[thebro]

A FRIEND GAVE ME KADIAN 50 MG FOR MY BACK PAIN. I HAVE RUPTURED 1 DISC +1 HERNIATED DISC I USED TO TAKE, MS CONTON 3 TIMES A DAY 30MG PER DRS. ORDERS ACTUALLY HIS P.A. MY BACK DOCTOR CUT ME OFF COLD TURKEY 2 YEARS AGO AFTER 4 MONTHS ON IT. SINCE THEN I GET HYDROCODONE 4X10 MG OR OXYCODONE 2X 10MG PLUS 3 OR 4 SOMA OR 3 0R 4 FIORICET 3 TIMES A DAY EACH ALL OFF THE STREET. WHAT SHOULD I DO? I HAVE 5 MONTHS LEFT ON MY COBRA INS. I HAVE NOT BEEN BACK TO A DOCTOR SINCE HE (THE DR) SAID NO MORE!!! GO TO A PAIN MANAGEMENT SPECIALIST. I'M HOOKED MOST DAYS I STILL HAVE MODERATE PAIN. WHAT SHOULD I DO? I'M RUNNING OUT OF MONEY.
HOW DO I KICK IT AND THEN DEAL WITH PAIN? I'M AFRAID TO GO TO A DOCTOR, I DON'T WANT THIS FOLLOWING ME ON MY MEDICAL RECORDS. FOR 1 YEAR I WAS BUYING METHADONE OR METHADOSE, OFF THE STREET TILL I COULD NOT WORK ANY MORE. I STOPPED THAT AFTER 6 M0S, BUT I COULD WORK WITH THEM, I WAS A BAGGAGE HANDLER. WHAT DO I DO NOW? PLEASE GIVE ME SOME ADVISE. DO I GO TO A DOCTOR WHILE I STILL HAVE COBRA INSURANCE AND TELL HIM THE TRUTH? WILL IT GO INTO MY PERMANENT MEDICAL RECORDS THAT I'M A DRUG ABUSER/ADDICT? I ALSO TAKE 2 10MG XANAX AT NIGHT TO SLEEP, IT USED TO BE 1 5MG PRESCRIBED BY A DR. THAT I DON'T LIKE AT ALL, THEN OFF THE STREET 1 10MG, THEN 2 10MG MY TOLERANCE KEEPS INCREASING TO GET THE SAME EFFECT. I ALSO TAKE A WHITE CLONOPIN WHEN I CAN GET THEM TO TAKE AWAY THAT NERVOUS FELLING I SOMETIMES GET FROM THE CODONES. I AM VERY DEPRESSED, I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE AS I KNEW IT IS OVER. WHAT OPTIONS DO I HAVE? I’LL BE 50 IN 1 WEEK. I’LL NEVER PASS A DRUG TEST AT MOST JOBS HERE IN TOWN. THIS CITY IS VERY STRICT ON THIS ISSUE. PLEASE HELP ME? I'M FEELING LIKE MY LIFE IS OVER AT 50! DIVORCED 15 MONTHS AGO FROM A LIFE LONG DRUG ADDICT. ALL ALONE AND SCARED TO EVEN GO OUTSIDE ANYMORE. I HAVE A 21 YEAR OLD WHO USED TO IDOLIZE ME, NO MORE. I NEVER EVER DRINK MOM WAS AN ALCOHOLIC, BUT THEY'RE ALL DRUGS ANYWAY. CAN YOU ANSWER ALL THESE QUESTIONS FOR ME? THANK YOU