i just wonder if any one here is still using (other than subs or mmt) but still wanting to get clean but not doing a very good job at it? I just feel like i am am the only one here who is a failure. hell, i ve never taken anything harder than vics. I dont have any experience with oxys or percs or whatever, except morphine or similar narcotics thru emergency rooms. all i have in my possession is 190 lomotil and 6 soma, which the soma i dont know if i should throw out or take like a tablet a day or what.