my day 2

[Giacomo]

well today is my 2nd day of withdrawels from going cold turkey and outside of generally feeling like i got the flu , yawning and watery eyes and a runny nose things seem to be ok ive been on narcotic pain meds for the last 10 years and have been up and down this rollercoaster a few times ..but when my wife left me (not for my addiction but beacouse she chose to be a lesbian ) i went crazy on the meds and within a few months of her being gone i had her call the police and say im suicidal so great i got 6 cops beating me up shoveing their knee into my lower back where my discs were removed so my doc moved me from vicodin to oxycodone 15 mg and i just spent moast of my time high on it till i started running out then a friend started giveing me his extras and i avoided withdrawels for months well my friend cut me off and i ran out so here i am on day 2 ..things in my life have gotten better since then ive found a girlfriend and she loves me completely so its time to kiss my old flame oxy and vicodin good bye it feels strange thiking this is it ..i dont want to have to hide the addiction from my gf she doesent know about it and though i will tell her in the future the time is just not right we are too close to our meeting ( she lives away from me and her bigest fear is her friend met her prince charming and he turned out to be a druggie so i dont want that to happen between my gf and i when she meets me on the 30th ) thanks everyone here whos posted ...your posts make me relize what im feeling and going through is nothing ( not to make me better than anyone else going through wd's ) but it seems im doing real well with it now i cant wait till i can say i am clean for 2 weeks anyway i need to get back to talking to my girlfriend ...btw its the ****s hideing the withdrawels from her but i know in the long run shes worth every ounce of the withdrawels im feeling as of this moment well as a sort of update i confessed about what im going through to my girlfriend and she wasent mad infact she saied she wants to know theise things that she couldnet be mad with me for this shes concerned about it but she is far from mad so i am verry happy that things is working out and the reason im doing this is all worth it

[mpvt]

There are people in your life worth going through this and after you look back on it I think you will realize thyat you are the most important person in your life and it was worth every minute of the withdrawls(even though they are rough).So hang in there because you will start to feel better in a couple days.Good luck and keep up that great attitude....Dave

[Giacomo]

well here i am day 3 lol the physical symptoms are all gone with the exception of the runny nose ( nothing some sudafed wont cure ) but the min i woke today here comes my mind playing games saying a trip to the ER wont hurt ...though my back is really trashed i agreed to help a friend with his buisness tonight and my mind is saying youll need it for the job ahead tonight ...now i guess its just willpower that will have to prevail that and the memory of how the flu like symptoms i exprenced and how i dident like them on day one

[Giacomo]

ok here it came the biggest nightmare of my life ..i was feeling better so i took my mustang out for a little drive ( hehe i do get a good adriniline rush from driveing fast) and wanted to do something since i was feeling better from the withdrawels ..well i blew up my transmission now i gotta repair my car ( no biggie ive been a mechanic all my life and have my degrees from college ) but the fear of the pain in my back kicking my ass while doing the work has me real bad ..anyone got any ideas of what may help besides takeing tyelenol ..im allergic to NSAIDS so motrin ect is out of the question i dont want to start getting asthma while working ..i think the fear of pain is probbly the worse thing we got

[mpvt]

Can you buy OTC muscle relaxers were you live.In Ontario we can buy Roboxacet OTC.That and more tylenol or maybe Bufferin would help.Congrats on kickin your doing great......Dave

[Giacomo]

hey dave ,
well i got my car togeather ...2 days of working 8 hours and i was done lol the emotional rollercoaster was a blast knowing i did it in major pain ...little did i know that my mom had stashed a few of my oxicodones and she dolled out 4 of them ( dont know if she has more i dont care if she does or not really my job is done ) its funny i guess being my "dirty little secrete" is out and ive told my gf , mom , best friend ( who was a alchoholic and been througth the whole addiction process ) my mindset is SO diffrent i dont want them i feel the pain but in my mind i think i can take it i guess ive seen when they are really needed and when you dont ..funny thing was i feared going through withdrawels again but i havent i guess takeing those pills over the last 2 day and doing it in a more responsible manner helped out alot ..anyway hehe gonna take my pony out for SHORT ride to the beach and just relax and enjoy my day today

[mpvt]

Good for you and I'm happy that your feeling well.Enjoy your life and the people in it......Dave