[IAMCANE1]

I had this thread at the end of that one thread that had 1000's of replies. Just wanted to put this out there to tell my story and possibly get help for my still issues.

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Let me give you a little brief history about who I am and how I ended up where I am today. Just like the rest of us when I found pain pills it was a like finding a Treasure of Gold. I was not in any pain, I just loved the way it made me feel. All of a sudden I had all the confidence, self esteem and energy I had always wanted. The crazy thing is, is that I was already a great athlete....you name the sport, I was great at it. This was about 8 years ago. I am 36 now. Percs, Norco's, Hydro's Oxy's....whatever it was, was my drug of choice. I loved it. This lasted about 5 years, with the last 3 years being a pretty much daily user. I didn't realize it until the last couple years, but all the great things I liked about pain pills had disappeared. They didn't make me feel good anymore. I needed to take them to avoid W/D's and just to fill normal.
Then I found what I thought was the "majic" pill. Methadone. Guess what, not only did it make it so there were no W/D's but I could get the High I had been searching for again. But again, after 203 years....the high was gone and the W/D's were much much more intense. Let me say all these pills I got from the street or a friend, etc.... I had many friends who had an abundance of what I needed. Great friends, huh. ANyways...my Methadone connection went into treatment...no more Methadone...now I'm screwed, right? But, now I was able to find someone with a bottle of Subutex. My friend who went into treatment was also being weaned off of Methadone with Subutex and I could talk to her daily to find out how to do it. First off.....I waited until I was in pretty good W/D's and took; 1st day.....4 mg under the tounge......waited 2 hours and took another 4mg under the tounge. 2nd day...24 hours after 1st dose took 6 mg under the tounge.....waited 2 hours and took 2 mg under the tounge. At this point my joints still hurt but the panic, anxiety of W/D's is low. 3rd day....4 mg under the tounge. 4th day 2 mg under tounge and 2 hours later an additional 2 mg under the tounge. 5th day....Just 2 mg under tounge and then the 6th and final day just 2 mg under the tounge. I can honestly say ALL W/D symptons are goneexcept 1. My last dose was Friday. The only problem I have is my SHins are absolutely killing me. It hurts to walk, sit, sleep, anything. it is just a severe aching pain. Popping Ibuprofen like it is going out of style and no good. I have more Subutex and no it would get rid of the pain, but the last thing I want is to get hooked on anything else!!!! Is there anything alse that I can do? Also....just a background of the amount I was taking of hydro's, etc. 15-20 10 mgs. WHen I switched to Methadone I was on about 80-100 mgs a day and gradually moved down to approximately 40 mgs before i started the Subutex. So basically I am letting people know that the Subutex did help my W/D's for me. It has been almost 2 weeks since I took a Methadone and my W/D's would be much much worse then shin pains....bu on the other hand......is there anything I can do for my shins. It is very hard to work, play with the kids, laundry, etc.......Good luck and God Bless to all of you!!!!!