[erinkj]

Originally Posted by 8monthslater

Thanks for the encouragement and reminders that I need to take care of myself. All of my problems started when I lost a baby in my second trimester. I had years of struggles trying to conceive (it took 2 years and 2 miscarriages before I had my son and 2 years and 2 more miscarriages before I had my daughter). I have been trying to get pregnant, pregnant or nursing during that whole time. Now that I am no longer trying to have another baby and no longer nursing maybe my hormones can get back to normal. I really think that all of that is what triggered my panic and anxiety.

My question is this: Do you think I am slowing down the healing process if I take a .25 mg xanax when I need it? I never do it everyday (although I have done it 4 x in the last week). I just don't want to mess up my brain any more than it already is. What about xanax and serotonin? Does it affect serotonin? From what I understand it affects GABA, but I am not completely sure about this. I just want my brain to heal, but sometimes I just really need some help. Thanks.

Yes xanax affects GABA (the feel good/ reward center in your brain). Xanax boosts GABA which brings about the calming effect. You are NOT abusing your xanax! I understand your worry and reluctance to take it but, you are not even taking as much as you are prescribed to take which is great. You are not taking it for fun and you are on a very low dose. So, as long as you take it only as needed (which is what you are doing) then, you need not worry or feel guilty about it. Of course you can try some of the natural remedies like those aunty listed if you would prefer not to take xanax but, that is up to you. If you do try any of those, please let me know if they help as I am rather curious about their effectivness. Peace...Erin

[erinkj]

Hello, how are you doing? does the panic continue to get better? and how are your moods? Also, do you take the inosotol? and have you tried any of the anti-anxiety remedies like the bach fower? I would love any feedback on these as I am quite strapped for cash after my vacation and I really cannot afford to spend the money right now just to try something to see if it helps. Any advice?...Peace....Erin

[Darth41]

Originally Posted by Rosalinde

Hi everybody. I have a question for the people who have weened completely off the drug the slow and steady way. (10% at a time). I have been doing this and am down to 1.8 mg from my original 10mg. I am really impatient to be done with this. I have had very few wd symptoms and have become more like my energetic self each time I go down another 10%. Wouldn't you think my dose is low enough now that I can speed up the tapering? I gained 35 pounds on this stuff and it doesn't want to budge even with eating right and exercise. I really want to get the weight off but I can't until I'm done the Lexapro. I have been thinking about going down 10% every week instead of every other week, or perhaps going down 20% instead of 10. What about once you get under 1 mg? I am thinking I should go down .9, .8, .7, .6, etc until .1 and then stopping. Can I get some opinions on this from the folks who have successfully tapered off? I would appreciate any advice or experience stories on tapering at the very end. Thanks.

All I can say is that everyone will react differently during the weaning off. I have been weaning of 10mg of Lexapro since Sat. 3/8. I reduced it 50% to 5mg and will reduce it another 50% to 2.5mg this Saturday for two weeks. After that I'll do 1.25mg for two weeks, then totally quit. So far I've noticed pins and needles sensations in my right leg around my knee that comes and goes, but that's the only symptom so far. I've been on Lexapro for 4 months. I've decided to wean myself off because of the weight gain. After about 2 1/2 months on it full strength, I gained 10 lbs. and constantly craved junk food. However, I am an avid exerciser, so thank goodness for that or else I would easily be 20-25 lbs heavier.

It sounds to me like you are tapering off slow and steady. Follow what you think is best. I understand what you are going through...I too want to get off this stuff and get back to a normal weight. I'm seeing a psychologist and practicing Cognitive Behavioral Therapy techniques which is working great. I haven't had any panic/anxiety attacks since and I feel great. It's just the weight gain that I hate, and it's mainly fat. My BMI shot up from 18% to 25%in less than 2 months!!

Good luck to you.

[Unbelievable]

My fiance told me something last night and I have no memory of it whatsoever. Which is troubling.

Also, I flew off the handle today at something minor.

Symptoms of W/D are something else? Anyone else experience angry outbursts?

[COHiker]

Originally Posted by Lori Jo

Hi, everyone! Wow...so nice to find such an active board on Lexapro withdraw! I have been on Lex for 2 1/2 years, with GREAT success, except I can't handle the weight gain and sexual side effects anymore so I want to taper off. My daughter tapered off this past year very successfully and is doing absolutely great. I tried to taper last year and did it too fast and it did not work so I am going to do it much more slowly this time, over at least 4 months, if not more. I am only on 10 mg. I am afraid to do this without some sort of natural supplement to take after I am off the Lex, so I ordered Amoryn to help me. I wanted to use the Amoryn while tapering but read this is dangerous. Has anyone else tried a natural supplement after tapering off the Lex? I went on the Lex only because I had terrible insomnia, would be awake every night worrying about stupid things, obsessing, my mind not turning off. No sleep and total exhaustion made me anxious and depressed and moody during the day. I thought the doc would give me a sleep aid but he put me right on the Lex. I can't say it doesn't work, it does, but the side effects are no longer acceptable to me.

Also, are there any safe natural supplements I can take to help with the tapering/withdraw effects?

WOW! Your story sounds similar to me, but I've been on for almost four years. I tried the fast taper also and am now doing a second go round with it...
The Lex worked well for me, but I became somewhat robotic (appathetic) and I really should have been put on a short term benzo drug instead.
Yea, the weight gain and sexual side effects stink. I recently found out that although the number 10 (as in mg) sounds small, this is not true for this drug. Some MD's have the attitude of "it's ONLY 10mg, thats a small dose, just go ahead and go off" (this was an actuall quote from one doc I saw--- not twice, though)
For the insomnia and anxiety, you might want to check out 'body calm'; it is a passion flower suppliment. I did not have alot of faith in suppliments making a "real" difference (other than just being good for your overall health), but I am using Barley and omega 3 for fatigue and it really has helped.
If you go back through past postings on this sit, take some notes and go out there and research.
I would definitely do your OWN research and try some things and see what works for you.
If the anxiety is a real problem, a short term (and occasional) use of a xanax type drug may help you over the bumps.
Happy Dad recommended the book "When Panic Attacks" about cognative behavioral therapy techniques. You can also Google "The Linden method" and see what it can offer to help the panic stuff.
Most importantly, be patient, go slow, and try a variety of suppliments to see what works for you.
Good luck and keep us posted!
COHiker

[link20]

Originally Posted by erinkj

I feel for you dear. Deppression can be very tricky to treat especially when suicidal ideation is present but, you do have options, several infact. I admit freely that most of us will not advocate the use of anti-deppressant med's or other psych drug's as many of us are trying to get off of them or recover from their use. However, I cannot totally vilify these med's as they can benefit those who TRULEY need them. I am not a doctor and am not fully aware of your history, etc but, I can say with some knowledge that Lexapro is NOT the best med choice to treat deppression! From what you said about your paxil experience and what you are experiencing with lexapro I think that SSRI's may not be the best med's for you and they could actually be making your problems worse. I know that fatigue is a very common symptom of deppression but, it is also a VERY common side effect of ALL the ssri med's. Do you have anxiety or panic attacks with your deppression? If you do not have those problems and you are not overly sensative to stimulants like caffeine then, you may be a good candidate for an SNRI med. Honestly, I hate to tell anyone to use these med's and I am not telling you to do so but, if you are going to treat your deppression with medications then you deserve to be informed and actively participate in your treatment. SNRI medications have a higher succes rate in the treatment of deppression because they work through the serotonin and norepinephrine pathways in the brain. stimulating the norepinephrine reuptake has a bit more of an up or energizing type effect which seems effective in helping to lift deppression but can be overstimulating and problematic to those of us with panic problems. Cymbalta is one of several SNRI medications that is commonly used for deppression and you may want to re-search it and others in the SNRI family. I think that lexapro has much potential to make the deppression worse! We are all different and thus react differently to medications so, please do you'r re-search and discuss ALL of the options with you'r doctor. I also recomend that you talk with a pharmacist about the medication options and get their opinion as well. If you are not happy with your psychiatrist you should look for a new one. If that is not an option for you then you should talk to a counselor at your school as they may be able to reffer you to a deppression support group geared toward other's your age who can relate to what you are going through. There are also many natural supplements available that are helpful in treating deppression and this is another avenue of treatment that you may well benefit from exploring. At the very least you need to be taking a fish oil supplement EVERYDAY. Scientific re-search has PROVEN it's effectiveness with deppression. I think the recomended dose for deppression is 2 gel caps 3 time's a day but, check that as I may be wrong. Also, continue to post here as you will recieve all the encouragement and help we can give. Please, keep us updated and let us know what you decide and how you are doing. All my best wishes to you...Erin

thanks for the support. my friend had suggested cymbalta so i'll talk to my dr about it. one of my problems ( i think) is that my mom doesn't believe me about the withdrawl symptoms or that 5mg is a big difference with this medication. i am thinking about asking my friend about his therapist. my friend says that he likes him.
i dont get panic attacks too often.i do sometimes but only when something very stressful shows up. for example, at the moment i am in danger of failing out of at least two classes in my last semester of high school because i can't pull myself together and actually do my work. i have always had prooblems with doig my work but now it's a whole lot worse. i have a termpaper rough draft that is late. that i have barely started. the final is due friday. but for some reason when i tried to get some of it done during one of my free periods today, before i could even type 3 words, i exted word and went into the cafeteria and took a nap. this is a real problem for me because it's driving my mom crazy and whenever she tries to get me to work on it we both just get mad and all i can think is "she wonders why i want to kill myself." i know that i shouldn't be thinking that and right after i take the medicine i dont have any suicidal thoughts for about an hour. it just feels wrong for some reason though. i know this isn't good but i only feel like myself when i want to kill myself.

[auntybiotic]

Originally Posted by link20

thanks for the support. my friend had suggested cymbalta so i'll talk to my dr about it. one of my problems ( i think) is that my mom doesn't believe me about the withdrawl symptoms or that 5mg is a big difference with this medication. i am thinking about asking my friend about his therapist. my friend says that he likes him.
i dont get panic attacks too often.i do sometimes but only when something very stressful shows up. for example, at the moment i am in danger of failing out of at least two classes in my last semester of high school because i can't pull myself together and actually do my work. i have always had prooblems with doig my work but now it's a whole lot worse. i have a termpaper rough draft that is late. that i have barely started. the final is due friday. but for some reason when i tried to get some of it done during one of my free periods today, before i could even type 3 words, i exted word and went into the cafeteria and took a nap. this is a real problem for me because it's driving my mom crazy and whenever she tries to get me to work on it we both just get mad and all i can think is "she wonders why i want to kill myself." i know that i shouldn't be thinking that and right after i take the medicine i dont have any suicidal thoughts for about an hour. it just feels wrong for some reason though. i know this isn't good but i only feel like myself when i want to kill myself.

Please talk to someone about the sucidal thoughts. Ask you Mom or go to a Vitamin Shoppe and order Bach's Cherry Plum Flower Essence ( the cost is about $9.00)..it is great for those wanting to harm themselves and that have suicidal thoughts. It is four drops under your tongue at least four times a day. You will notice the thoughts will go away after you take the Cherry Plum Flower Essence.

Lexapro can cause suicidal thoughts especially at higher doses, are you at 15 Mg still? Please ask your mom to get you the Carson's Onega 3 Fish Oil for your depression. If you give me a way of reaching you I will have my daughter who is your age and is going hru the same fatigue and not wanting to do homework thing........I will have her contact you offline and you and she can help one another.

Remeron is the only other antidepressant that I would let a loved one use.............it is not hard to get off of and works great for many with depression. It comes in 15, 30 or 45 Mg. I know others have decreased their lexapro dos e and added a small dose of remeronI to wean off of the lexapro. You have only been on lexapro a very short time but if it has increased your sucidal thoughts to twice a hour it is not the right antidepressant for you . I am not a doctor SO PLEASE LET YOUR DOCTOR KNOW about the increase in your sucidal thoughts ASAP!!!!

First of all do not worry yourself about the lexapro, you have only been on it for six weeks..................the first thing is to talk to your doctor about your sucidal thoughts. GET THE CHERRY PLUM FLOWER ESSENCE ASAP to help you thru this crisis!!!
Talk to people your age that understand, my daughter would be excellent because she could help you as she has been thru hell with lexapro (she was put on 20 Mg for TMJ ( clenching her jaw) I started this thread to understand lexapro and to help her get thru the withdrawals.

If you can figure out a way she can contact you. Create a new email that you would not mind posting, let me know your IM or My Space name, anyway...........I will have her talk to you.

Do NOT give up............you will get thru this!!! You have a Full and Great Life................this is just a pebble on your path thru life.........................please talk to someone about your feelings. I will listen, my daughter will understand as she is your age and is still withdrawling from lexapro. Talk to your doctor. You can get a 504 at school and for college that will help you have more time to finish tasks and assignments.

Have your mom read this forum so she understands. People love you and want to help you.
You can ask the forum director to send a email to me privately ( It is OK with me) or give me a way to reach you.
DO NOT HURT YOURSELF...................and do not worry about the lexapro. Sucidal thoughts are a side effect of SSRI use for many. Let your doctor know ASAP and try the Cherry Plum Flower Essence to help get a handle on the sucidal thoughts. Please write here daily for support and let us know how you are.. I will check here everyday to see how you are doing. Withdrawaling by more then 3 to 5% of your lexapro dose can cause severe fatigue and depression. I am NOT a doctor but please talk to a doctor or someone that you trust about your feelings.
aunty

[link20]

thank you very much for your concern. the odd thing is i dont; think i am in danger of hurting myself i've thought about it but it dont think i would actually do it. it's kind of confusing. but you don't need to worry about me.
yes i am still at 15mg. what's a 504? i'm not sure i can get it at private school. i set up a g-mail account if you really want to contact me. hisohiso.no.mi@gmail.com

[Lori Jo]

Originally Posted by COHiker

WOW! Your story sounds similar to me, but I've been on for almost four years. I tried the fast taper also and am now doing a second go round with it...
The Lex worked well for me, but I became somewhat robotic (appathetic) and I really should have been put on a short term benzo drug instead.
Yea, the weight gain and sexual side effects stink. I recently found out that although the number 10 (as in mg) sounds small, this is not true for this drug. Some MD's have the attitude of "it's ONLY 10mg, thats a small dose, just go ahead and go off" (this was an actuall quote from one doc I saw--- not twice, though)
For the insomnia and anxiety, you might want to check out 'body calm'; it is a passion flower suppliment. I did not have alot of faith in suppliments making a "real" difference (other than just being good for your overall health), but I am using Barley and omega 3 for fatigue and it really has helped.
If you go back through past postings on this sit, take some notes and go out there and research.
I would definitely do your OWN research and try some things and see what works for you.
If the anxiety is a real problem, a short term (and occasional) use of a xanax type drug may help you over the bumps.
Happy Dad recommended the book "When Panic Attacks" about cognative behavioral therapy techniques. You can also Google "The Linden method" and see what it can offer to help the panic stuff.
Most importantly, be patient, go slow, and try a variety of suppliments to see what works for you.
Good luck and keep us posted!
COHiker

Thank you for the reply!! I did start Omega-3 the day I started to taper (this Monday) but I want to add the Barley. Thanks for the sleep help suggestion! So far, so good and I seem to have a ton of energy. I am hoping that the slow tapering gets me off. I wish the doctor would have just given me something to help me turn off my brain at bedtime before putting me on the Lex.

[Julia77]

Originally Posted by erinkj

Hello, how are you doing? does the panic continue to get better? and how are your moods? Also, do you take the inosotol? and have you tried any of the anti-anxiety remedies like the bach fower? I would love any feedback on these as I am quite strapped for cash after my vacation and I really cannot afford to spend the money right now just to try something to see if it helps. Any advice?...Peace....Erin

Erin, welcome back! I am much better than I was in the beginning. I almost have no low moods and no panics whatsoever.
Check Aunty's post on the previous page on Bach's remedies. You might find info there. I tried only one of them and it did work (don't remember the name..) Well, I am much, much better, so much better than when I was on Lex. I would've never made it without this board!! It's been 7 weeks now. I just convince you to start to come off them slowly and gradually and have your life back. And I promise you will. But while you;re still on them I would suggest working on your life's attitude and change some of your life habits if you have some trends to put yourself under too much stress ( all of us do - those who ever had panics). Learn to love yourself and take good care of yourself, learn to meditate and pray and get that attitude that only things that are meant to happen will happen. This all is helping me a great deal.

Well, I am not 100% back I guess, but I still need more time I think. The only thing that's bothering me is that I am way too irritable. ( Well, the cup in the sink is not washed - disaster, LOL). I wonder if this is ever gonna vanish... hopefully it;s a w/d and not OCD. Also, my immune system is down a bit - I had a virus and now a sore throat and sinus. And I refuse to take anything but only things from Health Store, LOL.
I still take my Fish Oil and Magnesium. How are you feeling?

[auntybiotic]

Originally Posted by Julia77

Erin, welcome back! I am much better than I was in the beginning. I almost have no low moods and no panics whatsoever.
Check Aunty's post on the previous page on Bach's remedies. You might find info there. I tried only one of them and it did work (don't remember the name..) Well, I am much, much better, so much better than when I was on Lex. I would've never made it without this board!! It's been 7 weeks now. I just convince you to start to come off them slowly and gradually and have your life back. And I promise you will. But while you;re still on them I would suggest working on your life's attitude and change some of your life habits if you have some trends to put yourself under too much stress ( all of us do - those who ever had panics). Learn to love yourself and take good care of yourself, learn to meditate and pray and get that attitude that only things that are meant to happen will happen. This all is helping me a great deal.

Well, I am not 100% back I guess, but I still need more time I think. The only thing that's bothering me is that I am way too irritable. ( Well, the cup in the sink is not washed - disaster, LOL). I wonder if this is ever gonna vanish... hopefully it;s a w/d and not OCD. Also, my immune system is down a bit - I had a virus and now a sore throat and sinus. And I refuse to take anything but only things from Health Store, LOL.
I still take my Fish Oil and Magnesium. How are you feeling?

The irritalibity is due to the fact that the body is not making normal amounts of natural serotonin yet. Remember that lexapro caused serotonin receptors to die off due to not being needed because of the reuptake of the serotonin so before they regenerate, which may take a year.............you will experience moodiness and irritability.
I would suggest the bach essence impatiens to get you thru the next few months.( You will have to order this from the Vitamin Shoppe or you can buy online from a Bach Essence distributor for about $9.00.

I also think AIRBORN which is available at the drug store is a great immune booster when you feel that you are coming down with a virul, cold or flu.
More on Bach Esences for those that want to learn about them.
There is virtually no physical, chemical plant material in the essences, so there is almost no risk of allergies or adverse effects. Brandy is used in the essences as a preservative, but as a dose is only four drops, and these can be administered in warm water, the alcohol can be evaporated before the remedy is taken. For someone sensitive to brandy, the essences can be prepared in another preservative like glycerine or vinegar.
These remedies have the advantage of being completely safe. They contain little if any organic material to cause physical ill-effects. All of the energies involved are positive, and if an inappropriate remedy is chosen, the effect wears off quickly. Therefore, self prescription can do no harm, as long as serious conditions that need medical attention are not ignored. One can learn about the effects of the essences by trying them out without taking any risk. I suppose that an overdose of lovingness might induce one to do something s/he might regret later...so I advise strongly against taking more than the suggested dose of four drops at a time.

Unlike homeopathic remedies, flower essences are not effected by aromatics such as coffee or mint; they can be taken with food or any other substance and be effective. Their benefits for the emotions are not based on any sort of physical effect on the nervous system so they are non-addictive.

However, flower essences work on the emotions and spirit, and their effects can take some time to manifest on a physcial level. If one is open to change, their effect can be dramatic indeed, but if one resists the nudge they give the emotions, they may have little visible effect in the short run.
I edited this to add that I am not a DOCTOR so please research any advice read on the internet.

[auntybiotic]

I forgot to add to my last post that I am not a doctor so please research before following any advice on the internet.'
Bach Flower Essences:
EMOTIONAL GROUP

If you are feeling.....
FLOWER REMEDIES

Try one of the following ........

If You are Generally despondent or in despair..................TRY one of these
Larch, Oak, Crab Apple, Star of Bethlehem, Willow, Elm, Pine, Sweet Chestnut, Mustard

If You feel A lack of interest in the world around you ......................TRY one of these:
Olive, White Chestnut, Wild Rose, Honeysuckle, Chestnut Bud, Clematis

If yo are Fearful ..............TRY one of these:
Mimulus, Red Chestnut, Cherry Plum, Rock Rose, Aspen

If you feel Uncertainty ..............................Try one of these:
Hornbeam, Gorse, Gentian, Scleranthus, Wild Oat, Cerato

If you are feeling Over-sensitive to others .......Try one of these:
Holly, Centaury, Agrimony, Walnut

If you are feeling a Over-concern for others .......................Try one of these
Vine, Vervain, Beech, Chicory, Rock Water

If you are feeling Lonely ........try one of these:
Heather, Impatiens, Water Violet




Bach Flower Remedy



If you.....

Then Try:

Agrimony
Put on a cheerful face to hide problems; if you have mental worry or torture; attempt to forget mental torture through drugs and alcohol

Aspen
Have unexplained fears and worries; have vague fears of unknown origin (often irrational); are nervous and anxious

Beech
Are critical and intolerant of others; desire to change others; have a judgmental attitude

Centaury Have difficulty in saying no and are anxious to please; have weakness of will; are easily influenced and exploited - 'the doormat'

Cerato
Doubt your own ability to judge situations; distrust self; constantly seek advice

Cherry Plum
Fear losing control of your behavior, of the mind giving way; have thoughts of suicide

Chestnut Bud
Fail to learn from experience, repeating the same mistakes; are impatient to move ahead

Chicory
Are overly possessive and expect others to conform to your values; are full of indulgent self-love; are full of self-pity

Clematis
Daydream and generally have a lack of interest in the present; are inattentive; are unconscious; have an out-of-the-body feeling

Crab Apple
Have a poor self-image and are ashamed or embarrassed by unpleasant physical symptoms, characteristics or features; feel mentally or emotionally unclean or unacceptable; feel self- condemnation; are congested; are over-fixated on trivia - 'the great cleanser'

Elm
Are overwhelmed or burdened by responsibility; have temporary feelings of inadequacy - "I can't let them down"

Gentian
Are easily discouraged, hesitant and despondent; lack faith; are full of doubt and pessimism; are depressed from a known cause; are weak following an illness

Gorse
Feel hopelessness and despair and are pessimistic; are depressed from illness of a long-term duration - "I give up"

Heather
Feel self-absorbed; dislike being alone, and talk incessantly about self - "What about me"

Holly
Have feelings of extreme jealousy, envy and suspicion; have feelings of revenge

Honeysuckle
Absorbed in memories of the past; feel homesick or nostalgic

Hornbeam
Get the 'Monday morning' feeling, doubting your ability to face the day's work; lack strength - "I don't think I can cope"

Impatiens
Are impatient and easily irritated; have extreme mental tension; are unable to co-operate

Larch
Lack self-confidence and feel inferior; will not try because you expect to fail

Mimulus
Have a fear rooted in known causes, e.g. spiders, flying, death, etc.; are shy and timid

Mustard
Experience unexplained deep gloom and/or melancholy

Oak
Are driven by a strong sense of duty and struggle on even though exhausted; suffer the effects of the limitations of illness; despair but never give up

Olive
Feel exhausted in body and mind

Pine
Feel full of guilt and blame yourself for other people's mistakes; have feelings of self-doubt and reproach

Red Chestnut
Are over-anxious or over- concerned for others

Rescue Remedy
Are in a demanding or stressful situation

Rock Rose
Experience terror; are frozen in fear and feel helpless

Rock Water
Are inflexible, setting yourself very high standards; desire to be an example to others; are in self-denial; are repressed; are a martyr

Scleranthus
Suffer from indecision; are hesitant; feel an imbalance

Star of Bethlehem
Have experienced shock, grief or a fright

Sweet Chestnut
Are at the limits of endurance and in deep despair; have extreme mental anguish; have reached the limits of endurance (not suicidal)

Vervain
Are over-enthusiastic, argumentative with fixed principles and ideas; desire to persuade others; are incensed by injustices

Vine
Are strong-willed with a tendency to be domineering or inflexible; are too ruthless

Walnut
Fear major life changes and are in need of protection from the influences of others; the 'Link Breaker'

Water Violet
Prefer to be alone or are proud and aloof; feel others do not understand you

White Chestnut
Have unwanted thoughts, preoccupations and worries; have mental arguments - "I can't get it out of my mind"

Wild Oat
Are uncertain of the correct path in life, dissatisfied with your current lifestyle and cannot decide which path to follow

Wild Rose
Make little effort to improve situations; are resigned to whatever happens; are apathetic; do not care about anything

Willow
Are bitter, resentful and have feelings of self-pity - 'poor me'; blame others for your mistakes; are unable to forgive

Again I a m NOT a doctor

Floral essences are available from a number of sources. Some lines, however, may include plants excluded by Dr. Bach, or offer other herbal therapies prepared using the Bach method.

[ivysphotomom]

Hello there,

Nice to 'meet' you finally! I'm somewhat new here. Founds these boards in Dec. when I tried to quite lexapro, and feel into an abyss...of sorts!

That was great you posted all that info about Bach Flower Remedies. We've been using homeopathic medicines in our family for 16 years now. I've got 4 children, 16, 12, 8 and 4. They've done wonders. However, if a kid needs stitches, of course we take them to the ER! (Along with some arnica, and maybe aconite ;-)

I'm wondering if maybe you could give me some advice. Since I can't seem to find a competent psychiatrist in my insurance network, who is willing to only do med management. (I'm seeing a really good psychologist who is using EMDR with me, who I don't want to stop seeing.)

About a year and a half ago, I started getting anxiety before photographing weddings. I've done it for 4 years, so it was unexpected. My GP gave me some Buspar and Xanax. I only used the xanax occasionally. Started seeing a holistic therapist, exercising, breathing, etc. Was slowly getting better.

Then, my best friend of my entire adult life died unexpectedly on Aug. 1. I had an emotional break down. My GP puts me on 20mg (yeah, 20) of lexapro. I did that for 3 days. Was wired. Cut down to 15mg for a month. Didn't like how it was messing with my sleep, etc. Cut down to 10mg, which I did for about 3 months. Then cut down to 5mg, which I did for 3 days, then quit. I've learned here, I basically went 'cold turkey' So around the end of Dec., I started back on 5mg. I'm feeling w/d symptoms the last month or two. Is it because I need to be on a dose closer to the 10mg I was on for the longest? I certainly want to eventually get off this drug.

I'm finding I need to take one or two whole .25 xanax a day. They really seem to help. I'd like to take more, but don't want to become addicted.

The last psychiatrist I saw, said to try maybe Buspar, or Remeron. I took Buspar for maybe 2 days. Didn't notice anything. I know both of these take weeks, but I am skeptical, and nervous, about introducing other drugs.

I read above, you recommended the Remeron to someone. I also have adrenal insufficiency. I'm not sure if starting a SNRI would be helpful, or the opposite. I also have Hashimotos Thyroiditis, and think I may also have fibromyalgia (which is the least of my worries or concerns.)

I feel like I'm sliding back into a funk, where it takes me most of the day to feel like I'm NOT living in a nightmare.

Oh, finding out about possibly having the fibro. was a relief, as I read it could explain being tired all the time (not being able to go into deep sleep), and also the IBS I've had off and on for years.

I'm taking fish oils. And also Sweet Chestnut, and Rescue Remedy.

Any advice you could offer would be great.

Oh, my first psych. wanted me to switch to Effexor, around the time I cut down to 5mg. I read about how hard it is to get off that one, and said, no way!

Thanks again for any advice,

~Mary

[auntybiotic]

Originally Posted by ivysphotomom

Hello there,

Nice to 'meet' you finally! I'm somewhat new here. Founds these boards in Dec. when I tried to quite lexapro, and feel into an abyss...of sorts!

That was great you posted all that info about Bach Flower Remedies. We've been using homeopathic medicines in our family for 16 years now. I've got 4 children, 16, 12, 8 and 4. They've done wonders. However, if a kid needs stitches, of course we take them to the ER! (Along with some arnica, and maybe aconite ;-)

I'm wondering if maybe you could give me some advice. Since I can't seem to find a competent psychiatrist in my insurance network, who is willing to only do med management. (I'm seeing a really good psychologist who is using EMDR with me, who I don't want to stop seeing.)

About a year and a half ago, I started getting anxiety before photographing weddings. I've done it for 4 years, so it was unexpected. My GP gave me some Buspar and Xanax. I only used the xanax occasionally. Started seeing a holistic therapist, exercising, breathing, etc. Was slowly getting better.

Then, my best friend of my entire adult life died unexpectedly on Aug. 1. I had an emotional break down. My GP puts me on 20mg (yeah, 20) of lexapro. I did that for 3 days. Was wired. Cut down to 15mg for a month. Didn't like how it was messing with my sleep, etc. Cut down to 10mg, which I did for about 3 months. Then cut down to 5mg, which I did for 3 days, then quit. I've learned here, I basically went 'cold turkey' So around the end of Dec., I started back on 5mg. I'm feeling w/d symptoms the last month or two. Is it because I need to be on a dose closer to the 10mg I was on for the longest? I certainly want to eventually get off this drug.

I'm finding I need to take one or two whole .25 xanax a day. They really seem to help. I'd like to take more, but don't want to become addicted.

The last psychiatrist I saw, said to try maybe Buspar, or Remeron. I took Buspar for maybe 2 days. Didn't notice anything. I know both of these take weeks, but I am skeptical, and nervous, about introducing other drugs.

I read above, you recommended the Remeron to someone. I also have adrenal insufficiency. I'm not sure if starting a SNRI would be helpful, or the opposite. I also have Hashimotos Thyroiditis, and think I may also have fibromyalgia (which is the least of my worries or concerns.)

I feel like I'm sliding back into a funk, where it takes me most of the day to feel like I'm NOT living in a nightmare.

Oh, finding out about possibly having the fibro. was a relief, as I read it could explain being tired all the time (not being able to go into deep sleep), and also the IBS I've had off and on for years.

I'm taking fish oils. And also Sweet Chestnut, and Rescue Remedy.

Any advice you could offer would be great.

Oh, my first psych. wanted me to switch to Effexor, around the time I cut down to 5mg. I read about how hard it is to get off that one, and said, no way!

Thanks again for any advice,

~Mary

I am not a doctor but I can tell you what I would do for myself if I were in a similiar situation. You are currently on 5 Mg lexapro (not sure about any Buspar?) and you are getting depersonalization as a major withdrawal symptom? How long have you been back on 5 Mg trying to stabalize? How long were you off lexapro comlpetely, less then 6 weeks?

If it has been more then two weeks since you reinstated at 5 Mg and you do not feel "much better", then I would think the lexapro dose may not be enough to take you out of the withdrawals. If I were in your situation I would go up to 7.5 or 8 Mg of lexapro, if you have the liquid and are able to measure out the dose pricesly, this would be good.

I would wait two weeks and see if I felt stable on 7.5 mg, if not then 10 Mg may be the dose that will help. Once stable, I pesornally would reduce the lexapro by 5% of the current dose and wait two to three weeks inbetween reductions to feel stable. Reducing quicker only is harder on your body.

I know that Noni juice has worked well for many with depersonalization. Also eating a hanful of walnuts about a hour before bedtime.... will help with blood sugar levels and enable one to sleep better. Many withdrawls are cause by a lack of REM (deep) sleep. SSRI's increase cortisol levels which interefere with the natural sleep cycle especially the deep REM sleep. I feel Lexapro can also cause gallstones or pancreatitis so those with cramping and stomach pain keep this in mind.

I am NOT a doctor so please check with the doctor you are seeing before following any advice. Xanax is definately addictive, even at low doses so try not to take it EVERY DAY!
Have you tried passionflower for anxiety?

Have you had 24 hour cortisol testing done by your physician. Lexapro doubles the cortisol rate and causes a excess of adrenaline, especially at night when the corisol level should be low...this will cause adrenal fatigue and burnout. If you can get your cortisol levels evened out you would feel much better.

Many withdrawls from lexapro are not the chemical staying in your system but the changes lexapro has caused to your hormones, neurotransmitters and adrenal glands...............these trying to regulate are many of the "horrible lexapro withdrawls" that are felt. Changes made by lexapro in the body can take 12 to 18 months to get back to normal.

I am not giving any medical advice only sharing what I have learned so please run any suggestions you may want to follow by a doctor.
aunty

[auntybiotic]

Lexapro use messes with the hormones and can actually feel like a women has gone into early menopause while the body is healing after weaning off of lexapro. Lexapro use, in my opinion, causes adrenal fatigue. Read more about adrenal fatigue.
Adrenal fatigue — the effects of stress and high cortisol levels
by Marcy Holmes, Women’s Health NP, Certified Menopause Clinician

Here are the topics covered in this article:

The role of healthy adrenal glands
How chronic stress causes adrenal exhaustion
The effects of adrenal fatigue — cortisol and DHEA
Should you have your adrenals tested?
Restoring adrenal health naturally
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Every woman who comes to our clinic with these symptoms gets an adrenal fatigue test, which consists of a series of tests of cortisol levels. And the results — in over thousands of cases — are remarkably consistent: only 1% have cortisol levels indicating healthy adrenal function, while 99% suffer impaired function, ranging from significant adrenal stress to complete adrenal exhaustion.

The effects of adrenal dysfunction can be profound: fatigue and weakness, suppression of the immune system, muscle and bone loss, moodiness or depression, hormonal imbalance, skin problems, autoimmune disorders, and dozens of other symptoms.

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The destructive effect of high cortisol levels

What is cortisol? In its normal function, cortisol helps us meet these challenges by converting proteins into energy, releasing glycogen and counteracting inflammation. For a short time, that’s okay. But at sustained high levels, cortisol gradually tears your body down.

Sustained high cortisol levels destroy healthy muscle and bone, slow down healing and normal cell regeneration, co-opt biochemicals needed to make other vital hormones, impair digestion, metabolism and mental function, interfere with healthy endocrine function; and weaken your immune system.

Adrenal fatigue may be a factor in many related conditions, including fibromyalgia, hypothyroidism, chronic fatigue syndrome, arthritis, premature menopause and others. It may also produce a host of other unpleasant symptoms, from acne to hair loss. (Please click here to see a list of adrenal fatigue symptoms and related conditions.)

The loss of DHEA production
When the adrenals are chronically overworked and straining to maintain high cortisol levels, they lose the capacity to produce DHEA in sufficient amounts. DHEA (the full name is dehydroepiandrosterone) is a precursor hormone to estrogen, progesterone, and testosterone, and is necessary to moderate the balance of hormones in your body. Insufficient DHEA contributes to fatigue, bone loss, loss of muscle mass, depression, aching joints, decreased sex drive, and impaired immune function. (For more information, read our article on DHEA.)

Testing for adrenal fatigue
Conventional medicine is truly wonderful at treating disease-state conditions. Unfortunately its focus on drugs also tends to suppress early-stage symptoms rather than treat their underlying causes. This can have the effect of delaying treatment until a disease state has developed. This is true in the case of adrenal fatigue cortisol testing. In the conventional standard of care, any cortisol level within a very broad range is considered normal, and anything outside that range indicates disease.

In our practice, we measure cortisol levels at several points in the day to track the adrenals’ day–night pattern (called the “diurnal rhythm”) using a panel of simple saliva tests. We hope to see cortisol elevated in the morning to help you get going, lower but steady throughout the day to sustain energy, then fall in the evening to support restful sleep.

In the early stages of adrenal dysfunction, cortisol levels are too high during the day and continue rising in the evening. This is called “hyperadrenia.” In the middle stages, cortisol may rise and fall unevenly as the body struggles to balance itself despite the disruptions of caffeine, carbs and other factors, but levels are not normal and are typically too high at night. In advanced stages, when the adrenals are exhausted from overwork, cortisol will never reach normal levels (“hypoadrenia”).

Conventional medicine will detect only the extremes of these conditions, when damage to the adrenals has already occurred (Cushing’s disease and Addison’s disease). Within those extremes, you can feel miserable and still be told your cortisol levels are normal. But by responding to early-stage symptoms of adrenal fatigue, we can reverse the developing dysfunction.

Should you get an adrenal test?

In general, if you feel happy and well, have steady energy and emotions, sleep soundly seven to nine hours a night, wake up feeling rested, recover well from stress, and maintain a healthy weight without dieting, then your adrenals are probably doing well.

On the other hand, if your energy lags during the day, you feel emotionally unbalanced much of the time, you sleep poorly or less than seven hours a night, can’t lose excess weight even while dieting, use caffeine or carbohydrates as “pick-me-ups” — these are all red flags indicating adrenal insufficiency.

Natural adrenal support — how to restore healthy adrenal function
The first step is to have a full physical exam to rule out disease or other factors. In our experience, women with mild to moderate cases of adrenal fatigue can see significant improvement through these steps:

Dietary changes to enrich your nutrition and reduce carbohydrates and stimulants. We also recommend the addition of high-quality nutritional supplements, including essential fatty acids from fish oil.
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Get more rest. Your body needs time to heal.
Women with more severe symptoms, or those who have reached complete adrenal exhaustion, usually need greater intervention.

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In all but the most extreme cases, we expect to see dramatic improvement within about four months. For mild to moderate adrenal fatigue the turnaround can be much faster. Remember, you may feel too tired to make changes now, but by moving forward in stages, you’ll build the strength you need to stay with it. You will love how you feel when you do!

Hi everyone...
I have just joined this forum and am so desperate for any kind of help. I took lexapro for 7 days and this has been the worst experience of my life. I have been completely off for 3 weeks and there is no improvement in symptoms. Before the drug I was extremely active and in school with a job. Now I can't get off of the couch. Within hours of taking it I was extremely agitated and felt like I had no control. I cannot sleep at all or concentrate on anything. I have no short term memory. Zero appetite and am losing weight at an alarming rate. I just don't care about anything or anyone. I feel totally zoned out and emotionless. I have never had suicidal thoughts in the past but now they are constant because I just feel like there is no way out... I have been to the ER multiple times and it is always the same blood tests and then out the door. The doctors, my friends, and family all say that these side effects are impossible and I need to just get over it. I wish I had never taken this drug. I am losing everything and the scariest part is I feel totally emotionless about it.
Is there any light at the end of the tunnel? It seems like it takes months and even years to recover. Does anyone fully recover? I feel like I have done long term irreversible damage to my brain. It is difficult to even concentrate on typing this. Thank you for any input and I wish you all the best.

[auntybiotic]

Originally Posted by Johnnyfriday

Hi everyone...
I have just joined this forum and am so desperate for any kind of help. I took lexapro for 7 days and this has been the worst experience of my life. I have been completely off for 3 weeks and there is no improvement in symptoms. Before the drug I was extremely active and in school with a job. Now I can't get off of the couch. Within hours of taking it I was extremely agitated and felt like I had no control. I cannot sleep at all or concentrate on anything. I have no short term memory. Zero appetite and am losing weight at an alarming rate. I just don't care about anything or anyone. I feel totally zoned out and emotionless. I have never had suicidal thoughts in the past but now they are constant because I just feel like there is no way out... I have been to the ER multiple times and it is always the same blood tests and then out the door. The doctors, my friends, and family all say that these side effects are impossible and I need to just get over it. I wish I had never taken this drug. I am losing everything and the scariest part is I feel totally emotionless about it.
Is there any light at the end of the tunnel? It seems like it takes months and even years to recover. Does anyone fully recover? I feel like I have done long term irreversible damage to my brain. It is difficult to even concentrate on typing this. Thank you for any input and I wish you all the best.

Welcome,

Unfortunately you had a severe adverse reaction to lexapro and I am sure yoou are a slow metabolizer. Look back at Miss Lee she was in the same situation, took it for a few days. There were several that took only one or two and had a long recovery.

The good thing is that you regognized this and stopped the drug, In time you will get better but no onecan say how long it may take, Supplements may help you heal but be wary of ever taking another SSRI EVER AGAIN!!!

Good Luck. We are all here for support.
aunty

[Unbelievable]

I went from 10 mg to 5 mg. It's been an incredibly stressful workweek for me. Plus other situations (car wreck and other stuff). However...I have noticed a marked improvement in my energy level. My coworkers have noticed it. I had been fatiuged beyond belief for over 1 year (thought I might have chronic fatigue syndrome because my blood tests were normal).

I feel more energetic and though I've been too busy at work to exercise more than 2 to 3 times/week, I am no longer gaining. That makes me happy. Normally, lack of exercise = immediate gain. I am stable there. Also, I had to give 2 presentations which normally sets off panic but I was okay. No brain zaps or physical effects (so far).

I am going to cut down to 2.5. I know that's not recommended. I want this drug OUT of my body. I'll try 2.5 and if I get side effects, I will increase.

I am really excited to feel better. I am feeling positive about this while knowing I may go through really bad times. I am ready. I'll probably revisit this post when I feel ********************py in 2 weeks.

Anyway, thanks to everyone who posts here about weaning. Everyone I know (and I speak to people I know now about this) quit cold turkey and went through hell. I am pleased so far and glad I found this site.

Editing this to add: I have been more emotional lately. Not in a bad way. I get touched more easily. I feel ..well.. feelings more. I've cried tears of joy/emotion/just feeling. That is not normal for me in the last 1.4 years on Lex unless I had PMS. I feel grateful to feel emotion.

[Julia77]

You will recover from this, believe it or not. Also, check ElizabethMarie's posts. And keep reading this thread. THere isn't even one person who does not recover!!! Keep your chin up, you're suffering a bad reaction....

What was the original reason you were put on this medication? Which dose did you take?

[Julia77]

Hello Aunty,

Thanks so much for detailed info on Bach remedies... I will check them out for me. I only tried Rescue in the past, and don't remember how it worked on me.

It is SO reassuring to know that even nervousness can last for a year! How is your daughter feeling by the way?

And something else - heart palps are still here. Yeah. ( I know those are still w/d, but it's kind of a bit scary). Sometimes it beats like it's too happy to be alive

MAny of my symptoms were induced by Lexapro, and we treated nothing but side effects of this medication:
-I am no longer claustrophobic
-No scary thoughts of losing control any more
-no panics
-not scared to speak in public
-back again to loving rain and nights ( was getting upset at nights while on Lex!)
-can stand hunger for longer periods of time
-can stand stress like I used to

By the way, about hunger. I still get a little shaky and foggy if I don't eat . I now assume it's adrenalin defficiency or something induced by Lex. I used to open bags in the store while in lines and munch on something because I was scared I would faint there, and my hands sometimes were too shaky to open my purse... It's going away slowly, but not completely.

It's good to know again I am still going to take up to a year to recover.

Lost more weight and lost my cravings of carbs. Can drink some alcohol now

[futurama91]

QUOTE=COHiker;197576]Your post made me smile (local house of herbs? sounds like someplace that Furturama's mother would shop)
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heehee. My mom's the lady that bakes the cookies they sell at the house of herbs.

Please, continue.

(And keep in mind that I'm in CA, so they're legal-ish. :-))

All joking aside, my mom was taking prozac for a while, hated it, quit cold turkey, and now has a prescription for said herb. She says it works for her depression and her TMJ (A problem with her jaw that she didn't have until she took prozac.).

I am not a fan of treating every illness with herb, but it sure seems less dangerous than lexapro.

[futurama91]

I have never been a smoker or a drinker. Lately, I am having cravings for tobacco. Now, I am definitely not going to act on them, but I really, really am craving tobacco. I usually find cigarettes repulsive and I don't allow them in my house. Could this have anything to do with the lexapro?

To a lesser extent I am craving alcohol, which I absolutely can't have, because of my seizure meds. Please tell me I'm not nuts.

[ivysphotomom]

Thanks so much for your reply.

To answer your questions, I am not taking any Buspar. It's just something my GP prescribed to me a year ago, before my friend died, and a recent psychiatrist suggested, a couple of months ago, when I was in lex w/d. I only took one or two a couple of months ago.

Depersonalization actually has been a symptom, though I don't think I mentioned that. My main problem, has been sleep. I just slept 9 hours, and feel so tired, even with the sun out at 1:30 in the afternoon, I could crash for another 4 hours!!! NOT a good combination with 4 kids and a business!!! Also, shakiness.

I NEVER had any of these symptoms before taking lexapro. I started on 20mg, at the advice of my GP in mid-Aug, did that for 3 days. Then dropped to 15mg for a month. Then was on 10mg for 3 months, then dropped to 5mg for 3 days in December, then stopped, cold turkey. I'd say I was off for about 4 weeks. When I reinstated the lex, I think it was New Year's Eve, I did it at 5mg. That's what I've been on for almost 3 months. At first, I felt better for a week or two. Then the w/d stuff started again!!! Talk about being caught in a catch 22! Wanting off this stuff, but needing more perhaps, before tapering! Is that common? My instincts, advice from a friend, and these boards, told me to go back on at least 5mg. Now my instincts are telling me that I probably need to be back closer to where I was for 3-4 months. Then I decided to ask here as well...

I haven't heard of Noni juice. I'm sure Whole Foods would have it.

And yes, my shakiness and tiredness is like a blood sugar crash times 10!!!

With diagnosed adrenal insufficiency, I have been really wondering what the heck is going on. Maybe that's why lex has helped some people, but not all? The last time I had my adrenals checked (and only time) was with the ACTH challenge test. Where they check your blood, then administer ACTH, then an hour later check it again. At least I think that's how it was done. It was many years ago. Anyhow, I remember seeing the chart of my results. I don't have full blown Addison's, but the line was WAY at the bottom. Barely registering.

Now, after my best friend's death, one more child added, since that test, and running my own business, I can't imagine my adrenals have gotten any better!

Last night, I had to deal with a disrespectful 12 yr old son, while my husband sat there, blissfully unaware of what was going on, while he watched some all important college basketball game!!! Then, he turns his attention to me, who had just worked from 12pm to 10pm at my photography studio, and was just trying to relax on the couch with my younger children, and he blamed me for 'trying to pick a fight' with my son, in front of the other kids!!! I was NOT happy about this turn of events. As I've always got to play 'bad cop', because my husband tends to zone out on the details of what the kids are doing. If I had let my son off the hook, for his comments, I'd have zero respect from him. But my husband all of a sudden became 'one of the kids'. Needless to say, it was not a fun 20 minutes, while I tried to deal with my son, and husband, and explain to all of them exactly where I was coming from, and what was going on!!!

And this is after my psychic astrologer said to me on Tuesday, that the crux of my problems, of the prolonged anxiety, etc., is the fact that my mother was totally absent my entire childhood, (not to mention committed suicide in a violent way 17 yrs ago) and I have issues with self worth. And until I address that, all these other things won't resolve.

So here I am, struggling to function, get up each day, in a house that's a pig pen, partly because I've got 4 kids who don't do any cleaning up, and partly because my husband and I are overwhelmed with 1.5 jobs each (he's a journalist full time, and teaches a college class).....everything often feels like it's slipping downhill.

Last night, I sat up late and just cried and cried about my best friend of 24 yrs who died suddenly in August, at age 59, of a sudden heart attack. He was not only my best friend, and mentor, and confidante, he was like a father and mother, as he was the one who gave me all of my emotional support, understanding, and unconditional appreciation my entire adult life. He was my rock of support for my entire adult life. Then my husband pulls this ******************** on me, when all I'm trying to do is be a good mom.

Now you can see where a .25 xanax comes in handy!!! Sorry, I'm going off on a tangent. But I'm feeling really lonely in all of this...

I believe I have something with passion flower in it in my cupboard at my studio. But all the 'natural' things I tried didn't seem to make much of a dent in the extreme grief and anxiety I've been experiencing, after my friend's death, and then esp. after starting the lex.

Anyhow, that's it for now. My kids have been waiting for me to make them some lunch. Then I've got probably about 6 hrs of work. I haven't been caught up with my photography work, in over 3 years!!! I'm almost caught up, thanks to hiring a studio assistant last summer. But it's been a constant struggle, trying to keep all my clients happy, and family. And with problems of self worth, I've been depending on all of their approval, to feel good. I'm stubborn, somewhat, and very strong in some ways. It's not that I don't have self esteem. It's just that what's been pointed out is that there is some real emotional trauma/grief to deal with. And until I get through all of that, I may not be able to get back to my 'normal' self. I am seeing a psychologist who is using EMDR, and I think that is helping. But in the meantime, this medicine (lexapro) is wreaking havoc on me!

Also, possibly having fibromyalgia (I see my GP on Tues. for the first time in months), I've read, can cause 'alpha wave sleep interruption'. So on top of the lex messing with my sleep, and worn out adrenals, I may have this going on as well! And a tendency toward IBS, which is made worse by lack of sleep, anxiety, and lexapro! AAAAAHHHHHhhhhh!!!

thanks for listening,

~Mary

[8monthslater]

After taking Prednisone for 10 days for a chronic sinus infection along with Augmentin XR for 20 days ( I am still on the Augmentin) the humming in my bad left ear came back last night while I was sleeping. It woke me up and I had trouble the rest of the night. I went almost 3 weeks without hearing it. My ears both feel as if there is a lot of fluid shifting around deep inside, but no doctor can see it. This is so frustrating.

On the other hand, I keep trying to convince myself that I keep getting longer and longer stretches where I don't hear it. And maybe it is just part of w/d for me and it will go away eventually. Gotta have hope.

Oh, I did start my period last night also. Do you think it could somehow related to hormonal shifts?

[erinkj]

Originally Posted by 8monthslater

After taking Prednisone for 10 days for a chronic sinus infection along with Augmentin XR for 20 days ( I am still on the Augmentin) the humming in my bad left ear came back last night while I was sleeping. It woke me up and I had trouble the rest of the night. I went almost 3 weeks without hearing it. My ears both feel as if there is a lot of fluid shifting around deep inside, but no doctor can see it. This is so frustrating.

On the other hand, I keep trying to convince myself that I keep getting longer and longer stretches where I don't hear it. And maybe it is just part of w/d for me and it will go away eventually. Gotta have hope.

Oh, I did start my period last night also. Do you think it could somehow related to hormonal shifts?

Well, I have heard of stranger things being caused by hormonal fluctuations so, I think it is possable. My hand's and feet get so hot that they feel as if they will burst into flames (hormonal) They are HOT to the touch yet, I never have a fever and it is only heat in my hand's and feet. My husband thinks he will wake up one day to find a smoldering pile of ashes next to him cause I will "spontaneously combust". YEP, hormones are freaky!!!

[erinkj]

Originally Posted by futurama91

I have never been a smoker or a drinker. Lately, I am having cravings for tobacco. Now, I am definitely not going to act on them, but I really, really am craving tobacco. I usually find cigarettes repulsive and I don't allow them in my house. Could this have anything to do with the lexapro?

To a lesser extent I am craving alcohol, which I absolutely can't have, because of my seizure meds. Please tell me I'm not nuts.

You are not the first "non-smoker" to get those cravings. I know of a few others who also had that while on lex. I am a smoker. My cravings for nicotine have gotten much stronger since I started on lex and I now smoke almost double what I smoked pre-lex!.....Erin

[erinkj]

Originally Posted by Julia77

Erin, welcome back! I am much better than I was in the beginning. I almost have no low moods and no panics whatsoever.
Check Aunty's post on the previous page on Bach's remedies. You might find info there. I tried only one of them and it did work (don't remember the name..) Well, I am much, much better, so much better than when I was on Lex. I would've never made it without this board!! It's been 7 weeks now. I just convince you to start to come off them slowly and gradually and have your life back. And I promise you will. But while you;re still on them I would suggest working on your life's attitude and change some of your life habits if you have some trends to put yourself under too much stress ( all of us do - those who ever had panics). Learn to love yourself and take good care of yourself, learn to meditate and pray and get that attitude that only things that are meant to happen will happen. This all is helping me a great deal.

Well, I am not 100% back I guess, but I still need more time I think. The only thing that's bothering me is that I am way too irritable. ( Well, the cup in the sink is not washed - disaster, LOL). I wonder if this is ever gonna vanish... hopefully it;s a w/d and not OCD. Also, my immune system is down a bit - I had a virus and now a sore throat and sinus. And I refuse to take anything but only things from Health Store, LOL.
I still take my Fish Oil and Magnesium. How are you feeling?

I am feeling O.K but, a bit overwhelmed with school work lately. I have 5 weeks until finals, several papers to write and artwork to catch up on so; to say I am busy is an understatement! Trying to focus on my studies has been difficult as I have "spring fever" and thoughts of sunshine and gardening keep intruding. All that warm weather and sunshine I got on vacation did me a world of good. I cannot bring myself to put my sandals away . I am still at 30 mg of celexa (= to 15mg lex) and I never did re-instate to my full original dose which was 20 mgs while on lex and 40 mgs when on celexa. I have been at this dose for almost 2 months. (I think) I have decreased my xanax from 4 pills daily to 2 a day so, that is progress. I am also only drinking 1 to 2 cups of coffee a day which helps. My creativity is back but I still wrestle with motivation. I have more energy than I did but, that still comes and goes as do the emotions. ( those moments when I "FEEL" ) I know all this will improve as I taper and heal. I don't know if I am getting absent minded or am just busy but, I have been forgetting to take my supplements regularly since my vacation and, I deffinately feel the difference after a few days of missing them. I call those time's my "DUH" moments! The more sunshine we get, the better I feel as I get outside more and that helps ALOT. I will begin my taper on April 1st. It may be silly but, I am going to start reducing by only 1 mg for the first couple of reductions and see how that goes. I will keep you posted. I am glad that you continue to do well off of lex. Some of your irritability may be a dip in blood sugar. Try to eat small meals or a healthy snack every 2 hours and see if that helps. I am famous for skipping meals and I get realy cranky when I don't eat. Time to get my nose back to the grindstone ERGH. Catch ya later...Erin

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It is good to see you active on the boards again. I hope life is treating you well. I have a question for you. Should I start taking the inosotol now while I am still on celexa? or wait until I am off?
Here is what I take: 30 mg celexa (citalopram)
fish oils, morning + night
multi-vitamin
Lecethin, morning + night
Xanax, morning + night

I know I should be supplementing calcium and I am slowly incorporating it as it tends to upset my stomache.
Any other recomendations? Thanks in advance...God Bless...Erin

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I am down 7 lbs. since weaning. I haven't changed my exercise patterns. I have been eating less and stressed out at work. Just pondering on this weight loss and thinking the gain must have been attributable to the Lex.

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I just read the last few posts....

Welcome back Erin! Wow, sunshine. I'm jealous. (Kind of! Since being on lexapro, I actually prefer cloudy days to sunny ones! Since I live in Pgh., luckily that's what we get most of! Right now, is snowing!!!)

I forget who posted about craving cigarettes and alcohol, but one of the reasons I wanted to quit lexapro, is because it allowed me to drink lots of alcohol, and 'not feel it'! NOT good! I generally have some wine or beer each night, but noticed a big difference when I was on lex.

Two days ago, after suffering from w/d symptoms the past month, after reinstating 5mg about 3 months ago (I had been on 10mg for 3 months, before quitting cold turkey in Dec.), I allowed myself to take 10mg again. We'll see how that goes...

I'm trying to keep my xanax down to half or a whole .25mg a day. (The most I ever took was two .25 in a day.)

It's been reassuring to know that others have also had the incredible shakiness while on and off lex. That's been really bothersome. Also, needing so much sleep, or only 'half sleeping' has been a real drag.

I guess I could have gone up to 7.5 mg, but I have 20mg pills, and it's hard to break them into 1/8s! I have a script for 5mg pills, but it's $30/month for a bottle, no matter what the strength, even WITH insurance, and I'm too cheap to have two bottles going at once!

I ate a cheese stick yesterday afternoon, after not eating all day (bad, I know) and dealing with a cranky pre-schooler, work and bills....I was about to loose it. Instead of a half a xanax, I ate. And it seemed to have made a difference! I can so relate to the 'duh' moments Erin! I also have slipped on taking my multi's. If I need to get up early, I take one before bed. The B's help me to wake up! But I always take my fish oils at night. Lately, two servings.

I've been asking this off and on, but does anyone here have any advice on either Buspar, or Effexor? With my adrenal problems, would Effexor help or hurt? I am NOT getting relief from anxiety being on Lexapro. Only Xanax seems to help with that, and I DON'T want to get addicted to that!!!

I just wonder if I should taper, and add something else??? Is that crazy???

I wake up most mornings, feeling anxious in the pit of my stomach. I'm seeing a psychologist using EMDR. It's helping a bit. But my thought patterns are so stuck, in a negative rut! I dread everything, except for relaxing with my kids!

Today, after waking, I was reading a book, "This is Not the Life I Ordered." And after one chapter, it said to buy a beautiful journal, and on the first page, write down 3 things you dream of doing or happening in your future. The really sad thing was, I realized, I don't have any dreams for the future! Other than my kids growing up healthy and happy, of course! I am so caught up in surviving each day, that I haven't allowed myself to think about the future! Each day, I work hard to fulfill the needs and demands of my clients (I'm a photographer) and my 4 kids!

I haven't picked up my knitting in months. Too much to do. I don't really do anything fun for myself. I've tried, but don't enjoy things as much as I used to. That sounds like clinical depression to me! Oh well. And I used to be a glass half full person!

Intellectually, I know and trust things will get better. But emotionally, the chemicals in my body have me stuck in a rut.

Thanks for being there everyone.

~Mary