anxiety question

[lins]

i have been trying to get off lortab, etc. for years and i recently even started taking way too many xanax because i have horrible anxiety over the mess i am in. i want to quit them ALL but the anxiety is terrible. i have tried millions of times to quit the tabs etc. and could not succeed. i was overwhelmed and anxious that i began taking xanax as well. Pretty stupid, huh? i have been taking lortabs, norco for about 10 yrs (approx 50 mg a day). The last 2 monthes i have been messing with xanax as well because they got rid of the stress. When i don't take my drugs i feel like i cannot be around anyone and i can't even get my 3 yr old daughter to her activiities because i cannot handle the stress of being around people--i get nervous, sweat, and can't sleep without my drugs. with my meds, i am like supermom. everytime i try to quit i can't even force myself out the door because i feel so terrible! i am even afraid to answer my phone because i am so nervous talking to people and i feel so tired. so i always go back to the meds because i want my little girl to make her playdates and have a great life. i quite for 2 weeks a few months ago and i was in a terrible state. i couldn't do anything and was a NERVOUs MESS! The harder i try to quit, the worse i become because i get mad at myself and take more and more pills to numb myself. Any suggestions at this point? Someone suggested a lighter med such as zoloft, wellbutrin, etc. I just want my life back and my child to continue on with hers. i have no family support-my husband would not leave me alone with my 3 yr if he knew as he HATES drugs and has no sympathy for that sort of problem. so i have no one to turn to. i am hoping you guys could offer some advice. i can handle the physical aches and pains but the anxiety is overwhelming. i started the pills because they gave me confidence to do things and get my daughter involved in her life as i am very shy. The meds make me outgoing and i feel as if i can do anything. Things were great for awhile but now they are out of control as i cannot do anything without my drugs. i am literally afraid to go out of my house and be around people everytime i try to quit. PLEASE someone give me advice. I love my daughter and want her to have a great life. i have just moved into a great neighborhood and made lots of friends and so has my daughter. but i can't do anything without the pills. Any idea's on something i can take that's not as harmful and addictive that can give me the courage to do these simple things? I am defininitely out of control and need help. It's amazing what these pills do to you and no one even knows it! i just need help with the anxiety. thanks to anyone who can offer any advice or what to expect.
Dawn

[mpvt]

You should try buprenorphene (suboxone)???? Goto www.suboxone.com and find a list of prescribing doctors in your area and start phoning for an appointment.
You are in danger of respitory fasilure when you take a benzodiazepine (xanax) with opiates.So you need to do something asap.Good luck to you and let us know how your doing......Dave