addiction

**iknowit** · 10-09-2005, 07:09 PM

I started this subject to talk about addiction.
But I would like to hear stories, About the dumbest thing you ever did high, or the worst thing you did in an attempt to get high.
what ever story you would like to tell. Sometimes telling these stories help to keep you going on the right path.
I look forward to hearing from you!

**Arkie88** · 10-11-2005, 01:25 PM

OK I know this may be gross but this is when I realized enough was enough. Last Friday I thought about taking some pills before I left work for home around 5:30. So I took about 6 or 7 10mg percs. I also have started chewing tobacco again due to stress and I was chewing also. Was having a nice ride home and then started to get nauseous. Normally - this has happend a couple times before I pull over and heave and them I'm done. This time, no I'll make it. I'm on a major road and I procede to puke all over my suit, my new BMW, everything .... just nasty - cause it happened twice. Does that count as dumb? It was after that that I said - you know what - this has got to stop - so I'm 2 days free with no w/d symptoms and weaning myself off of my next script. Gross story but true.
My car still smells a little bit - I have to get it really washed out. I told my wife I swallowed some chew and that did it. Just nasty man.

**abey042000** · 10-11-2005, 05:34 PM

Heelo, Arkiee88
And how is cold turkey now?..I am an addict that hasnt quite made that decision to stop yet although I know I have to. My supplies are running out.

**Arkie88** · 10-12-2005, 10:48 AM

Hi Abey - it really is going well. I have no major withdrawal symptoms. I will get my script filled but I'm not going crazy with it like normal. 100 percs would be gone in 3 days normally - I will stretch it out to 7,8,8,10 days. I have another script for 300 10mg percs to fill later next week. That will be the big test. I am looking at disc replacement surgery as a possibility so I still have major pain - but I need to drasticallyl cut down on tthe meds.

Overall I know I can do it. With everyones support on the board you have no idea how helpful it is to talk to people. I felt so alone only 3 days ago. I'm an addict, I know it - but I'm getting better 1 day at a time.

**iknowit** · 10-14-2005, 12:06 AM

What up ark?
I couldn't understand all the way, did you eat your puke?
If so thats a good one LOL!!

**PoppyQueen** · 10-14-2005, 08:46 AM

The worst thing I ever did to get high was steal some blank scripts from a doctor. I was writing my own prescriptions for Fiorinol w/Codeine back in 1982 and was successful for a while till I got popped right in the drugstore. So I went to jail for the weekend. I had a clean record so the judge let me go with a warning.

Going to jail is a real wake up call! I stopped using pain pills but went on to speed and coke. Hey, at least I never wrote another prescription!

PQ

**kyhomegirl** · 10-14-2005, 09:07 AM

Once when I went to the hospital the doc gave me my script and left the refill line blank. So I wrote a one on it and the pharmacy told me that narcotics couldnt be refilled from a hospital prescription. Duh, so thats why he left it blank, never got in trouble though, luckily.

**Arkie88** · 10-14-2005, 10:53 AM

The only thing that I ate it was my leather seats and suit. I didn't swallow it - that would be really gross. It all came out all over everything.

**ANSFAN17** · 10-14-2005, 10:24 PM

Hey ALL,

Well I did it! I finally called and made the appt. for Suboxone therapy. If I would have known it made me feel this good just to make the F***in call, I would have done it so much sooner.

I wanted to post to answer some peoples questions about the cost and what have you, that I read so much of people wondering.

I found a Dr. that on the locater on suboxone.com. Called them up and spoke to a wonderful woman who explained it all. I have to go Monday and out down a $50.00 deposit and they will schedule my Appt for next week. The reason for that is that many people in our situation will not show up for their appt. On the day of my appt. it will cost me $250.00. The price for the Suboxone is roughly about $130.00 per month. And Office visits are $65.00. Once a month if your on that long from what I understand.

So all in all, it seems pretty reasonable. I work in the travel industry so I did lose my insurance, so I am self paying. I was gratefull that it is reasonable. Not thousands of dollars. But hey even that would be worth it. Just think of the money we spend on these pills. Not to mention the energy if we are almost out.

I picked up my last batch of percs today and said, "this is the last time youll be seeing me." and I meant it. So I have 11 days until this nightmare of spaced out, grogginess, fear of withdrawl, stifled feeling, weight gaining dependency is over. I hope you all get hit tonight with that "a-ha" moment that hit me and pick up the phone, and make the first move. It feels freakin great. I hope the rest of the journey is the same.

I will let you all know how everything goes and keep you up to date daily on here when I start day one on it.

I found today an old quote in an old journal that I read somewhere it read, "May this give you the light to find the shadows", I felt it was appropriate.

Be Well
Anthony

**Arkie88** · 11-05-2005, 08:11 AM

Anthony = how has it gone - was it the last time ... ? How has the subox treatment gone?
Arkie

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