how did I let this happen to me

[jeannielynn]

Hi Everyone ...
Im new to this but not the pills .Ive never been very good at reaching out to others for help , but this is something i dont think i can do alone . Ive be on vics and lortabs for almost 5 years.i got 180 pills from my dr. and i took them all in about a week and half. i dont how i could let this happen or why i would do this .i do know that the addiction is the hardest thing i have ever tryed to break. Im now waiting for the withdrawls to start.Im afraid.

[Jessika]

You have came to the Right Place there are tons of people that can help you with this, The addiction just sneaks up on ya and BOOM your hooked. I Personally have never had withdraws but I am here for you if you just need someone to talk to. Hang In there. I will check back Later on.

Jessi
Dmbfan32@verizon.net

[abey042000]

Hi Jennie~
There are alot of people here to help and support you, including me. I am currently on day 3 of ct so you will soon be experiencing withdraws. If you ever need me, I'm here to help u through this. Best of luck!

[jeannielynn]

thanks Jessika for your reply ,like Isaid its hard for me to ask for help. My family does not know about my problem and im not ready to tell them yet.I am so ashamed that i let this happen .I have 2 wonderful boys and i know i have let them down . they dont know why i get up-set sometimes and its not like i can just tell them "sorry boys mom is going through withdrawls today" I do suffer from a back pain. but i hate being on the pills for so long,and they dont seem to even work that well anymore so i would just rather not take them .but now im addicted, and just take them becouse i had them . Now my Dr. stopped giving them to me and i have to try to do this cold turkey.im ready to stop relying on lortab but im not sure how to handle the withdrawls. sorry about my spelling

[jeannielynn]

sorry about that i am still trying to figure out how to reply .
thanks everyone for all of you help

[cluelessNJ]

quote:Originally posted by jeannielynn

sorry about that i am still trying to figure out how to reply .
thanks everyone for all of you help

Jeannielynn~ Hang in there! It is very hard but put a positive spin on it. Instead of dreading your withdraws EMBRACE them. Remember them, keep them fresh in your mind because you never want to go thru it again! Get some comfort meds. I took alot of Immodium AD and and a sleep aid. If you want more information on comfort meds to help let me know and I can make you a good list. I will be thinking of you and praying for you! Stay strong.



Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[jeannielynn]

IM on my second day and it sucks . but i never expected it to be ajoy.i cant sleep {got the shakes } wish I could just sleep through the whole thing until its over... now i am dreaming ..hey maybe i am asleep he he.
No joke, this is the worst thing I could have done to my self .
But I read
the notes thanks for all of your support
god bless

[mpvt]

Hi, have you looked into buprnorphene (suboxone,subutex)????This drug was tailor made for your type of addiction.It will eliminate your cravings and withdrawls allowing your brain to heal and for you to get your life back in order.After five years you have physical changes in your brain that in time will revert back to it's normal self but you need to have the time free of abusing opiates.Go to www.suboxone.com and have a look.There is a doctor locator there also.....Dave

[abey042000]

Jeannielynn

How u doing woman? I was just curious. Seen u hvaent posted in awhile. Let me know where ur at!

[sparky]

Hi Jennylen..you sound similar to me...shameful...and afraid to tell your family..I have 2 boys as well....I have been him/hawing around this board for the last couple of weeks...have done some research..and am completely unwilling to do withdraw CT...so I will do suboxone at the end of this month when my kids go back to school..look into the suboxone and see if that does not sound better then this terrible way you feel...5 years is a long time to have been addicted..It has also been that long for me if not a few more years...I wish you well...and hope you find your path to be free of addiction..

[salina dawn]

IM on my second day and it sucks . but i never expected it to be ajoy.i cant sleep {got the shakes } wish I could just sleep through the whole thing until its over... now i am dreaming ..hey maybe i am asleep he he.
No joke, this is the worst thing I could have done to my self .
But I read
the notes thanks for all of your support
god bless

I'm also starting ct. How are you making out? any sickness?