[prueg123]

Hey guys - been reading the stories on here and thought i'd tell mine...
started lexapro about 4 months ago. took 10mg initially. depression lessened pretty significantly and although i had less anxiety it was still there. after a month i really started to dip so upped the dosage to 20mg and have been on that for about three months. in that time my depression and anxiety have pretty much returned to where they were before i started taking the meds. i do have 'zaps' of happiness or when my anxiety lessens but this is literally for 30 seconds or less then it slumps again.

i was reading an article on here where someone was saying how they felt very numb and this is what i think the lexapro is doing and i agree - i can't feel anything very strongly

my anxiety is so bad now - i can't believe i still shake and sweat and convulse over the tiniest of things it's so debilitating i hate leaving the house it's the only place i don't have to worry i want to go back to my doctor but i really don't think he believes me or at least thinks i'm exaggerating. i get anxiety in very select circumstances - a doctors office is not one of them because i trust a doctor - so its hard for them to see it i guess as i'm more together there.

have had 6 months of therapy and i'm pretty sure i'm impervious to it. i have mastered the art of telling the therapist what she wanted to hear. i'm pretty happy to live with the depression (have done so already for 10 years or so) but its the anxiety that i hate, my friends took me aside the other day and said "are you on drugs? you're so out of it and you're always shaking and trembling" - totally humilitating

what a rant!! but it feels good to vent. thanks for reading.