[scared_ohio]

Yippee!! Yahoo!! Huzzah!!
Ok, got that outta my system.
I'm not sure how many of y'all know my story, but suffice to say I'm an addict. I've been addicted to percs, vicodin, lortabs, etc...for 19 years. I've had three back surgeries, and have degenerative disc disease as well as arthritis in my spine. I was doing anything I could to get pills. I got "caught" doctor shopping a week and a half ago, and the pharmacist said she was calling the police. Well, the police never came, but that was a wake up call like I've never had before. I took my last pill on Jan 30th at 11:30am. I started on Suboxone last Wednesday and it has been the best thing to ever happen to me. When I go to sleep at night my last thought isn't "OK, how am I going to get a scrip tomorrow to last me a couple of days". It is the most incredible feeling. I'm going to my first NA meeting this Saturday, and I'm hoping that will help even more. Has anyone ever gone to a meeting before? Can anyone tell me what to expect?
Ok, my baby girl just woke up! Be back later!
Thank you for "listening" everyone!
Gen

[mpvt]

Way to go,this will no doubt be a huge turning point in your life.Just becare now because addiction is very sneaky and it will try and convince you to try a couple pills as you can handle it now.Don't fall for this kind of thinking as I'm sure you've heard the old saying "1 is to many and 1000 isn't enough".Good to see you're going to a meeting.Learn as much as you can about addiction and learn to avoid your triggers.Good luck to you and a big pat on the shoulder to.You should be very proud of yourself.....Dave

[hatelove percs]

U R AWESOME SCARED!!! it is a great feeling, huh? i am on day ten with no pills too. the cravings are starting to kick in with me so i must use my brain to think everything out quite a lot now, as in why i quit, what w/d is like, how i will not feel good after the first few days of pills, etc. it is the most difficult part to me. hopefully god will give me strength. i am trying to keep my mind busy! i am so proud of u, keep it up.

[sydbean]

Scared Ohio ~ Congrats, I was just thinking about you the other day. I am so glad that you are doing well. I am also glad that you are going to a meeting. It is a really great step in learning to NOT use but I want to give you a heads up. This is only to let you know so you are not caught off guard. You will find that many of the "hard core" NA people are very, VERY against using any substance to stay clean. They often won't let people get a clean "chip" or key chain (you will understand this better when you have been to a meeting) if they are on Methadone or Suboxone. That does NOT mean you should be any less proud!! I know some people who need the meetings and don't want the BS about the meds so they keep it to themselves. Because really it doesn't matter what the hell they think. You know how well you are doing!!

I don't in any way want to burst your bubble I just would have hated for you to be caught off guard.

We are so proud of you. Keep posting and come on over to the Pain killer addiction thread. We don't bite!!!!

Hugs,
Syd

[lyds]

Gen, you already know how I feel about this, but I'll make it public..... CONGRATS, GIRL!

Be proud of yourself because you really should be! Every day gets better not being tied to the pills. Yesterday was awesome for me. I went through the whole day without one thought of a pill. Nothing. I was just zipping through my day feeling good. Got home from work, cooked dinner, cleaned up the kitchen, and got busy with one of the most intense work-outs I've done since I quit using. I was a sloppy, sweaty mess, but I felt outstanding!

Anyway, this isn't about me, it's about YOU. Keep at it! You are doing so flipping GREAT!

Lydia

[melissa22]

hi, my name is melissa and i am worried for my fiances life. i recently found him almost dead due to an excess of heroin and oxys. he admitted to me that he has been a "user" for almost 3 years now. i read about this drug SUBOXEN and i wanted to know if there was any way to get a prescription for it. i begged him to go for help but he wont go. he promised me if i got him these pills he would stop. im worried im going to lose the love of my life. if anyone can help me out, you can email me privately at missdtchess22@aim.com

thank you so much

[sydbean]

Melissa22~ As much as you want to help your fiancé I have to tell you that him telling you he will quit when YOU get him the right pills is a line of BS. Take it from an addict. Why is it your responsibility to get the correct pills for him.

Trust me if he is not the one motivated to find sobriety it isn't going to happen. Even if you did get the pills for him (I don't think there is any way that could happen but anyway...) even if you could and he made some sort of effort I promise you it won't last.

What he needs to be willing to do to get better first and foremost is to admit that he is addicted and he is powerless over the drugs and he wants a change.

For most addicts the first step in the right direction and going to a professional and asking for help. Until he is ready to do that it's not going to happen.

Unfortunately you can't want it for him he has to want it for himself.

I am not trying to be rude or mean I just want you to understand that it is clear in your post you care very much for him and you are very worried (with good reason) but you can't love him out of this.

Try to talk to him and if you can convince him to get an appt. and go and see a suboxone doctor THEN you are the first step to his becoming sober.

There is a website I can give you if you would like it, on that website you put your zip code down and it tells you all the drs. that can prescribe suboxone in your area. There are also Methadone clinics that do suboxone as well too.

Best of luck to you.

~Syd

PS. Don't feel as though you are not welcome here on your own. We all know the hell we have put the ones that love us through and if you are needing people to talk to who can understand what you are going through that is us for sure. If you click on the last page under "pain killer addiction" and post there that is where we all usually hang out. We would love to have you over there!! Also, read all of the back pages under that section...tons of info!!!