[johntrav]

I have been watching for quit a while and first would like to congradulate u all on trying to get off and stay off. I have been on anything and everything i can get my hands on for the past 5 years. I use to be a bodybuilder and had a few bumps in the road in terms of siblings death and alot of other things and started using at first because i couldnt sleep very good after my sister passed at a young age from a car wreck. she was 18 and at the time i was about 27 yrs old and was big into bodybuilding and needless to say all that is a thing of the past. I at that time was weighing a solid 250 and now weigh a unhealthy 170lbs. I dont know why ive lost so much weight,i dont work out now because i have no energy and seem to care about nothing but keeping my pill bottle full so my days are consumed with making phone calls and running to meet people to buy from.I am out of work right now because i cant bring my self to do anything!The doc has put me out for depression and one of my questions is have all of u had this same bout with depression and is it because of these pills. I have graduated to a total of around 40 or so 10's a day over my period of use and hardly feel a thing from them anymore. I am wanting to come off but really dont no where to start and so im HERE!Not to mention im scared of death of what it will be like not taking so i would appreciate any help that anyone could offer as to wear to start and be clean.Also what was you guys last straw that made u want to quit because im not sure im even there yet but feel if i dont quit im gonna possibly end up hurting my self chasing that feeling.

Thank you for any responses!

[Kaidog]

Johntrav:

Wow. You've got quite a story to tell. It's a classic case of an addict spending everything and willing to forsake everything to get his / her fix.

Forty 10's per day is a lot of hydro........ by just about anybody's standard. Coupled with your statement that you aren't even sure you want to quit, I'd say your chances of success, if you go unassisted, are very slim indeed. That's the bad news.

The good news is that you appear to be someone who at one time had incredible dedication and who was willing to endure significant sacrifice in pursuit of a goal, (the body building). Putting this chapter of your life behind you will require just as much dedication and commitment as you ever mustered toward the body building.

The other good news is that you also appear to be a perfect candidate for suboxone. It truly is a miracle at delivering many, many addicts from the clutches of hydro addiction. It does it painlessly and effectively and instantly.

I would encourage you to investigate and to ask a few questions of others here on this board who have used it.

It can be done. You can get free. Attempting to taper and then go cold turkey is an incredibly difficult process and it is truly an ugly experience.

Clean Date = 09/12/06

[mommato2]

Hi there!

I just joined on here...been watching too. alot of amazing people doing amazing things. The main thing I keep seeing that people are raving about is the suboxone www.suboxone.com I am going to call one of the dr's in my area either tommorow or monday to get started cause I have been using vicodins for almost 2 years I know thewithdrawls are awful as i have been through them. I am sick of it and I just found out I am pregnant and after trying to stop on my own a couple of times and failing I am grasping at straws to be clean. I know the only reason i keep doing it is cause of the withdrawls most the time when I take the pills now i just feel nauseous or throw up.not much of a euphoric reaction lolquite the opposite...most of what I am reading about this drug is that you can get over the addiction of the painkillers without having the withdrawls....it sounds like a miracle i know. but most the people ive read about probably consider it a miracle....I hope you will look into it maybe the website can give you some hope and determination to go through with it. I hope to be posting regularly and reading regularly so if you want to talk I will check back often to look tos ee how your doin!

[lil cuban]

have you thought of going to rehab? getting off of drugs is really hard without support system. i stopped drinking in 2002. it helps having people around who can understand what are you going through.