[butterlove123]

Im struggling, plain and simple.

about 2.5 months ago i wake up in the middle of the night with a panic attack caused, by what a think was some stomach discomfort that was effecting my breathing. Im a bodybuilder (or at least was for 3 years) so i was eating quite a bit to maintain my size.

well sense then ive had a dull stomach pain, prescribed nexium with no help, even had an endoscopy done with just a minor hiatal hernia (not cause of problem). At first the panic attack meant nothing but eventually started to happen a few times a week waking me at night; the attacks were short in nature, now i feel like im in one ALL day long. I wake up feel ok, about an hour later i feel like my mind is hazy, my vision is blurred/tunneled, i feel like im in a haze, and semi labored breathing and i worry all this ******** is something serious (still have the ache abdomen with these symptoms). Ive also lost a LOT of my love and lust for life. things i once loved seem merrily just ok, im bored and feel like i have no purpose. Im not sad, im not suicidal but it certainly feels like something close to depression.

my doc thoughts are the stomach is the root of my anxiety/depression(hes not sure im depressed) and other external events are causing it too. My mother also agrees that i need a therapist to talk these symptoms away.

I kno different, I am the most mental tough person i kno, but i have NO control of whats happening and it bothers me to death. i have a great life and i KNOW these symptoms are not the cause of external events.

I basically come here in hopes others have had similar symptoms and have gotten through this. I come to ask how did u get through them? could this all these symptoms be related?

thanks so much guys

ps: doctor gave me xanax at .25 to take in the morning and at night. I do that and the xanax might level some of the edge but does not help all that much.