Mrbrew,
I know where you're coming from. I was in a similar situation a few years ago, and just like you, I will always be an addict.
Suboxone helped me get clean about a year ago. It was easy and painless. I felt like I was cheating. I had done a normal detox prior, and didn't want to do that ever again. If you can get a hold of it for detox, it would make it a lot easier.
The other thing many look past is the use of buprenorphine (suboxone) for pain management. It is a long lasting opiate and some chronic pain suffers claim it has saved them. The big downside to Bup is its highly addictive as well - just like all the opiates. It has a longer half life, so it stays in your body longer, which will make WDs last longer if you get addicted. A few people have talked their doctor into writing Rx's for Bup for pain for the last few weeks of treatment. Bup can be written by any doctor, as long as its for pain. To write Bup for addiction, they must be registered, and they are strickly limited. Two weeks of Bup at the end of your treatment can manage the pain, and also make quiting a lot easier after years of dependency.
Junkie