[chijessi]

I'm having a terrible time here. for six years, I took vicodin and lortab for chronic pain in my back. But when that stopped owrking my doctor prescribed oxycontin 20mgs, three times a day, which quickly grew to four, five, six, then 40 mgs twic a day, three , four, until Iwas taking 400 mgs a day and not feeling a thing.

Finally, I decided to quit. I did it wrong. I quit cold turkey and lost my mind, went through hallucinations and cold sweats, nausea, weeping, but I wanted to get through it because I have a nine month old little girl that I absolutely exist for, and I don't want her to see me like this.

So last Tuesday was my last Oxycontin, then on Wednesday I took my last percosets and on Saturday, when I thought I'd have to go to the emergency room, my doctor said to take Lortab for two weeks, tapering down each day by one pill until you're not taking anymore.

Here's my question: WHEN IS THIS GOING TO GET BETTER? I see no light at the end of this tunnel at all. All I see is that my hsuband has to take care of the baby because I'm either crying, shaking, or sleeping, I have diahhrea, I can't focus at work. I just want to sit down and enjoy an hour, playing iwth my daughter without freeaking out.

when will this end? I can't do it much longer.

[lyds]

Originally Posted by chijessi

I'm having a terrible time here. for six years, I took vicodin and lortab for chronic pain in my back. But when that stopped owrking my doctor prescribed oxycontin 20mgs, three times a day, which quickly grew to four, five, six, then 40 mgs twic a day, three , four, until Iwas taking 400 mgs a day and not feeling a thing.

Finally, I decided to quit. I did it wrong. I quit cold turkey and lost my mind, went through hallucinations and cold sweats, nausea, weeping, but I wanted to get through it because I have a nine month old little girl that I absolutely exist for, and I don't want her to see me like this.

So last Tuesday was my last Oxycontin, then on Wednesday I took my last percosets and on Saturday, when I thought I'd have to go to the emergency room, my doctor said to take Lortab for two weeks, tapering down each day by one pill until you're not taking anymore.

Here's my question: WHEN IS THIS GOING TO GET BETTER? I see no light at the end of this tunnel at all. All I see is that my hsuband has to take care of the baby because I'm either crying, shaking, or sleeping, I have diahhrea, I can't focus at work. I just want to sit down and enjoy an hour, playing iwth my daughter without freeaking out.

when will this end? I can't do it much longer.

One thing I have learned at this forum is that everyone is different. I can tell you what worked for me. I will be glad to do so. I just hope what worked for me can help you, too.

My MS Contin abuse wasn't as high as yours. I was using 90 mg a day. When I decided to quit, I did it cold turkey. The physical withdrawals were surely painful, but the worst of them were over on about day 5. The emotional withdrawal was much worse and it took me much more time to get passed the depression, lack of energy and the fact that I would cry over the silliest and simpliest things.

Exercise helped. I know that sounds crazy because I am sure you have moments when you wonder if you are going to have enough energy to get off the couch. If you can make yourself do a little something, I strongly suggest you do it.

Getting back to normal was slow going, but the important thing is I did get back to normal......Just keep concentrating on your daughter and keep posting here!

[chijessi]

Focusing on my daughter is what makes me cry. All she knows of me this past week is crying and ranting and shaking and not being able to carry her because I'm too unsteady. All I can think of is what this is doing to her. I know she's young...but it's got to be scary.

I called the doctor today because she prescribed me lorazepam yesterday to help me sleep but even after taking FOUR of them i was wide awake, staring at the ceiling, trembling, crying. If I could just be knocked out for four days, get this SH*T out of my system for ever, I feel like i COuld deal...but you're right. THe depression, the crying over ANYTHING, it's horrid.

My husband just says "I love you, but you've got to tough it out."

[butchy yost]

chijessi,

you are one of the people on here that probably should be on Suboxone...400mg Oxy a day is no joke. In order to function normally and feel halfway decent you are going to need some help. I know exactly how you feel, I have 2 kids, age 2 and 4, and not being able to hold them or take care of them is the worst feeling in the world.

How long were you on oxy? and also how long have you been off? thats important because if you have already been withdrawing for awhile and are past the worst of it, then maybe you should just stick it out. Because although sub is great, it IS addicting, and it is hard to get off as well. let us know how you are doing...

[chijessi]

I wanted to update those of you who read this. I successfully quit the Oxycontin cold turkey, although I was forced to seek some emergency care for something similar to a nervous breakdown. On day four of my withdrawal I went back to work and simply broke down, couldn't stop crying and was unable to function. My doctor signed me out of work for a week, gave me some Lorazepam, Clonidine and Respridol (sp?)

I am currently still taking Lortab because the physical pain in my back is still ever present, but I hope to be able to soon wean off of that. I feel much better, my head is clear and all I can say is...stay. away. from. oxycontin. I can't stress it enough. that pill is the devil.

[mpvt]

That's good news that your off the oxycontin but I hope you realize your still actively addicted and will go through the same withdrawls when you quit the hydrocodone.Good luck....Dave