[melissa_321]

I'm 22 years old and Ive been addicted to opiates since i was 18. I started off taking 5mg Lortab or Percocet, just for recreation. Then I started going to a pain management doctor because i was injured in a car accident and I had major back pain. I was perscribed 10mg Lortab. I took those and stayed at that dose for about 2 years. Eventually, money got tight and I couldnt afford to pay $100 a month just for Lortabs. I then got into shooting up heroin. (I know, stupid, huh?)It made me feel so incredible, thats all I cared about. Luckily, it was a phase and I only did that for a few months because I saw what it was doing to me. For the next year, I did pills here and there, whenever I could get the money to get some. I never really had bad withdrawel symptoms, but I always felt achey and depressed if I didnt have anything. The cravings were the worst part. Then about a year ago, I got introduced to another pain management in South Florida, near Miami, where they only perscribed 30mg Roxicodone. In the beginning, they gave me enough to take 5 a day. After only a couple months, my tolerence grew so rapidly, I had to have them give me enough for 6 a day. That still wasnt enough because I shared them with my boyfriend, who is also an addict (which started after we got together ) After a while, we started running out within 2 weeks of my visit. We would get so sick from the withdrawel symptoms, God it was hell. You cant eat, you cant sleep, your legs wont sit still, you have chills,but you're sweating, your body feels like its just shutting down and you think you're dying.It was too unbearable, I almost jumped out of our car on the interstate because i wanted to die because we were unable to get pills and i was so sick. So we decided to go to the Methadone clinic. It was good at first, we werent ever sick, never had to worry about getting pills, we were active and happy. But after a couple months, we both began gaining so much weight, we got hot flashes all the time, and we were constantly tierd and so lazy, it just wasnt working. Also, its was $100 a week, so i quit that cold turkey and started going back to my Doctor. My boyfriend eventually dropped out of the clinic as well and now we're back to square 1. We both are starting to take 2 roxy's at a time now, 4 or 5 times a day. You do the math. We've pawned so much of our stuff, our jewelry, the TV, his golf clubs, and even the engagement ring he got me for christmas, just so we could get our fix. Today, we're still in the same boat. Its a struggle everyday.Its constantly on my mind. Even if we have them, I still think about it all the time. If I could give 1 piece of advice out of my whole life, it would be to never start taking these things. If you're just taking Percocet, Lortab, or Vicodin, please only take it for the pain, when you need it. Because eventually your tolerence will go up so high, that those wont do a damn thing for you. The roxys are like crack in the pill world. So many pharmacies around here are getting robbed and people are doing whatever they can to get their hands on them. Please avoid those at all costs, they ruin lives, and its just not worth it. Choose life.

[Robert_325]

melissa .... before I get clean in 2002 I was taking thirty 30mg roxies, plus around thirty 10/650 lorcets, 20mg xanax, 6-8mg klonopin and 20-25 somas all each day ... plus other assorted garbage.

I completely understand your dilemma but please understand that you can survive this and you can come back from this if you really want to. You WILL feel like you want to die but you can recover. I will be happy to help you if you are interested.

I would suggest suboxone for your situation, but it can also be done using the Thomas Recipe for lessening cold turkey w/d symptoms if you are not able to afford the cost of suboxone therapy. Let me know if you want my help. Check out the following link and let me know what you think. God bless.

http://www.drugs.com/forum/featured-...apy-50887.html

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hang in there. think of all the $ youll have were here

[python134r]

Melissa,

I too understand where you are and what you been thu, I live in Hollywood, Fl. and there is a pain management on every other block. Yes, I was a dope fiend for 20some odd years, did the oxy thing too.

My point is that there is a way to stop, it's hard but the rewards are great. You don't have to feel that ********ty feeling.
Robert suggestion of suboxone is a good one, if you can. I also did the meth thing too for a while but jumped off because I refused to take more than 40mg and they threw me off.
That was a good thing. I kicked in MCC NY{fed} cold turkey after weaning down to 10mg.

Today, with suboxone there is no reason to suffer anymore. The Thomas recipe helps too if you go that route.

We all know the dangers of opioids, many here have suffered to. I try to focus on the solution,> recovery.

I have to tell you from experience that it is extremely hard to get clean with a significant other who uses. Beside addiction there are codependency issues too. The only reason my significant other stopped is because she od'ed in 2007 and died, I got clean in 2006 with a brief fling with Pain meds in 2008 and finally stopped a way's back.
Never looked back.....

Rich g

[cantkickit]

damn thos eroxys are the devil, i know many people in you situation and about 2 months ago i was there as well, but with some suboxone time(a few months, currently not taking them) and help from these wonderful people you can do it. i like to think of all the ******** i had to pull off to use $75-$100 per day. its so much easier to get suboxone and let that be it, the rest of your month is open to enjoyable and regular life activities, holler if you need help--im getting clean myself and hope to be at the ending of that chapter-my name is tim