to have to use Oxycontin or Percocet. I feel okay now but I predict that tomorrow I'll be sick.

I tried the clinic and I called every Suboxen doctor in the area and I even went to the emergency room to try and get enough suboxen to get through to Tuesday morning and nobody will help me sooooo.....

any suggestions? I do have a 40mg pill of Oxycontin that I hid during my pill hiding days and I will use it to keep from getting sick. My understanding is that the Suboxone will be out of my system in 48 hours and I'll try and make that one pill last. I will wait until I'm sick and I don't want to use the Oxy but I also don't want to get sick. I guess I'm a wuss but I've done it many times and I'm over it. I don't want to do it again. Anyway, I'd like to hear if anyone has any suggestions where I can acquire some Suboxen or am I screwed until Tuesday.

[mpvt]

Do whatever you have to to keep from getting sick.Going on suboxone in my opinion was a great idea and it looks as though it's going to work for you.Taking oxycodone in this case would not be wrong,I mean,what else are you supposed to do.The clinic won't freak out on you so don't worry about that.4mgs is not really a low dosage considering you didn't have a very large problem with the oxycodone.I used to take 500-600mgs of oxycodone in a afternoon when I couldn't get anything else.Don't underestimate the power of buprenorphene as it is about 40 times stronger than morphine.Good luck and do what you have to to keep from getting sick.....let me know how you make out....Dave

[Slimmy]

Thanks Dave. I have heard that sometimes Suboxen will "last" 72 hours. Do you think it's possible that I might feel okay for that long? I was thinking about what you said and if 4 mg of Suboxene is actually not a low dosage for the amount of Oxycontin I was addicted to and I would be thrilled if I didn't start feeling sick for 72 hours.

My fiance is hip to what's going on and she's being very supportive and she agrees that I should do whatever I can to not get sick. I'm totally pissed off at myself for not knowing the clinic closed at 9:00 and discovering this on a holiday weekend sucks. I'm a little irritated that there's no emergency number or anything for dumbasses like me who miss their dose but there's not and obviously no doctor is going to risk prescribing it to me without knowing me. One thing I've learned from this is that I'm going to try and get a doctor to precsribe it to me. I kind of liked the idea of the clinic so I wouldn't be tempted to take more than I'm supposed to and they have counseling but this is lame. Sitting around waiting to get sick is not how I wanted to spend the rest of the weekend.

[sydbean]

Slimmy~ I totally think you should just tough it out. The reason I say this is due to two things. For one the sub should hold for about 72 hours and due to it's strength and they way it works the chances are the small dose of oxy you have available wouldn't do anything BUT the one thing it will do is that if you have it in your system when you go back to the clinic and you aren't in acute withdrawal the next dose of sub you take is likely to send you into acute withdrawal of the kind you have never wanted to know.....Not trying to scare you at all trying to share with you from the HOURS I have read about this medication. I honestly think that the only thing that could come from the small amount that you have is probably not worth all the possible problems it might cause.

If anyone else has other info that might be conflicting that is okay and I welcome all suggestions I just felt compeled to share as I spend a HUGE amount of time researching this drug.

Hope it is helpful and if I can I will answer any other questions you have and if I don't know that answer I can scrounge through some of my old research stuff and might be able to find you an answer...

Hope this was helpful...

As for all you other crazy folks I have all sorts of b.s. to babble about with you but it will have to be after I make my sweety dinner!! See you after my spaghetti!!!


Hugs not drugs LOL...i just had to say it.
Syd

[Slimmy]

If I feel okay for 72 hours I might tough it out but if not all I have to do is make sure I'm in withdrawals again when I go back for Suboxene on Tuesday. Last time I just took my last dose of Oxycontin about 12 hours before I got on the Suboxen. If I can make it to Monday morning without getting sick I'll be completely amazed but we'll see.

[Baby Steps]

Syd... you're on a rhyming roll girl!!! I look forward to your babel later. I'm gonna actually try to get in the shower myself and hope I can stand it because I know it will make me feel better if I can.

Welcome Slimmy!! I really wish I could help you but I don't know enough about sub to give advice. I do feel you came to the right place. Good luck and I pray it lasts 72hrs!! Please let us know how it works out.


Talk to you guys later...

Baby Steps

[Slimmy]

Thanks everyone. just so you all know it's Slimmy as in slim or skinny. Not slime as in slimey. I'm glad to have found this forum and like I said I've been reading it for months now trying to get up the courage to tell my fiance I am on drugs and trying to get the courage to get help. Ironic that now that I have I'm in this predicament. If I don't post here in the next couple days it means I'm laying on the couch complaining and whining so don't feel so bad for me...feel bad for my fiance for having to put up with me.

I've been looking over the rest of the site and I'm just not sure what's appropriate to talk about here so I guess I'll keep it to my current "painkiller" problem.

[Baby Steps]

Hello and Welcome again Slimmy!! I am so sorry you have to go through this because you missed the time the clinic closed and on a 3 day weekend at that! Yikes!! I hope you have 72 hours. If not at least you have your fiance' there with you to help you through the last few hours before you can go in.

As far as what can you talk about here... You can talk about anything... we are all good listeners and good talkers. The people here are such an awesome group!! I am pushing 3 days c/t and it's because of their support that I haven't caved!! Of course I feel like **** and can't sleep tonight but these things will pass and they keep reminding me of that. You've come to the right place if you want support.

Please let us know how you're doing and I will pray for your peace and strength as well as for your fiance'!! [8D] Drink a lot of water and get some imodium as well as vitamins just in case. I also use over the counter Melatonin 5mg (4) at bedtime. It has worked great up until tonight but I think because I want to go to church tomorrow and am afraid I will not have the strength because the 1st time I tried this I remember day 3 being the worst so I am a bit anxious tonight as well as hurting and weak.

Anyway... Please stay in touch with us and get a good night's rest!!

Hugz,

Baby Steps to a normal life

[Kaidog]

Longer post coming later today but right now I'm out the door.

Oficially in "doubel didgits" at day 10.

nymommy asked a day or so ago if this time was easier for me. In some ways yes but in most ways no, this time has been much worse. Not so much from a cravings standpoint but certainly from withdrawal symptoms. I have never had to fight the chills like this before and the restless legs are back.

Never the less. Ten days is ten days.

Thinking of you all this morning.

Lisa
Baby Steps
Coming Home
nymommy

and everyone else I missed. It's not that I'm not thinking of you........... just gotta run

Clean Date = 01/05/07

[Baby Steps]

HEY KAI!!! Congrats on day 10!!! So Awesome!!! I wonder why you're suffering so much this time with the chills and muscles? Do you think it might have to do with the weather? I'm so sorry you're dealing with this struggle but hey... I look at it this way.... at least you're running out the door and not crawling (like me.... awful!!) I did not make it to church today which upsets me pretty bad but I am still in bad shape. I can't walk straight, my muscles are in such bad shape, my joints and bones are hurting so bad but hey... I'm now on DAY 3!!! 7 days behind you!!! I also couldn't sleep at all last night until 4:30am and I was up at 8! But that's ok... I was expecting that. Oh... and as I was making an attempt to head down my endless staircase I slipped and hurt my hip and tailbone pretty bad. I just sat there for like 10 minutes before I could get back up. All I can say right now is I am so glad I do not have access to any meds or a doctor right now cause oh how easy it would be to feel better!! But of course I am not going to go that route.... I have to keep moving forward! God gave me feet to go forward not backward.

Anyway I'll stop whinning as I'm sure it could be worse! I must say it is a lot better than the 1st time... Thank God!

Good Morning and How are: NY, LisaGirl, Syd, ComingHome, Dublin, Tom, HateLove, Tamm and all the rest that I might have missed???

I'm thinking about you all and hoping you all have a Great Day! Please keep me in your prayers today as I need them so bad right now. Thanks Guys!!!

I Love You All!!

Hugz,

Baby Steps to a normal life

[dublinjoe]

Hey Baby Steps: Hang in there, it will get better. I know you know that yourself but at the worst of times it seems so easy to pop a pill and all will be well, but of course it won't. "Muvvers little helper ... " seems so appealing as Mick says in '19th Nervous Breakdown' (the Rolling Stones in case you are not familiar). That's my era, growing up in Dublin and London, said he giving his age away.
I too have been thinking about getting back involved with a spiritual community of some sort, used to be pretty involved but not for a while. Even though I'm fortunate to have a great family, I still miss a sense of purpose in my life and have been taking this time of rehab to catch up on some old school reading.
Anyway, to you and everyone fighting the good fight of getting healthy and staying healthy keep up the good work. It's nice to know we are not alone in this. Better days ahead!

[Baby Steps]

Thanks Dublin!!! You def. have a purpose in this life and who knows maybe it's to help other addicts or preventing others from becoming an addict. You never know! God is so good at turning our mistakes into enormous blessings and if you or I or anyone here can help someone from this we are doing what God wants us to do.... We just had to feel what it was like first so we are able to understand their pain.

Ireland huh??? I'm half Irish and half Italian. I've been to Italy several times (still have relatives over there) but I've never been to Ireland and have always wanted to go.... I bet it's beautiful!!! Lucky you. Where do you reside now?

My posts will be short and sweet today because I'm not in the best of shape but I will be off and on all day. I have to.... It's the only thing that's keeping me sane right now. As I am pretty much alone here (and out of town...wink wink LOL) so I need to be active in keeping my mind focused on recovery and not the easy road while I'm so weak right now. I know from the 1st time that this will be gone very soon... Thank Goodness!!!

How are you doing today Joe? Do you have any support?

Take care!

Prayers, thoughts and hugz,

Baby Steps to a Normal Life

[tom316]

baby steps,is there a normal life? lol check out the other thread where you kicked my butt! can't we just be friends? the mobic thing forget about it.if you have had ulcers it wouldn't be good for you.

syd,i'll email you later with my story but most of it is in my first post! short form: car wreck,pills,abuse of pills,methadone clinic,suicide attempt (64 sleeping pills?I would like the answer why it didn't work),methadone c/t!

lovehate,how goes the battle?

Dublin,sounds like you have it almost beat! keep it up!

slimmy,if you were on 80 mgs of oxy tuff it out! You're going to get sick but who doesn't? Withdrawl sux! I think most of us have been there.I agree with syd 100%.Screw Sub why get addicted to another med.It sounds like you got a good woman.Make the choice to stay clean for her and to share your "new clean " life together! Withdrawl comes and goes so will the craving for the drugs.hang in there.

If I forgot anybody sorry! dr took me off of 2 of the anti d's i was on and changed me to another. withdrawl from wellbutrin and lexapro sux but nothing I can't beat.even though i feel like ****!take care everyone!later.

[Baby Steps]

You're too cute Tom!!! I already responded back to you in the other post... Go read it... [8D]

Again I say... I AM SO SO PROUD OF YOU!!! 20 days c/t off of Methadone is a HUGE accomplishment!!! You are an inspiration. I am so sorry that you now have to w/d from the ad's but that should be a cake walk compared to the c/t from meth.

Excellent!!! [8D]

And you are so right... is there such thing as a normal life??? Probably not but I want it back to when it was normal for me... LOL

Hugz,

Baby Steps to a somewhat Normal Life... LOL

[hatelove percs]

hey guys and gals. my electricity went off all day and night so i had to go to a motel. yuck. but i was able to get some homework done and spend time with my daughter. it is hard to do homework in w/d.lol. my brain just doesn;t work the same. i am having a hard time today because my migraines are messing with me which is why i started using in the first place. glad it is sunday and no pharms are open. it hurts!![V]

[Baby Steps]

Hey HL... Have you tried ES Excedrin (3) FOR THE MIGRAINES? They worked for mine when i USED TO GET THEM 20 YEARS AGO AND i TAKE MY EXCEDERINE DAILY now as a preventive measure. Just a thought. I can't even imagine studying right now. I can't even think straight!! LOL Sorry about the caps... I didn't realize they were on... ooops... I'm a dork!!

How was your visit with your daughter? How old is she?

Hugz,

Baby Steps

[Slimmy]

Well the Oxys are only one of a long list of things I've been abusing over the last 20 years so even if I last throught this sickness I'm not too optimistic that I'll be clean for long and my job is way too time consuming and stressful to feel anxious or to deal with cravings if I intend to be successful and to make any money. I was hoping to use the Sub and nothing else and get used to not looking for pills or drugs or alcohol or whatever and to just work as hard as I could and follow the doctors orders and ween off. Obviously, I'll have to get sick eventually but I've been on drugs and/or alcohol for so long that I was looking forward to letting my brain heal before I tried to totally quit. Anyway thanks for the encouragement. Seriously, it's very nice. I am almost in withdrawal right now so I have today and tomorrow to decide if I want to go back on the sub. I'll let you know what happens.