[onge76]

I've been on Viconin and percocet for a solid two years now. For about the first year I bought 10 - 15 Vics 5/500 to 7.5/750 or perks 5/325 to 10/325mg and that would last me a week. I'm the type that loves to mix alchol with my pills. So I would be feeling real good. Now things are different. I'm so amuned them I have to take at least 10 a day to get the same affect. The pills were so easy to get when I first started but now they are so hard to come by. So here is the problem I'm facing. For awhile I've been wanting to quit so bad because as we all know pain killers are addicting, deadly, expensive and also very bad for your liver exspeciallly if you mix with alcohol. Right now I'm lucky if I get some every two weeks. I'll buy 20-30 perks or vics and they will last me 4 to 5 days. I will have withdrawls like; can't sleep, cold sweat, very tired all day, get the runs really bad, and just be very moody. Well that will last about 4 to 5 days then I'll start to feel normal and better, but when that happens I'll get the phone call saying dude their avalible if you want some just let me know. It's so dam hard to say no. That's what I need help with the most. Everytime I get past the withdrawl part of it. The pills call me and I can't say no. What stresses me out is that I know my kidneys and my liver is going bad but I don't care as long as I feel good from these dam pills. I have a beautiful wife and two kids that I want to be there for a long time, but I don't see that happening if I keep spending all my money on these dam pills.

PLEASE ADVISE!

[Robert_325]

You can stop, you continue to do it. You just can't stop relapsing. That is strictly a mental issue, you haven't decided it's bad enough yet. I could suggest NA meetings, posting here when you are tempted, even asking God for help, lots of things like that. And they all work. But until you decide to do this nothing will change. It's in your corner. Hope you decide to knock this off before you get busted, fall into really bad health, ruin yourself financially or become hopelessly addicted and really have to suffer like so many others have had to do (and drag your family down with you). Notice none of the options were very positive. You have to take action first then we can help. Good luck.

[onge76]

I needed to here that from you. Your so right about everything you said. I will stop. I choose my family and freedom over this. Hopefully the withdrawls won't be so bad. I'll post a message in a week to let you know how I'm doing. Thanks again Robert!

Joe

[money_chick]

Look, ou have to decide to stop. Not because supply is out. Not because you run out of cash. Not because you can't find any more.

This is the third time I tried to quit. I'm 79 hours clean right now. I was using everyday for several years. I made a decision that no matter what, I would get through it. Period. I used to try to quit thinking, well, maybe next week Ill have just a few. But I would end up with a huge stash and go right through them.

You have the wds kicked. Now you have to fixed whats in your head.

BTW, yesterday was tough for me. And guess what? When I finally fell asleep, I got woke up by a connection.


Turned em down cold.

[onge76]

Congradulations for 79 hours clean. Your absolutly right, I need to make the decision myself to quit lnsted of having to make that decision because I have to for the reasons you listed such as; because supply is out, because you run out of cash, because you can't find any more. Thank you!

[daryl512]

ONGE76. What you need to do is in a moment of strength, call your connection and tell him you need to clean up and not to call you, but that you'll call him. Hopefully he'll respect that enough. Especially if they are so hard to come by, surely he has other people that want them.

Good luck!! You can do it!

[useyourhead]

First check your pants to make sure theyre still there. What? NUTS!!!!! YOU DO HAVE THEM RIGHT? Be a man instead of a boy and actually THINK about your family instead instead of just making reference to them.

"but I don't care as long as I feel good from these dam pills"


Listen to yourself! Could you be any more self absorbed?! Were you always a selfcentered choch?

You don't need support you need a foot up the ass or possibly a push into traffic.

[useyourhead]

Seriously tho man. This is all about you stepping up to the plate and deciding what kind of man you want to be in this life.

I did pills for a long time. E tho. Rips of it. All day every day til one night I layed in a heap shaking and crying like a baby thinking this is it man, too much. I had lost my job, blew 20 grand over a summer, subsequently had to drop out of college cuz i was too messy to sit in a class. I looked like an fing heroin junkie, pissed off everyone that was good in my life and almost ended up in jail. Plus when i tried to force eat everything tasted like poison. My whole body felt like the muscles had atrophied. Im sure small children were afraid of me. Also made my mother cry many times, I swear it added so many years to her she looks so old and tired these days.

About this time I met my now fiance, who was addicted to crystal for about 4 years. We both quit cold turkey, cut all ties with old "friends", and moved to a new town and started over. 3 years later all is good.

It's all about choice, my friend. The pills may speak loudly to you but YOU LET THEM IN

[onge76]

Please tell me more because the more I here the more I want to say the hell with it. Why do I need these day pills when I have a beautiful family. I'm suprised she has not left me yet. But to shed a little light on the subject I have had nothing since the day befor the 4th. Isn't tha progress?

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by onge76

Please tell me more because the more I here the more I want to say the hell with it. Why do I need these day pills when I have a beautiful family. I'm suprised she has not left me yet. But to shed a little light on the subject I have had nothing since the day befor the 4th. Isn't tha progress?

Not having had anything since July 3rd is great! That is at least four days clean, maybe five. Sounds good. Just stick with it this time. You are on the right track now, just don't go back this time. You have done this before and gone back, just make yourself stick this one out. Good luck.