[ssolomo90]

Hello everybody...first time post, but It's my first day off percocets. I've been taking these and oxycontin when i can't get the percs. I've been on at least 60-100mg of percocet a day for ,maybe about four or five months, but have been using for about ten. But I know I can't do this any longer, I've pretty much used up all the resources I had for this waste and now It's hard to enjoy everyday things.Luckily I'm working and in school, with very good grades, so I know that things haven't gotten completely out of hand, but because of money and growing up I know I need to beat this now.I happened to get a hold of one and a half suboxon eights and have taken a 4 mg earlier with 30 mg xr adderall to go to school and found myself extremely tired and also messed with my stomach. I was falling asleep in class by eleven. The suboxone is a lifesaver though, it almost makes the whole process too easy, at least for me. I find the worst part that I hate is the chills and the depression that seems to eventually set in. And I dont care what anybody says, but pot really helps to keep your mind off the pills. I don't smoke weed often, but through my experience with withdrawal it in combination with suboxone is so handy. But I'm hoping that it won't be worse tomorrow, which is why I'm trying to save that last sub. I have school and work tomorrow, no way to miss these obligations, but the strangest thing is that in the past, I've been clean for a day and felt completely better the next day, and I'm clean. The last time I w/d'd was for a day and I felt great the next day, no need for percocet or pills at all and was very optimistic, yet it still took a couple days for me to start feeling mystrength come back. Unfortunately I didn't really get to find out, since I started using after four days clean.I know I have a bad psychological addiction to pills, but I am sincerely ready to end this nightmare and get my life back.

ssolomo90

[doc.rose]

Good for you for taking that huge step to recovery!! You will have tremendous support on this forum, so post as often as you need to or as often as you like.

[pobb]

well done of stopping this evil trip. put it down to an experience you will never forget..

remember the opiates had you hooked because it was an easy ride. And now your brain needs alot of recovery to get back to what you feel will be normal again.

Are you doing cold turkey like I am at the moment? Have you done it before and do you know the withdrawal isn't so great?

just remember the pills aren't a lifesaver as you said, they are just an easy open option that you have discovered. I used to think i could do anything while on codeine, and Id take an awful lot to get through years.

If you cant talk to anyone about this, just remember there are alot of people on here that will give you their time. And the nightmare will subside eventually.

take care.