Hi Robert- hope all is fine-thanks again for your help and encouragement. I am now down to under 5mg of methadone/day. It seems really tough on my mind- not that I crave the drug-just hate the physical and mental mood suff more than I can say. Please tell me (only if it is true, of course) that my brain and the dark, depression will go away when the drug does- I have a hard time convincing myself that so little of a drug can make your mind so sad. Sorry if I sound like a whiner, but it is very lonely here, and encouragement is hard to come by. Hard to just not say "just give up" if I can't ever feel happy again. Thanks again-I will welcome any encouragement from anyone right now-hate being alone.