[Debpurpletiger]

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OK.....I just don't get it, I really don't.

1.) I post my condition with my signature simply to be honest, and to let people know what I am dealing with, that's all

2.) YES, I was as active addict and went thru hell during that period of time.

3.) After 2 Dr.'s, 5 MRI's, a P/T consult, 2 Physiotherapy consults, 3 steroid injections, one trigger point injection, and 2 surgical consults, I have been told: This is a chronic, non-surgical problem that I have 2 options: One is Narcotics for the Chronic pain - pain that is so bad I can not get out of bed in the morning. Or two: suffer. I have been 100% HONEST on this board, I have told everyone my situation, and I have tried to offer any advice that I could.

4.) I still have not seen an "MD" after any of your names.....therefore, how do you feel you know better than all the Dr.'s I have seen? Do I ever get any credit for being honest? No.

5.) If there was a miracle pill or treatment that I could take that would allow me to function as a normal, pain free person, YES I would take it in a second. I KNOW I am on dangerous ground with my "recovering" Addict behavior and now needing chronic pain meds. However, with over a year clean, still going to N/A 2 to 3 times a week, having a wonderful family support system who knows ALL my History and is always on the lookout for the "relapse signs" because we all know, the RELAPSE itself is preceeded by many steps and behaviors, by my Dr.'s KNOWING my Addiction and what I have went through with it, with them counting my pills at every visit, with me NEVER taking more than prescribed...I think...no, I KNOW I am doing pretty damn good.

I KNOW there are more people in this world who are recovering addicts who are now in Chronic Pain...I am not the only one.

6.) By being straight up honest to you all instead of hiding and lying about my condition...I feel that deserves some damn credit.

I am NOT being defensive.....I just get real tired of trying to help a fellow poster in a situation and then having MYSELF get slammed for doing so.

Constructive critisism...I take it from you people every day...but when a person asks a question asking for help or advice, and I think I might have something to offer by speaking up.....it seems the subject switches IMMEDIATELY to ME and not to the person who asked for help.

I can't get any more Honest with you people than I have. If I have NOTHING to offer anyone, so be it. Skip by my replies. Your comments to me, do NOT help the original poster.....

But I have been to hell and back and have experience in some things and Damnit, what helps keep me sober is knowing that there ARE others in my situation and just maybe, can take a sentence or two from my reply. At the VERY LEAST, they will know someone is reading and caring.

I wish the best for you, Sarahjuanita, with your situation, and I am sorry your serious question got sidetracked by my situation.

Maybe I will just create a new account and say nothing about me at all...but you know what? If I asked advice, and someone answered me who also had/has some other issues, I would be thankful for their honestly. Because sometimes the only advice you can trust is from someone who has been there.

So, instead of attacking me...think about the Honesty I put in every post - I don't think a lot of active or recovering addicts would be so honest...and I can SURELY understand why. However, I KNOW that lying makes any slippery slope even more slippery...so I choose Honesty over lying, or lying by omission any day.

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If anyone has been treated the same way for offering advice...I'd like to hear from you, also with your thoughts....

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So, already today, I read a post from someone asking why the Xanax he takes decreases the high he gets from smoking pot.......and another poster wants to know if they can SNORT their Suboxone, because "it feels like a waste if I don't snort it".....WTF - and you people bash ME!???

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Yes, but no one responded to those posts because they were not worth giving a response because in promotes abuse. I don't think people were attacking you, they just were a little concerned. If you are able to follow the directions on your bottle, then great. but a lot of people on this forum got in trouble taking the combo of prescriptions you are taking, and I think they posted out of concern for you, not to attack you. I myself am not an addict, my younger brother is, and he takes a combo similar to yours. I think that any doctor that prescribes a narcotic with a benzo is crazy!! It's a lethal combo that could kill you even if you take as prescribed. So just be careful.

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I have one question for you. And you state that you are 100% honest with your answers. Do you get your pain meds from the same doc that prescribes your klonopin,prozac and lamictil? If you go to two different docs, do they know what the other prescribes? I am just asking a question. I am not attacking you in any way.

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I get my pain meds from my Back Dr., I go once a month cuz both are Schedule II. My P doc prescribes the Klonopin, again I go in once per month, even tho it is only a Schedule III. I signed a release at BOTH doctors so they trade every visit note, and Yes, I swear that is the 100% Honest.