[JustChillen]

I GOT my XANANXS AND AMBIEN scripts
FOR TWO WEEKS I BEEN TAKIN 8MG a day which is what im prescribed not for anxierty but isaid that cuz realy it works for my angryness..do they prescribe xananx for anger maanagement> not sure so i just said i was always paranoid which i wasnt kinda lieing i kinda am but the real plan was ggettin them to help withdrawl cuz i didnt tell my doc i was gonna stop seeing him n stop gettin scripts.. AT MOST 4-5mg AT LEAST FOR ABOUT 2 WEEKS,,WHILE USING MY SCRIPT OF 240 10/325 PERCS..AND SINCE i USUUALLLYy run out of my script early i was usin a few benzos No lethal amount but just 2 potentiate the opiates this way i wouldnt run out.

does this really work? is it true?..well this time i wana get off the percs..tonight..my withdrawls strategrys will ambien, xananx, and eating good goods,,,exeercsiisng walking slowly, gatorade...il be home so ill have blankets. for clammy skin n ac for sweats..got ps3 got hdtv..nice comfy bed n room to relaax lock on door no1 to bother me...i got a week to kill to just relax..dont need immodium so ill have accwess to a tolieet at all times..any good foods to eat? any things im missin???? i know i dont have klonopin..burt xananx will work...my main concern is sometimes one 10mg ambien dioesnt work for me to sleep and i took it like 3 times in my life...so i was thinkin about taking an ambien and a 1`mg ambien or start wit a ,.5 but the main cocnern is...i know benzos is way worse wds then opiates..noww since i only been on the xanax like i said i had above some days 8mg a day some days 4-5..and sometimes 3 i get prescribed 8mg of xanax a day,,,2 2mg bars it might of been almost 3 weeks that i been on them but some skipped..but out of the 3 weeks..some dsays i would take like 40mg of 10/325 percoccet or 50 instead of 150 wit a 2mg xannty bar instead of taking 150mg of percoceet 10/325 by itself this way

i didnt run out..but i think im done,.,.,only reason i did that cuz i h eard the benzos poteientiate the opiates..is that true>?? having taking the opiates first THEN the xanax or the xsnax then the opiates..or together..or takking one and waiting for the high to come doen...wwit the z's i really dont get high it just calms me down cuz i get angry a lot bein around my familty members i have to be around all the time..so my main concern is..i know i ccan takt the rest of the percs tonight...late as possible..this way i wont feel withdrawals until im sleeepin so thats day 1 basically skipped..and thern the main concern is i do nt wanna get addicted to the xannys so i wana know...is it the amount and or time exttended period of time used for the xannys that get u addicted? and from what i told u guys..do u think it will be bad for me on wds with the xannys ans how do uy think i should take the xanntys durin the day and and at nite if needed if ambien aklone dont work mor just take 2 10mg ambien instead bcuz i am oprescribed 60 a month,, equaling 2 per night....take one 10mg n if i wakw up durin nite take 2nd 1? this way i dont have to use he xabbtya durin the nite unless i break off a .5 or sumtin because i h ave the giid ines g3722 it breaks off into 4 pieces. try n answer all the quwestions iasked,,ill pit spaces inbetween parts so its easier to read n decipher..but i got a good feelin i can do this..cuz i want my normal life back.. i was 165 for so many years abd iout fo nowhere besdies the fact of be not takin all my daily vitamins for weks in a row b12 1mg folic acid.. calcium citrate plus vitamin d etc plus protein shakes an not eating right..i dropped down to 138..i was scared..anyway i gained a good amount of weight back.. im, 154..im 5'4 and on thr bmi vhart it says im supposed to be 140 burt thats crackhead sjkinny any dcotor would agree just not in those terms.. so i got my gatorade ready...24 pack of it..got 2 24 packs of poland spring water..lots ofcampbells chicken noodle soup ...any tips... otherr theh nwut ui already said,seem like i kniow wut to do? im just worried about the xanax part man but the worse part is the the first 5-7 days so i ighht only need the xanax dfor the first few days or so...you know? thanks in advance for support/advice etc. WILL POWERR BABY. GOD SPEED. god bless every1 else goin thru the struggle..

[melinda7.5]

Hi JustChillen
I think I would get thru the opiate detox first and then taper off the zanax.
It sounds like you have read the Thomas recipe it will help you...
I would just take it ten minutes at a time...
get some time behind you and things will start to look better.
just hang in there and let the time pass...
I have been where you are one to many times
and sure feel for ya...

And yes zanax does work for anger...my son is bi-polar and has bouts of anger and he has taken them for it.
there are a lot of people that use benzos to settle down...
once you get thru the opiates maybe you want to look at what is making you so angry then you could free yourself of that to...
would love to help if there is anything I an do...

Talk to you soon, Melinda

[Robert_325]

JustChillen ... Melinda is right. For what my opinion's worth to you I would do the opiates first, then take on the xanax. You're taking a high dose of xanax whether it seems like it to you or not. You're going to have an absolutely MISERABLE experience doing this trying to stop both at the same time. That's the kind of detox that you would need other meds like depakote or dilantin to prevent the liklihood of seizures from the xanax. You're trying to do too much at once in my opinion going that route. It took a long time to get where you are. Give yourself a break and take this on where you're giving yourself a realistic chance of being successful without TOO much misery. God bless.

[JustChillen]

how much and how little xanax should i take during the opiate withdrawal

i wouldab een fine on the xananx as a opiate wd prob cuz i was noddin on 1-2 mg..now i took 10mg..does nothing barely relaxes me and i built a huge tolerance.. this is has been for 20-3 weeks on n off...addiction already?

how about this..i h ave about 5 n a half or 6 n half 10/325 percs.. even tho takin one per nite or a half per nite thats a total of 5 days oor close to 10..i wwith such a high opiate tolerqnce would a half of a 10 oxy or a whole one with NO benzos for 5-10 days lower my tolerance back to noddin n fall asleepin knocked out cold at .5 -1mg of xanax..this is what i want..bcuz benzoo wd is crazy i heard.. so seriously..either prolong the perc wd for a few more days..take the few i have and since im fairly new to benzos pweriod my sudden tolerqnce because of the high amounti i took would dramtically lessen n this way when im just doin the ambien n xanax..and inatead of 10mg i would take anywhere from 2-8 only for like the first 7 days.;..would my benzo tolerance go away or drmatically lessen and also since i mused to 150-200mg perc at a time would my benzo tolerqnce still lessen if i took a 5mg or 10mg perc with a 1mg or .5 benzo since i heard it potentiatees it? taken together...10mg perc .5xanax.. 5mg perc 1-1/5mg xanaxn.. would my body recognize only from the last week n some days that hey he went from takin 8mg to barely 2. would that lower my benzo tolerqnce this way i could actually hhave the xanax affect in the next few days if i was plannin to do that perc plan.. and also i want to knoe..how often do i take the xanx during the opiate wd...and how much couldfi take a full 8 if needed or take like 5 seeing ho wi only wanan take it for thr 5 -7 worse days of the opiate withdrawal...i swear to g-d i do not want to go t thru this benzo wd..its been a fairly short time nut the amount is whaat scares me,.wut causes addiction time or amount of a lil bit of both? honestly i get prescribed 8mg xaanx a day and todya was day 1 so i deciddeed to take all 8mg at once which i knew wqs a huge mistake..really got a headachefrom it... thanksfor the first replys..lookin fowward to 2nd


only brinin the opiate thing u p bcuz i want to lower this xanax toleracne for abou a week im not sure how many peers i hae but i know its less then 7 but theyre 10/325 ox pecs...i j ust 2 stacks of bananas too,...i take a muktivitmai eveyydy y anyway but i dont taje b 6 i take b12 pls 1nf folic acid,,ansd got plenty of cambells soup...u wouldnt advised eatingany steaj during detox period would u?

letm e knw ure tohughts, thank u again i really a m just scaed wuth thus benzo addiction. like i said in fairly new but i read all over recreeational this recreational that..its bullnanny..least 4 me..just barely calms me...anyway hope hear from u asap

[melinda7.5]

Hi JustChillin
Well I can tell you what I did and maybe you can take something from that.
I was addicted to oxycontin klonopin and a few others...
I quit c/t one time just quit every thing but I only lasted about a week
and the next time i did a taper on the pain pills and still took some things to help me sleep...if I were you I would stop the pain pills and keep taking the benzos, but I don't know how much to tell you couse I'm don't know what you need to calm your self down but as little as possible...so I would just take what you need to get thru it...dont worry to much about the benzos you can taper off when you get done with the opiates...i think one thing at a time is the best...
if you need to taper off the opiates that would be OK, It worked for me...
you going to make it well get you thru this
lets just make a plan and stick to it...
so what do you think you can do...
it's going to be ok...
Melinda

[JustChillen]

heres the thing..before i made the regiment to quit the opiates a few days ago i had and still do have a good amount of 2mg xanax bars.. nad about 50 ambien so i dont need the xanax to sleep cuzi have no tolerance to ambien and reason i built up a htolerance to xanax in such a few days is b4 i planned on quittin percs i always knew i runned out early and i heard if u mix a low dosage of oxy wit a high dosage of xanax oor vice versa u feel real good...so i started takin less opiates to have some left over a nice amount to take by itself and i would a like 4mg of xanx and 20mg of perc..and so slowly when i ran out the percs for a few days i was jus takin the xanax by itself...n even tho it hasnt even been a month..it was the amount 4-10 mg a day for almost 2 weeks..adddicted yet? not sure? high tolerance? yes.i have sumtin reallly big i have to do today and i just realized i have 4 perc 40mg totoal..if i take that today i can get the one big job out the way which involves a lot f pphysical moving n liftin and theere since its 545pm tomorrow since its that thime now i should be feelin the major wds...that point since my tolerance to xanac is high..should i j ust take a .5 or 1mg or a full 2mg bar... thing is...i have no idea about benzo withdrsawal i just know idont want to go thru it..sounds very scary andi just want to use them for the opiate wds i just messed up a few times n took the xanax by itself bcuz i was bein a dumbass..

the last percss i took werree last nite 100mg at round 11pm..hanst even been 24hrs..think i should just take these 40mg wit a small dose of xanx to feel physicslly n mentlay able to do the job i have to complete today..this way i everythiing i need in the house for the entire opiate wd bananas 24 pack gatorade nd water n soup n etc..


stay away from meats? or just cut into small pieces?? i love pepsi. can i have aglass or two throughout the day? and besides bnanaas i i eat lots of mixed fruit cups n also grapes n pears.. stay away from sugary stuff cakes cookies i assume...


does wut im sayin sound decent... point blank i dont wanna go thru a benzo wd i hsave no idea on it n dont even really wanna be filled in cuz im too nervous i csn deal wit the opiate withdrawl n wutnot etc but i really only anted the benzos for a week or so to hel wit perc wds..i just took xaanx a lil over board...not too overboard...but plese help

[melinda7.5]

OK this is what I would do...
If you need to do a big job today I would just take percs and lets start the detox tomorrow...
as far as the benzos go i wold not take them unless you get into a bind tomorrow...you have the ambien to help you sleep so lets take it as it goes and don't worry your going to do fine...
I know some people mix benzos with opiates, I never did it ruined my high so I just took them when I wanted to come down and go to sleep...
so what do you think about the plan...Do you want to start in the morning???
talk soon, Melinda

[JustChillen]

yeah i toook thee perc. finishedd bout 80 5 of eut i had to get doneb uut una get sine helpm 2morrow n when i wake up in the mornin since i took like almost 60m ill do much as i gotta do b4 riund 5 the kateast,,,

wut is the xanax wd like? i pray i wont n believe i wont have, ,,esoecialllif i can just do a 2mg bar for 5-7 days at a ,5square iutts the 4 in a 2ng ever few hiurs or i mean...i unno.. lts see hlw it goes il ttyall 2morrow night..

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by JustChillen

yeah i toook thee perc. finishedd bout 80 5 of eut i had to get doneb uut una get sine helpm 2morrow n when i wake up in the mornin since i took like almost 60m ill do much as i gotta do b4 riund 5 the kateast,,,

wut is the xanax wd like? i pray i wont n believe i wont have, ,,esoecialllif i can just do a 2mg bar for 5-7 days at a ,5square iutts the 4 in a 2ng ever few hiurs or i mean...i unno.. lts see hlw it goes il ttyall 2morrow night..

JustChillen .... please understand that I'm not judging as I doubt there is much you've done that I haven't done too. But go back and read this post if you possibly can. I honestly don't have any idea what you've even written. It sounds to me, especially after reading your earlier posts and knowing that you know how to write, it appears that you are totally blasted on SEVERAL pills right now while you're posting.

I suggest that you go to bed. When you get up and are coherent post again and we'll see if we can help you. Right now I doubt you would even remember reading a reply by the time you finished it. God bless.

[JustChillen]

it was the ambien kicken in..and i had post my last post on here b4 bed,,,i woke up this mornin like wtf did i j ust say but i was actually coherwenht just not with thee typin,. the 5 meant 2 be % symbol and 6


i think i wwas sayin wuti told melinda i wouldo..take the few percs i had to complete the big job i had to do the 5 me amoove post meant to be a 4 for 4 10mg perc and the job i wwas supposed to done was only 80% n 6om was supposed to be 6am its still am n im still up..

the 2nd part made ssense

got any advice comment on the 2nd part of that post?


ii got a new post..ill put it in below in a new post

[JustChillen]

2mx xanax bar have same half life as a .5 cuz i have exactly 30 mg which is 60mg of xnanax should b more than enough 2 get me off weithdrawal.. and if so i could use the rest to come off of it..

gimme an idea how with the amount i have..the MAX i should try 2 limit myself each day...withdrawalss should be from 5-7 the yleast..usually b4 wds the worsr have been for 4 days..but keep in mind this was a prescription for 120 2mg xanax bars that i was taking to potientiate the perc was wrong in doin this..i

s this not the right choice of benzo to mix for recreatioal affects by itself as as aopposed to mix wit opiates? just curious cux that was what i was doin n always reason i buil tolerqne on the xananx was to keep more of the percs..

also i smoke a little pot here n there..keeps me chillen epcially if i can take a 1mg or .5 xanx with it instead of a full 2mg bar or 4mg totoal... what chu guys think?

btw some natural endorphines ill hab\e tonight is cowboys nfl game is on and 815 EASTERN TIME LIFETIME FAN.. AND THEY PLAY THE RIVAL NEW JERSEY MIDGETS I MEAN THE NEW YORK MIDGETS... WDS SHOULDNT START UNTIL AROUND 6PM..SO LETS SEEN THEN,..I FEEL LIKE ******** NOW..MY MUSCLES IS AL LTIGHT NTENSION AND HAVENT EVEN BEENE THRU WD FO PERC YET..JUST TAKEN XANAX AND ONE AMBIEN AT NITE TO SLEEP

[JustChillen]

if i possibly find a few tramdaol those are muscle roeeazers n since xanax wont have that...muscle relaxin part in it.. as opposed tot other benzos like valium..can take a few tramadool with the xanax... together or how far apart? do they interact..i think the tramadaol is years old but medciceen might be lesss potent but still will make a difference,,once i actually get hand on them ill let u know year n actual mg

cuz legs is mad uptightn like not really achin but real tense like i needd to stretch...cant do too much walkin thisn isnt even full day 1

i took those last 4 percs last might close to 6-m..i even took xanx this morning..why do i feel like im strtegin wding from percs way b4 the 34 hr mark...not 20 hrs yet..is is cuz the amount i wwas takin... 150-200 mg a day most days..some days 80..some 120 et.c.is that way?

like isaid the vitamins i take every morning b12...is that ok instead of b6 do i nreally need that? a multivitmamin a calcium citrate wit vitamin d.. a vitamind d by itselff 400mg vitamin d.. 1mg folic acid


also..will .5 xanax have same half like as opposed to 2mg or 4mg of it..yes? just not as potent at effecgt,,,cuz i have like like 60mg total..30 2mg and i n eed atleast 8mg a day for the first 4-5 days and then i have just about half to taper off of hence opiate wd gone and xanax is nnothing at all or barely...

[JustChillen]

guess i made a mistake..thought i had 30 2mgss but i got 32 mg tota; after just takin14 in one shot n whowa did it cure headache everything cept weakin shakin in leg.s..ii just went # 2...qte wq light lunch...ibut the plan wa i thought i had 6mg total n wanted to taper on 30 of the percc n 3ot wd if i hasdd any xanax wds..whats the differencee? if have any..even from slighes tot highest opiate pian wut should i do... ii smoked one very lil cip of maryj b4 i took the pil...i doubt tht helpedb ut i do feeel better. advice/help/support please

[doc.rose]

Hey justchillin! I need to give you a little advice because your posts don't make any sense. You need to slow way down when you type. You are typing like you are having a verbal conversation with someone and it is really hard to understand. Typing fast doesn't work for you, so if you are serious about getting clean, slow down when you type so someone can understand what you are saying. No one will be able to help you unless you start making some type of sense. Good luck!!

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by JustChillen

guess i made a mistake..thought i had 30 2mgss but i got 32 mg tota; after just takin14 in one shot n whowa did it cure headache everything cept weakin shakin in leg.s..ii just went # 2...qte wq light lunch...ibut the plan wa i thought i had 6mg total n wanted to taper on 30 of the percc n 3ot wd if i hasdd any xanax wds..whats the differencee? if have any..even from slighes tot highest opiate pian wut should i do... ii smoked one very lil cip of maryj b4 i took the pil...i doubt tht helpedb ut i do feeel better. advice/help/support please

doc.rose is telling you basically the same thing I said to you last night. I agree 100%. Read your post. Plus I can't understand anything you're saying. You even say right out that you took 14 pills at one time. Why would you do that?

Don't wait until you start getting blasted to get on here and then typing so fast you don't make any sense. You can't get clean on here when you get online to talk all messed up. Not judging you, just reiterating my point from yesterday. Good luck and God bless.

[JustChillen]

well i hve nothing...no xannys. i felt fine from takin all the rest of them last nite all the way into mid day today. now i feel so weak lifting a plate feels like im liftin weights. i know i can def get sum xanx on oct 1 but thats 9 days from now and those feeelings will prolly go away by then anywayy im guessin?

some friend is sayin he might be able to get me some suboxne like 20 dollars a pilll wth?? anyway..whats thhe point? isnt that an opiate and id be startin all over again. isnt that for methadone n heroin addicts?

only thing i got is ambien. enough of it


willl taking it during the day do any for my wds? just put me to sleep then ill bee up all times of the noite n schedule would be messeed up.? i went to sleep at 3am last nite. woke up at 6. and that was kind on purpose i doing things tryna accomplish stuff..but now i dont even have enery to talk on the phone..

will ambien do anything for per wds...except make me sleep? and sometimes ambien gimvesm e headaches when i wake up do how will i deal wit the perc wds and the ambien side effects? if im also lack of sleep..i think it sounds like a good idea to just tkae dome now sleep cuz i barely slept.. prolly wake up time just for mnf monday night football..lol...but any suggestions help please..today i took a walk across street n down block to the corner storee... 2morrrow ill take a lil walk to the dry cleaner.. i take n took all my vitamins today...dont need immlidium...ate chiceekn soup today... some gatorrade but i luv my pepsi an sprite so i also obeyed my thisrt..also..i ate 2 bannas today wit my tea..is tea wit big amount of splenda i love splenda only way ill drink tea wit it n reg milk. anything im missin or u could include.. i really feel i need a nap now..i just dont wanna be up all nite unless i h ave eneergy to accomplish things..n wakin up after ambien i doubt i will even feel like gettin up got an hour..ill prolly need some tea..and i got my water bottles i drink 2...

[Robert_325]

Just Chillen ... I just went back and read your old posts. I remember you now. We've been having these same conversations for a long time with you totally zapped while you're online here and you're taking insane amounts of pills.

You ask about all this ambien and the last time we were talking you were taking ambien by the handfulls. Now you want to take them during the day too because you ate all your xanax and can't get anymore for a while?

I WILL NOT advise you to go buy pills off the street at any price. I'm not going to tell you to go buy suboxone for $20 a piece off the street. That will just be one more thing for you to abuse. In fact after reading your old posts and remembering our previous conversations the best thing for you to do is go check yourself into an inpatient rehab.

I'm not going to get into the talks like we had before. Every conversation is like the one before. You need some serious help with your drug usage and you won't get what you need here. You're going to end up killing yourself taking drugs if you don't stop the insanity. I can't be a part of that.

You need to be in a controlled environment under the care of professionals that can dictate what and how much of any medication you take. That's about all I have to say on this. Good luck and I sincerely hope you go get yourself some help. This has been going on entirely too long. I'm done here.

Let us know when you get out of rehab and are doing well. Good luck and God bless.

[JustChillen]

Rehab? Check myself in? I can't do that. I can see where some of the things I say sound/look off the wall.. Im not really no junkie. actually only drug ive ever done in my life has been marajuana. and percocets has been awhile b ut on n of.f..half was cuz of alll my hospitalisations and surgerys...the other half the time recreational...the xanax i just tryed a lilttle over a month ago. bcuz first i was gonna stoop the percs..but then i said ill combine 1 percocet and 1 xanax to preserve the xanax../then i ran out of both. honestly i dont have anxiety. but i did get a prescription for xanax sayin i do have anxiety but i wanted the pills just for the withdrwals for the percs..now i still get my scripts monthly.. im new to ambien as well...but i knew i wanted to get off the percs which is valid for me to have been on for the last 15 years if so. im only 22. but i started taking them on a daily basis recreationally a lil over a year ago. so igot those other 2 scripts as a plan to get off the percs. yet i kept delaying the percs stoppage. but this i have to stop. i just drank a gatorade. bout to take my vitamins. but i want to eat n need to eat for health reasoning. but i dont feel urge to eat. its day 3 clear. i know. i been thru this b4. longest i went was like 14 days with nothing and i went back to it tho. after 14 days i shoulda just kept it goin. but i didnt. i got so much goin on now but i cant do nothing but lay down n watch tv. and i sweat. then im cold. ac on. ac off. which is i know is part of the wd. i just want to know when will i get the energy to do things like even take a shower. i forgot what it feels like to be normal without percocets or hydros.

rehab, psychhiatrist, hospital...anything like that is out of the question. this HAS TO BE done at home. but i live n have to deal wit multiple peoepl every day./..its like since i stopped, i j ust been sittin in my room with my door locked. but i have so much to do i just want the neergy to do it. anything else i can take. i dont wanna take reg tylenol. gotta give my liver a break to begin with. cant take any NSAIDS. so this is what im up 2. any good things to try n eat for breakfast? my nutrients are very important. i used to be sever obesesity and now im actually a lil underweight so at the moment i dont feel like eating but i know i NEED to.

[Robert_325]

quoted from JustChillen "....... Rehab? Check myself in? I can't do that ........ Im not really no junkie ...... only drug ive ever done in my life has been marajuana and percocets ..... ...the xanax i just tryed a lilttle over a month ago ..... but then i said ill combine 1 percocet and 1 xanax to preserve the xanax ...... then i ran out of both ..... honestly i dont have anxiety. but i did get a prescription for xanax sayin i do have anxiety (that's good just lie to dr to get more xanax) ......now i still get my scripts monthly (that's very wise!!!) ..... im new to ambien as well ( you were taking ambien by the handfuls months ago when you were posting) ..... percs which is valid for me to have been on for the last 15 years ... im only 22. i forgot what it feels like to be normal without percocets or hydros ..... [B]( U been taking Percs since you were 7 years old???? Taking them 15 years and you're 22?)[/B] ..... rehab, psychhiatrist, hospital...anything like that is out of the question ..... "



After reading the above post I realize that you are obviously correct. There is no reason for you to seek professional help. Sounds like you have everything in your life totally under control. Sorry for making the suggestion. You should probably just continue doing everything just like you've been doing it. I'm done here. I think my point is made by your post. Good luck and God bless.

[JustChillen]

I will come back soon with a positive progress report (not that i will fully be healed) but it will be FROM HOME. its the only choice i have. and im grateful to have a home to live in at the moment without paying rent. eventually, that will end, and the realization of that is what makes me want to quit this pill thing.


btw, i broke my bones and everything first started when i was 6. i dont know what they give u for pain as a kid so im just assumin but my medical history extends back to '91. so thats why i said that. i do get your points though. but i cant get professioal help or go 2 rehab. if i didnt wanna keep this a disguise i could see all the shrinks n go to all the hospitals i want for free cuz i got medacaid. but i just gotta do it this way. the only way i can. hope you understand. just wanted some daily support n any new different advice to what i havent already figured out or beeen told.

[Opee]

It's a process, Man. You, like me, seem to have many issues happening at once and you need to take them one at a time. I, too, do not have the option of inpatient rehab at this time. I wish I did, but I do not. I don't think anyone here is trying to judge you, but with all due respect, the last series of posts were probably the most incoherant rambling I've ever read. I couldn't tell if it was a cross between type-o's and street slang, or what. Your last post made sense, I could understand your message. I wish you luck, I know what you are going thru is not easy. It isn't for any of us.

Take Care of Yourself,
Opee

P.S. Yeah, you should propably just take the Ambien at night for sleeping. It isn't really a substitute for benzo's...

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by JustChillen

I will come back soon with a positive progress report (not that i will fully be healed) but it will be FROM HOME. its the only choice i have. and im grateful to have a home to live in at the moment without paying rent. eventually, that will end, and the realization of that is what makes me want to quit this pill thing.


btw, i broke my bones and everything first started when i was 6. i dont know what they give u for pain as a kid so im just assumin but my medical history extends back to '91. so thats why i said that. i do get your points though. but i cant get professioal help or go 2 rehab. if i didnt wanna keep this a disguise i could see all the shrinks n go to all the hospitals i want for free cuz i got medacaid. but i just gotta do it this way. the only way i can. hope you understand. just wanted some daily support n any new different advice to what i havent already figured out or beeen told.

Don't ever want to hurt anyone's feelings here or anything like that but sometimes we have to say what is necessary to make a point with someone in active addiction. Hope you understand that.

I was a professional person owning a pretty good size company most of my life and I SURE DIDN'T need to have anyone know about my addiction problems. It was embarrassing to clients, my employees, etc. But dude, it's so important for you to get well. You're just a kid. Trust me that anyone who knows you would be SOOOOO happy for you if you got some professional help and straightened yourself out. If you've got Medicaid it's all free. That is as good a deal as you could get. You're in a wonderful position to change your life and save yourself.

You're not "disguising" anything as you called it. Do you really think that people who know you DON'T know already that you're addicted to drugs? They all know it, you just may think you have them fooled.

I don't know you and it's no skin off my back. I do care about you though and if you were my son I would drag you down to the rehab myself and stay there with you if I had to in order to get you well. You need some help buddy. It's nothing to be ashamed of. No one is judging you, just trying to help you.

I promise you that everyone who knew me from "back then" likes me a lot better clean than using. And some people still don't like me either way but that's not my problem. I'm being honest with you and not judging. I just want to see you get some help and it's such a good time at your age. I hope that you take the suggestion and run with it. It's your LIFE we're talking about. That's about the most important thing you could do for yourself. God bless.

[JustChillen]

I feel pretty close to normal. at the moment. dunno what it is, but im just like mentally blockin out any images of pills..not thinkin of any of them..i woke up today way early, the 2 ambien i took didnt even work for that long, so it was about almost 4am n isaid to myself well i aint fallin back asleep, i tried. but i knew it weouldnt work. so i got up n just did normal lthings like brush my teeth showeer, made some tea. ate breakfast. mentally im cool. im strong there. certain things ive said wasnt maken sense. but im tellin u today is day 4 and i almost feel normal. i j ust gotta wait some more time n c if i still feel that way.. only thing i do feel is weak..like weak things feel heavy. but sumtins makin me wanna go to gym that i had signed up for almost a year ago an never went once. wut would be some good n litwe working outs to do..and one thing im def goin 2 do is throw the bball around some. one thing, youth is on my side. god is on my side. my brother is on my side(rip),. im takin my vitamins n makin good bowel movements no real diarhrea, i can at least now feel able to pick up a phone...make calls n schedule appts..

what day was this thread made...so i can keep track of the days