[sayers]

I have been diagnosed as being bipolar for a few years. I take medications on a regular basis which help, however, about 5 months ago, I fell and my doctor gave me hydrocodone, after I was off of that I was really depressed. I liked the way that it made me feel. So I told my psych. about it and the way that it made me feel. He prescribed the tylenol. I am suppose to take two a day, I am taking three a day 2 when I get up and one in the afternoon. If I do not take two in the morning I am a mess, I am nice ladyy and I don't want hae anything to do with anything or anyone. When I take it, I am the most pleasant person to be around, I get up at the same time each day and I love the world and eveything about it,until it wears off. I have not told my psych. My family does not know either. This is very difficult. I do not want to admit this but I love the I can go through the morning w/out being impatient with my husband and daughter and coworkers. Everybody thinks that I am so pleasent and they love my personality, little do they know it is fake. Any suggestions?

[mpvt]

Hi Sayers,what your feeling is the euphoric high that comes with taking narcotics.You are playing with fire here,before long you won't get this feeling from the codiene and you will have to switch to a stronger opiate and then you become tolerant to that one and then you get a stronger one ect ect.After awhile you won't get that nice buzz that we all love so much.It actually has a rebound effect and you become nasty and short tempered.So take a look at what your getting yourself into,opiate addiction is a terrible thing to live through if you make it.I was actively addicted for 22 years and I started out exactly like you .I went to my doctor after knee surgery and told him that these 642's (propoxyphene) were the greatest thing in medicine.They made me feel so good about myself.I would work 12 hour days,I could talk to my wife but like I said that only lasted about 5 years.Then I spent the next 17 years trying to get that buzz back but to no avail.I'm now on methadone for the rest of my life because I can't make my own endorphins anymore.So really think about this.......Dave

Always consult a MD first

[cathy1429]

I agree with mvpt,if youre only taking 3 a day now,STOP NOW!! You are playing with fire and youll end up addicted to anything that will get you high,i was taking 20-30 hydros 10's a day and it was a life of pure hell,i am now six days clean and i feel better than i have in ages.Take it from me,get off it while you can,the more you take the harder the withdrawls..........Hugs,Cathy

[sayers]

Thank you for your feedback, I was so glad to see others opionions that have beeen there. I can not confide in anyone close. I am just petrified to stop. I don't want to see the real person that I am. What if I am not successful enough, not a "people person" what about my marriage. I want to be liked and sociable, but I don't know how to do it on my own, or if I can. What if I just stayed to the prescribed 2 a day and had someone monitor it, I actually feel that after I have taken the two a day it is fine, but after I take the third one I do get a little edgy or irritable. It's at the point where I get headache if I don't take them. Or am I using that as an excuse. But you said always consult an MD, why would me psychiatrist presribe this just going off of what I tell him, thatI liked the way I felt w/ the hydrocodone. I take clonazepam and Lamictal for the Bipolar. Do you recommend something else. The clonazepam does not seem to be working, I am so moody and edgy. The Lamictal seems to do fine. I feel like I have investigated every type of meds. I am at a loss. I am so scared.