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[tavee]

hi sarita!!!welcome back!! i was wondering where u were.

so ure almost there girl!! good for u!!

dont quit on us once u are done. we still need u to keep in touch and keep us sane!!!

i am on 7.2 ml and i will start 6.4 in a couple of days.
so far so good , but im worried once i get to the low numbers i will feel it.
what do u think?

tavee

[HelpMe58]

Tavee, I wondered how you were doing. Are you still dizzy? HelpMe

[nicole77]

I have much experience with antidepressants. Your name them and I've taken them at some time or another. I've been on and off of them since I was 14 years old. I'm now in my late twenties. The Lexapro withdrawl symptoms a lot of you are experiencing are just that- withdrawl symptoms. The shocking sensation many of you have been feeling have been experienced by my personally. I don't care what your doctor tells you- it's withdrawl from the medication. I, at one point, felt like starting the medications again would be easier than stopping altogether, but I hung in there and after about 6 weeks the symptoms ceased. It took that long for me- if not longer. The headaches were the worst. Not only was I extremely nauseated, but I felt like my head would explode at anytime! Riding in a car was impossible. I'm sure my sympoms were extreme, but that's what I experienced each and everytime I ended an antidepressant. Some medications have more severe side effects then others. Well, I just wanted to let you guys know that if you hang in there, it will get better. It's simply a matter of time. For me, time was crucial.

God bless,
Nicole

Nicole

[tavee]

HELP ME!!

HOW ARE U FELING? HAS IT GOTTEN BETTER?

MY INLAWS LEFT FOR GREECE YESTERDAY SO THINGS WILL CALM DOWN A LITTLE NOW.
IM STARTING THE OTHER DOSE ON TUESDAY.ILL LET U KNOW HOW IT GOES.

ARE U GOING BACK TO WORK TOMORROW?

IM OK, I GUESS. I JUST TOOK MY VITAMINS. IM STILL A LITTLE DIZZY IN THE MORNING, BUT BY THE END OF THE DAY IM OK.

KEEP ME POSTED ON HOW U ARE DOING.

TAVEE

[HelpMe58]

I think I'm some better but if I lie down and even start to go to sleep I get a dizzy/panicky spell. At least, I am sleeping some. I am just waiting to see if the 5 mg is going to be enough to stop the panic feelings I get. It will be a week back on, on Tuesday. I am going back to work on Monday and then we have Tuesday off for Election Day. Wish me luck! I pray you will do well on your lower dose. Let me know.

quote:Originally posted by tavee

HELP ME!!

HOW ARE U FELING? HAS IT GOTTEN BETTER?

MY INLAWS LEFT FOR GREECE YESTERDAY SO THINGS WILL CALM DOWN A LITTLE NOW.
IM STARTING THE OTHER DOSE ON TUESDAY.ILL LET U KNOW HOW IT GOES.

ARE U GOING BACK TO WORK TOMORROW?

IM OK, I GUESS. I JUST TOOK MY VITAMINS. IM STILL A LITTLE DIZZY IN THE MORNING, BUT BY THE END OF THE DAY IM OK.

KEEP ME POSTED ON HOW U ARE DOING.

TAVEE

[sarita]

HelpMe,
When you lay down you have anxiety? I'll tell you what that is: FEAR. Fear that you'll wake up in the middle of the night again and panic. I suggest you have a nice talk with yourself before you go to sleep. Put on some soft music, rub your chest softly in a circular motion, take deep breaths, and talk yourself through it. If you can afford it, order cherry extract on www.theroadback.org. That is MAGIC i tell you. It helps you sleep and with anxiety. They make it in liquid and tablets. It's nothing more than cherries. I swear by it. It's like a glass of wine. You will be fine at work. Take some omega 3 and a vitamin and don't drink any coffee if you can.

Tavee,
Yes. I'm almost done. I will not disappear. It's been a long journey but in this case, patience is a virtue. The first time I went way too fast and suffered terribly. I went back on, did my research, and did it right the 2nd time which was to taper slowly and I have successfully done that SO FAR........knock on wood!!!!
Dizziness in the morning is normal too but it does get better. Stay busy and don't think about it and that should help. You can do this. DOn't let it control you. You control IT.

I also had claustrophobia and had problems getting on a plane for a year but got over it for the most part. For me, when I begin to feel shaky, that means i'm hungry or tired.

[sarita]

HelpMe,
When you lay down you have anxiety? I'll tell you what that is: FEAR. Fear that you'll wake up in the middle of the night again and panic. I suggest you have a nice talk with yourself before you go to sleep. Put on some soft music, rub your chest softly in a circular motion, take deep breaths, and talk yourself through it. If you can afford it, order cherry extract on www.theroadback.org. That is MAGIC i tell you. It helps you sleep and with anxiety. They make it in liquid and tablets. It's nothing more than cherries. I swear by it. It's like a glass of wine. You will be fine at work. Take some omega 3 and a vitamin and don't drink any coffee if you can.

Tavee,
Yes. I'm almost done. I will not disappear. It's been a long journey but in this case, patience is a virtue. The first time I went way too fast and suffered terribly. I went back on, did my research, and did it right the 2nd time which was to taper slowly and I have successfully done that SO FAR........knock on wood!!!!
Dizziness in the morning is normal too but it does get better. Stay busy and don't think about it and that should help. You can do this. DOn't let it control you. You control IT.

I also had claustrophobia and had problems getting on a plane for a year but got over it for the most part. For me, when I begin to feel shaky, that means i'm hungry or tired.

[tavee]

help me
so how did it go at work today?
how are u feeling? let me know.u know where to find me!!

tavee


sarita
thanks for writing. tomorrow im lowering my dose to 6.4. i am a little nervous.
is there anything else i should take? im on omega 3 and a multivitamin. im ok so far though. what do u think?do u think ill be ok once i get to 5?

tavee

[HelpMe58]

You are so right...it's fear. I am taking the cherry but I'm not sure it's working.

quote:Originally posted by sarita

HelpMe,
When you lay down you have anxiety? I'll tell you what that is: FEAR. Fear that you'll wake up in the middle of the night again and panic. I suggest you have a nice talk with yourself before you go to sleep. Put on some soft music, rub your chest softly in a circular motion, take deep breaths, and talk yourself through it. If you can afford it, order cherry extract on www.theroadback.org. That is MAGIC i tell you. It helps you sleep and with anxiety. They make it in liquid and tablets. It's nothing more than cherries. I swear by it. It's like a glass of wine. You will be fine at work. Take some omega 3 and a vitamin and don't drink any coffee if you can.

Tavee,
Yes. I'm almost done. I will not disappear. It's been a long journey but in this case, patience is a virtue. The first time I went way too fast and suffered terribly. I went back on, did my research, and did it right the 2nd time which was to taper slowly and I have successfully done that SO FAR........knock on wood!!!!
Dizziness in the morning is normal too but it does get better. Stay busy and don't think about it and that should help. You can do this. DOn't let it control you. You control IT.

I also had claustrophobia and had problems getting on a plane for a year but got over it for the most part. For me, when I begin to feel shaky, that means i'm hungry or tired.

[HelpMe58]

quote:Originally posted by tavee

help me
so how did it go at work today?
how are u feeling? let me know.u know where to find me!!

tavee


sarita
thanks for writing. tomorrow im lowering my dose to 6.4. i am a little nervous.
is there anything else i should take? im on omega 3 and a multivitamin. im ok so far though. what do u think?do u think ill be ok once i get to 5?

tavee

Tavee,
I went to work and it turned out fine. I hope that 5 mg, is getting into my system, thank God. How are you feeling? I will get in touch with you tomorrow to see how you are doing. I have been thinking about you and praying things go well for you tomorrow. We are off tomorrow for Election Day.

[tavee]

help me and sarita

so i just took my 6.4 ml. im really nervous.
im curious to see if i will have any symptoms today.
it definitely is a lower dose than what my body is used to.

wish me luck and pray for me!!!

tavee

[sarita]

tavee,

i doubt you'll be feeling anything at least for a few days if any. you're doing great. keep the steady taper. no more than 10% missy!!!!! if you get depressed or sad or moody, add an extra omega.

helpme
yeah for you! keeping busy is great. i don't get why the cherry isn't working. it's SO strong. it only helps with sleep and anxiety not dizziness.

[Gabriel2006]

awe **** my doc says I have to stay on lexapro for 6 month's!!! I only had side effects *mild* for the 1st 3 days and now I feel great! *2weeks now* He say's that since I'm not depressed just a little anxious I should have no issues withdrawing from this and that all the complaint's I read on the internet are most likely people with alot of other issues in their life and the MAJORITY of the success stories don't even post on the internet because thay are too busy living a good life that lexapro helped them achieve. We will see!......

[JLShockley]

Helpme58, I was so afraid NOT to get the good restorative sleep that "cured" my fibromyalgia...so when I got off the Lexapro, I started taking a benadryl at night before bedtime. It has worked like a charm.

I am also taking .5 mg of Xanax twice a day to help with my anxiety, and have taken that for 7 years.

Gabe, I felt drugged for the first three days when starting Lexapro, Xanax and a beta blocker for my "stress related heart condition" Anxiety was killing me!

Lexapro made me feel good for the first time in my whole adult life...but the drawbacks are loss of libido, loss of ability to have an orgasm, weight gain. After 7 years, I needed my quality of life with my husband back.

It's back...

and the weight is just coming off

I used to say I would never stop taking it because it helped me so much, but...man...intimacy was just so lacking. I mean I just never felt anything, or wanted to have sex. If I did manage to find some desire, the lack of orgasm became very frustrating...why bother, why try. I resorted to sympathy sex just for my husband's sake. Who needs to feel like that.

So, I was a success story in my anxiety, but a failure in bed. Great!

The weight just kept creeping up and I could not seem to stop it, nor get it off. It was a struggle this past year just to keep it at 160. I started at 130.

We all have issues. My doctor played God with me, insisting I begin all three drugs at once. Maybe I should have just tried the beta blocker to regulate my heartbeat. Oh, no..he said. He had several women patients just like me, and they all benefited from the trio of drugs, and if they stopped them, they felt so bad they started them up again.

I am the same as I was before when I was on Lexapro. I am sticking with Xanax and benadryl for sleep and anxiety, and my beta blocker for rapid heartbeat.

For just a little anxious....I would not start Lexapro, if I were you.

Jeanne


"The Ox is slow, but the Earth is patient."

[HelpMe58]

My doctor told me the same thing, but getting off Lexapro is hell. The doctors have no idea.

quote:Originally posted by Gabriel2006

awe **** my doc says I have to stay on lexapro for 6 month's!!! I only had side effects *mild* for the 1st 3 days and now I feel great! *2weeks now* He say's that since I'm not depressed just a little anxious I should have no issues withdrawing from this and that all the complaint's I read on the internet are most likely people with alot of other issues in their life and the MAJORITY of the success stories don't even post on the internet because thay are too busy living a good life that lexapro helped them achieve. We will see!......

[HelpMe58]

Sarita,
Maybe the cherry is working some but I did not give it enough time. I am sleeping some better. I do not want to up the Lexapro to 10mg again since I have made it down to 5mg, The problem is I am so sad a lot of the time..and worried about dumb obsessive things,,is that me or withdrawal?

quote:Originally posted by sarita

tavee,

i doubt you'll be feeling anything at least for a few days if any. you're doing great. keep the steady taper. no more than 10% missy!!!!! if you get depressed or sad or moody, add an extra omega.

helpme
yeah for you! keeping busy is great. i don't get why the cherry isn't working. it's SO strong. it only helps with sleep and anxiety not dizziness.

[annieraspberry]

Hi all,

I've spent the last few days reading a dozen or so of the first pages of postings and realized that I wanted to introduce myself now and share my story. I've been on 20mg of Lexapro for the last year (prescribed for depression and GAD) and now that I find myself in a better place emotionally and personally, I decided recently that I wanted to get off this drug because 1) I think it was just a band-aid for my problems and didn't allow me to get to the root of them to heal, 2) I feel like it's deadened me a bit, and 3) it's completely out of sync with the rest of my life which I try to live as naturally as possible (organic, whole, natural, etc in all respects). I really just couldn't have this 'poison' on my system anymore and if going off it causes me to feel as sad and depressed as I was prior to going on it, so be it. At least I will be able to deal with those issues, feel my pain, and know that I'm nut numbing myself anymore.

Anyways, those are the reasons why I chose to stop. Now, however, five days into stopping cold-turkey, I'm overwhelmed by how absolutely **** I feel physically. Definitely have the almost-debilitating mind ZAPS, the extreme tiredness, the nausea (the ride home on the metro last night I almost literally threw-up), I alternate between chills and feeling overly warm, my whole body just hurts with the zaps and the fatigue. I'm stubborn and do NOT want to go back onto the lexapro but MY WORD this is impacting me so much more painfully than I anticipated. Some of you have suggested that it may be 6 weeks or so before I don't feel these symptoms and, let me tell you, from this angle, 6 weeks seems like an interminably long time!! I don't have the luxury of taking time off from work so I find this is definitely impacting my performance, it's so distracting!! and so hard to motivate myself to do my job when all I can focus on is how horrible I feel. I really have to believe this is going to pass ... I can't believe now that I ever went on it in the first place. I certainly NEVER will again, if only to avoid this withdrawal symptoms.

I know this is a long, rambling message, and still there is so much more I feel I could say, but for now, hello, and thanks for being there for the advice and stories. Misery sure does love company.

Annie

[QuitLexColdTurkey]

ANNIE--I feel that quitting cold turkey is the absolute worst thing you could do.I would recommend going back on the 20mg and get rid of all the withdrawal symptoms you are having now and then very, very slowly taper yourself off. Quitting cold turkey, I feel, is hell and not safe. It screwed up my whole nervous system until I went back on the 20mg. Now I will begin to taper very slowly. Good Luck!

[annieraspberry]

But won't the withdrawal symptoms for quitting cold turkey and quitting after tapering off to 2.5 mg or whatever be exactly the same? I thought I really could just get this over with in one fell swoop (indeed, I just got into a fight with my mother who says I'm being stupid to quit cold turkey!). I can *handle* these side effects as long as I know they will have a definite and soon end date (soon being weeks or whatever). I just want to beat this thing! I know I'm being horribly stubborn but people quit cold turkey every day, right? Are there permanent effects associated with quitting cold turkey? Should I be scared (beyone what I am right now?).

Man this sucks.

[jab1975]

I quite cold turkey 8 weeks ago and im still miserable. My doc has me on 40mg of prozac and 1mg of klonopin. But i am still having the hot/cold flashes, bodyaches, severe fatigue, joint pain, headaches, chest pain, abdominal pain, indigestion, vertigo, tingling in my arms.anxiety, and overall just blah. He wants me to start wellbutrin along with what i am already taking. Could i still be withdrawing 8 weeks later? If anyone can give me some guidance i would greatly appreciate it. This whole ordeal has almost cost me my marriage od 8 yrs and my doc. was the one that put me here by only telling me to decrease the lexapro for a week and then start the prozac. This has gone on since Aug. 06

[tavee]

help me

how are u feeling?
how are things going with u?
im sorry i didnt get back to u. we had a sad situation where we had to put my cat of 15 years to sleep.
its been really hard since i've had her for 15 years. the hard part was actually going in and going thru and watching the whole procedure. i really didnt feel like talking to anyone so i apologize.
i will get in touch with u soon.

i felt pretty bad this morning. i dont know if it was because i had more coffee than usual and eggs. i was nauseated and a little "out of sorts". it could also be because of all the stress with my cat.

its my second day of 6.4 so i dont know whats going on. im a little better now though.

my emotions are actually coming back where i actually cry now and have feelings. i think when i was on the 10mg i was more cold towards things or i should say not so compassionate. it could aslo be pms too!!

anyhoo, im hoping i feel ok in a couple of days.

i pray that all is well with u. i think about u and hope u can get thru this quickly and safely.

let me know how are u.

tavee

[HelpMe58]

Tavee,
I am so sorry to hear about your cat. You and I are the same when it comes to animals. I'm sure your feelings are grief and sadness over your cat rather than the medicine decrease.
I am better but I have been so sad. I think maybe this decrease has opened all the grief over losing my husband two years ago, as well as my mother not being well and preparing for my son to go to college next year. I feel as if I am missing everyone all at once. I am not sure if that is actual feelings or they are magnified due to the decrease in the Lexapro. I am still having panic attacks that last a few minutes but they pass. I am sleeping better but I wake up a lot. I am really confused over whether this is withdrawal, side effects or just plain ME!
I am praying for you too and I am always here if you need me,
HelpME

quote:Originally posted by tavee

help me

how are u feeling?
how are things going with u?
im sorry i didnt get back to u. we had a sad situation where we had to put my cat of 15 years to sleep.
its been really hard since i've had her for 15 years. the hard part was actually going in and going thru and watching the whole procedure. i really didnt feel like talking to anyone so i apologize.
i will get in touch with u soon.

i felt pretty bad this morning. i dont know if it was because i had more coffee than usual and eggs. i was nauseated and a little "out of sorts". it could also be because of all the stress with my cat.

its my second day of 6.4 so i dont know whats going on. im a little better now though.

my emotions are actually coming back where i actually cry now and have feelings. i think when i was on the 10mg i was more cold towards things or i should say not so compassionate. it could aslo be pms too!!

anyhoo, im hoping i feel ok in a couple of days.

i pray that all is well with u. i think about u and hope u can get thru this quickly and safely.

let me know how are u.

tavee

[jab1975]

I forgot to mention i have made 3 trips to the er and have had a upper endoscopy done only to find out that nothing is seriuosly wrong with me, but that is the problem i am constantly worrying b/c of the way i feel that something is wrong. I have missed a total of 9 days of work in the last 2 months and i feel like im getting nowhere. The reason the doc took me off of lex was that he felt like it was no longer working for me. I was on 20mg for 3 yrs and i also felt like it wasnt working like it had in the beginning. I have lost 25 lbs since being off of lex only b/c i have no appetite and really no desire to do much of anything. My wife can tell a big difference from when i was on lex and then being off of lex as far as my energy level and willingness to help around the house. Im having trouble just getting up and going to work and it seems like the physical symptoms are slowly getting worse for me. I have these constant aches and pains that tylenol and motrin really dont help. what to do?

[HelpMe58]

I'm not a doctor but did you ever consider going off some of the other stuff and trying maybe 10 mg of lex to see if this gets rid of some of the symptoms....and then weaning off slowly...very slowly? Just an idea. It seems like you are having withdrawals from lex and side effects from the other drugs you've introduced. I kinda did that to myself....

quote:Originally posted by jab1975

I forgot to mention i have made 3 trips to the er and have had a upper endoscopy done only to find out that nothing is seriuosly wrong with me, but that is the problem i am constantly worrying b/c of the way i feel that something is wrong. I have missed a total of 9 days of work in the last 2 months and i feel like im getting nowhere. The reason the doc took me off of lex was that he felt like it was no longer working for me. I was on 20mg for 3 yrs and i also felt like it wasnt working like it had in the beginning. I have lost 25 lbs since being off of lex only b/c i have no appetite and really no desire to do much of anything. My wife can tell a big difference from when i was on lex and then being off of lex as far as my energy level and willingness to help around the house. Im having trouble just getting up and going to work and it seems like the physical symptoms are slowly getting worse for me. I have these constant aches and pains that tylenol and motrin really dont help. what to do?

[tavee]

HELP ME

THANKS FOR WRITING.

HAVE THE PANIC ATTACKS GOTTEN A LITTLE BIT BETTER THAN LAST WEEK?
DO U SEE A DIFFERENCE FROM LAST WEEK THAN, LETS SAY TODAY??

ARE U STILL TAKING THAT CHERRY STUFF?

HANG IN THERE. U RE BODY HAS TO GET USED TO THIS DOSE.
JUST WAIT ANOTHER WEEK OR SO TO SEE HOW IT IS.
TRY TO KEEP BUSY WITH OTHER THINGS. HAVE U TRIED WRITING IN A JOURNAL?

JUST LIKE SARITA SAID. DO NOT LET THIS CONTROL U . you control it!!!

im here if u need me.

take care
tavee

[Hopeful285]

Hi, this is my first visit. I have been on Lexapro for 2 years. It was a wonder drug for me in the beginning. About 4-5 months ago, I started getting issues with my left leg giving out. I was on 10 mg of Lexapro. Then I started walking strangely. I would dip. I was walking very strangley. This happened intermittently. I was not weaning off Lexapro, just taking it daily. Then I started getting what looked like excema between my eyes. I increasingly got different symptoms. The doctors could not figure out what was wrong. I was increased to 20 mg. My legs got stranger and I started kicking, my feet would paddle like I was swimming. Gradually it went into my whole body. I tremor so strongly, I can't sleep. I wake my husband up. I have strained my back. These symptoms I was having before I started weaning myself off.
The doctors did not figure it out so I am really suffering now. My reflex in my left leg does not work correctly. It is the one they test that is behind the knee. I am self diagnosed. No doctor will say it is the Lexapro. I started weaning myself last week.
I took my last dose Monday night. I have a headache, tremors, dry mouth, diarhhea, itching all over, puffy feeling, at times stomach pain, muscle aches, blurred vision at times, high blood pressure, insomnia. I had tremors before I started weaning off the drug. I am afraid to go back on to wean myself off because I was having serious side affects while still taking it. Any advice??? I am in bad shape.Hopeful285

[tavee]

sarita

i need some advice.
today im on the 3rd day of 6.4. im starting to feel nauseous and i dont have an appetite either.

is there anything i can take or do? is this a symptom of with drawal u think?

my face feels hot too.

tavee

[Rey Rey]

Today 11/6/06

It’s funny how I indirectly know people who have been, or are currently going to, rehab for something or another. Whoever thought I’d need a group to deal with quitting my antidepressant.
My surffs problem began late summer when I began having problems with anxiety. No stranger to the feelings, I went on to ask questions to my therapist, to whom I go to weekly. It made sense if I wasn’t depressed but now anxious, my problem might very well be Lexapro. I believed it was mutual that I go to a psychiatric doctor to seek answers. In therapy I had made great progress and was feeling quiet well. With only 4 weeks left in therapy I felt I was yet again strong and in control of my life.
Meeting with a psychiatric doctor was a new experience. It was my regular physician who gave me the Lexapro prescription after I received my hiv diagnosis. It was at the advice of new phyciatrist and two others (whom sat in the office and gave their input as well) that I was to up my Lexapro dose from 20 to 30. I was told in fact that Lexapro in high dose would help me lower my anxiety levels and not focus on the depression.
Things were looking up... but it almost was too good. I began to stop vocalizing. I stopped letting people know that I was upset with them, I even stopped telling people how I felt at all. It seemed like a waist of time. Looking back I almost felt like I was falling out of love in my relationship. At work when I was upset I kept my feeling to myself. Self dialog was something I was becoming all to familiar with. It became the “norm” to talk to myself in the car. To be mad that I hadn't spoke up or pissed off that I was running late, or upset I was even upset at all.
A few small things that lead up to the fall...
October has the sad privilege to hold so many horrible tragedies of my life falling in the same month. It reminds me of bad feeling in school and loosing my sister my grandmother who were so close to me and the end of my favorite time of year. Summer. the nights came sooner and the weather gets colder. for depression it seems to be a tough time of year to gaze upon in the past. Anxiety is no problem at this time of year for me because I can busy myself with holiday. But I had been depressed
The suppressed anxiety was just stirring I suspect. Though feeling anxiety is something I grew up with. It was hard to go back to those horrible feelings. In therapy I did in fact stop feeling depressed and found my self moving on and up in my life. Anxiety was all I knew before depression. It seemed to me my work was done when in fact it had only just begun.

If you have ever been put under for an operation you would know that sometimes people awaken crying or laughing or even upset. On the 17, I was told by my boyfriend that I wasn’t myself after waking up. In fact he asked if I had taken anything else because for a solid week I was out of char actor. I was “checked out”. By sunday the first anxiety attack came. I had a glass of wine at brunch. all was fine till my buzz went away. I took one look in the car mirror and started to cry because I saw gray hair. I took an Excedrin after all I anticipated a headache but only 5 minutes into it I found it hard to breath, my sensitivity levels where sky high and my hearing seemed to dim. The lights were bright and I felt dizzy and wanted to pop through my skin.
It was that monday I went in to seek help. First to gay and lesbian center then I went to the dentist. Just go home and sleep it off. Tuesday I went back to the gay and lesbian center and I was sent to Cedars only to be told to calm down yet again. By Wednesday it was a blur. at home things were even worse and Thursday I tried to end it all with sleeping pills. Now sick in the ER at yet another hospital embarrassed I went home looking like a suicide junkie. by Friday I was told by my psychiatrist to stop my Lexapro as well my doctor told me to stop my hiv drugs.
It’s one thing to be over medicated. but detox is another battle in it self. As I began to have moments of clearness I was sad to find so much time lost. I began to wonder about the people in my life and how I’d in fact meet them. My old friends had noticed the change in me long ago and rebuilt our friendships but I felt like I was waking up from a 5 year dream. The tears never stopped most people in my life wanted to know what went wrong and my bursts of dizzy spells and hearing loss came on strong. The lose of control made my stomach turn and i could barley bring myself to drink water. Morning were so hard for me. after the tears stopped I had to talk myself to get dressed. Leaving the house made ill to my stomach the shaky hand told a story of god only knows what. The thought of wondering mad me nuts. The feelings have lessened since but it’s only been 10 ****ing days and I’m so sick of these feelings. I began to cry about things I thought I long forgotten about and problems from years back. In my heart I know I can bounce back but what about the current situation. my job and relationship. Now they took away the ability to hide my problems. I’m learning to cope but I feel so disconnected and regretful of time lost. most i feel alone. Things are changing so fast and out of my control and all I want is something to stay the same and not one thing is the same.
more Big problems are my selfesteam now

[HelpMe58]

Tavee,
The panic attacks are better but not gone. It concerns me because I do not handle things well when I am so nervous about things. With everything going on in my life I'm not sure what is what. I hate all of this.
It sounds like you might be having a little of the withdrawal however I would think it would take a week or more for you to feel the effects. Maybe you are just nervous about this dose you are on. I did notice one of the first withdrawals I had was my face feeling hot. It is such a strange drug. Did you notice these effects when you brought the dosage down before?
Take more of the Omega 3...up to 3 in the morning and 3 at noon...on an empty stomach. Keep in touch.
HelpMe

quote:Originally posted by tavee

HELP ME

THANKS FOR WRITING.

HAVE THE PANIC ATTACKS GOTTEN A LITTLE BIT BETTER THAN LAST WEEK?
DO U SEE A DIFFERENCE FROM LAST WEEK THAN, LETS SAY TODAY??

ARE U STILL TAKING THAT CHERRY STUFF?

HANG IN THERE. U RE BODY HAS TO GET USED TO THIS DOSE.
JUST WAIT ANOTHER WEEK OR SO TO SEE HOW IT IS.
TRY TO KEEP BUSY WITH OTHER THINGS. HAVE U TRIED WRITING IN A JOURNAL?

JUST LIKE SARITA SAID. DO NOT LET THIS CONTROL U . you control it!!!

im here if u need me.

take care
tavee