[addicted_n_seattle]

I am an addict. I am here for help and let others know they are not alone.

I am trying to kick dope ($100/heroin habit) and I am sick. Its been 24 hours. I am sweating, my stomach feels someone is ringing it out, every muscle is screaming in pain. My eyes water so bad my neck is soaked. I’m panting, and I cant catch my breath. My legs barely support me to the bathroom...

I was clean for 2 years up until June, since then I have been using everyday. So I am kickin completely alone. My roommates are gone until Tuesday and I wanted to be through most of this before they return.

OMG...This sucks….I know if I use that I will have to relive the last 24 hours again. I cant. I never want to go through this again.


They say one hit is too many and a thousand is not enough. This is completely true for me. I took one hit of heroin in June and I was back chasing the needle and the dealer... I have been using 2-3 grams of tar per day. My arms are a mess of abscesses, I do have antibiotics.

The past few of weeks I use so I am not sick. Forget the high; that doesn’t happen for me anymore. Its time to stop, I hope I am strong enough.

Please offer encouragement and tell me your story with withdrawal and recovery. Tell me how you made it...

thanks

[no_more_tram]

You WILL do this!!! I have hight hopes for you. I was a pill popper, and I got on Suboxone, ever thought of doing that?? It was a life savor, it helps so much with the withdrawals. I am however 9 days clean off the Suboxone. And everyday that you stay clean, you feel such success. I know that it is so hard for you being a Herion addict, my brother was. And although I have never done it, I can only imagine how you feel. I felt so awful going through withdrawals from pain pills.

Anyhow, keep posting as often as you want, being on this site is VERY helpful and you will get lots of encouragment. I am proud of you for deciding to get your life back in order. Good Luck and talk to you soon

[pobb]

how are you getting on man?

im going through cold turkey at the moment too. I hope you managed to stay strong through the toughest week of your life. Im still finding it hard, but hour by hour i just fight off the demons.

The cravings do seem to subside, but at the back of the mind while your brain is recovering there will always be that little whisper.

There are alot of people here who have been or are going through the same rough time, even though thats no consolation as this always feels like the most alone time ever.

If you cant find any other help other than online, then so be it, this is the way I have been. I seem to be using google more than ever now just so I can read up on other peoples stories. makes you feel better for a moment, but you know....

stay well

[newyorkgal]

It's important that you get into some type of recovery program above and beyond the help you can get online such as N/A. There is also something called the Thomas Recipe which seems to make cold turkey go a bit easier. You can look it up. You can do it. I wish you all the best.