Welcome, Nightfall! As Mike said, you certainly came to the right place. These people literally saved me from oblivion. They're honest, caring, and most shoot straight from the hip with a no BS answer to just about any question you can ask. There's no shame here, no judgement, no pity, just caring people who have "been there, got the t-shirt".
I wish you nothing but success in your withdrawl and I am living proof it can be done without "dying"...lol as I seriously thought I was ... and Mike, Sub, Dave, Katie, and oh so many more helped me through the worst and are STILL helping me. Stay in touch and write as often as you need to. Someone will always be there. Love & light