http://www.drugs.com/forum/ Support, help and advice from members for those who are suffering from addiction to benzodiazepines, pain killers and other medicines. en Thu, 23 May 2013 11:35:08 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.drugs.com/forum/images/misc/rss.png http://www.drugs.com/forum/ http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/teenage-prescription-drug-abuse-63484.html Tue, 21 May 2013 11:33:58 GMT Recently i have heard about Teenage Prescription Drug Abuse. Is there any one who can share information about that? Recently i have heard about Teenage Prescription Drug Abuse. Is there any one who can share information about that? ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction mikewilson01 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/teenage-prescription-drug-abuse-63484.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/oxy-detox-just-wanted-tell-someone-63483.html Tue, 21 May 2013 03:41:22 GMT Hey guys I'm currently on day one from oxycodone IR30 detox. I'm on about hour 13/14 and feeling alright I guess. I know whats coming and have tapered my use from 150mg a day of blue oxy30's to 60 a day. The other night I tried to quit from the 60's because I was sick of tapering and just wanted to get it over with, I ended up procuring 25 more blues in the idea that I would keep weaning. It wasn't a huge relapse because I was only on about 10 hours of the first day but definetly was starting to feel it. Today is the next day and I'm honestly so done with these.

So heres my back story, I don't want to name names but I am a 21 year old male and have probably truly been addicted for about 2 maybe 2 1/2 years. I never had a pain problem or accident, my biggest problem was availability and wanting to hide. Due to a workmans comp accident of a close friend I have been able to get more and more painkillers on a 25 day basis for free for the past 4 years. The first two years I just sold them because i didn't like the feeling but then my life got turned around due to a girl >>>>ing me over, and I mean she really >>>>ed me in the long run but it's not worth explaining.
Anyways I've been steadily getting upwards of 200 oxy 30IR for the past year and a half and have even gotten it up to 360 every 25 days with 180 vicodin. For the most part I just got rid of them in bulk which I know is bad but thats not my problem right now, I was keeping around 100-125 oxy 30's for myself and using around 5 a day. I just realized that it's just not worth it anymore. I've still been able to do great in school, work, i'm in great shape, pretty much keep up a totally normal life.
It's just the fact that i'd be so ok with doing nothing on them, like nothing mattered I just wanted the day to pass and sleep, watch movies and go to the gym. I have a lot of friends and still see them regularly, nobody knows about my problem because only two people know I get them and one thinks I sell them all and the other thinks I give them all to sell. Unlike most people my addiction has allowed me to continue to make money so I never really had to sacrifice anything.
It's tough, sorry for the long drawn out post it's just weird, after relapsing 10 hours in last night due to RLS mainly made me feel so weird, I ended up calling my mom crying telling her I miss her. It's tough because I have so much pride and don't want them to know.
I guess I just wanted to hear some input. Last year before I got laidoff from work (had nothing to do with me, half the workforce did) I had perfect attendance, always had great reviews and got promoted very fast making around 60k at 21. So not trying to sound like i'm special but my addiction seems different from a lot of people. ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction OverIt21 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/oxy-detox-just-wanted-tell-someone-63483.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/really-dont-know-what-do-63474.html Sun, 19 May 2013 20:23:18 GMT For those of you who haven't read my previous post from a few weeks ago... I am dating a drug addict. I guess I should've just never gotten myself involved but there is something special between us it's just so >>>>ing hard. He's lost so much already I feel like I'm all he has left... he's even told me that, he's even told me if it wasn't for me he'd have killed himself by now. He gets kicked out of any rehab centre he joins cause ultimately... I've come to the conclusion he doesn't WANT to quit. I mean we talk about it and he says he doesn't like that he's so addicted but he still loves his percs... he physically hurts himself just to get percs..... it consumes the bulk of his life. His eating schedule and even sh*t schedule revolves around how many percs he may oor may not be able to get. Being around him during withdrawls is not my idea of spending a fun day with someone I care about. All of my friends ask me wtf I see in him... I see so much in him... we click so good when it's great but it's so easy for him to get pissy with me because he's having w/d ... I feel like I'm the source of his anger and have to do whatever I can to calm him down.. He had been staying with me for a while since his parents kicked him out and because he got into a day program he's allowed to go home so he wont be AS in my life as he has been but I'm just so frustrated. I feel like I'm an enabler but I can't stand him when he's going through w/d and I just don't know what to do. I've helped him get them before.... and I felt horrible... horrible for helping and horrible because I'm not that type of person. I don't do percocet and never have and believe me after seeing him do them I never will. He got a script for 60 I'm not sure of the mg but he took them all in one day. He had a coke problem too and he kicked it so I thought he'd be able to kick the percs. Today we were supposed to go have lunch but he had to go get his fix... and then we didn't have time. I told him how upset it made me that they were such a priority to him and he said if I had asked to get lunch instead he would have done that... I don't know if I bvelieve him but I just don't know what to do anymore. I care so much for this man and his well being.... I want to help but I can't I'm no help. I feel like if I cut him off he may hurt himself or others but I just finished school, I struggle with it for years and I got myself a really great job in my field... I'm moving to a really nice apartment in a really great area next weekend and I feel like my life is finally on a good track and path and I huge part of me feels like I should just change my phone number and not talk to him again... I've read a lot of posts on here, I've reached outo n here, I've read different forums ands tuff online about oxy/percocet addicts or addicts in general and the consensus is always that he needs to see the consequences of his actions... but I feel bad cutting him... but then there's this part of me that thinks I don't need this >>>> in my life right now. I am worth so much more than spending time worrying about him ODing or physically hurting himself to get percs in an ER... What hurts me too is that when I told him how I felt about our lunch date he didn't even care that I was upset he just got straight on the defense... I don't wanna be wtih someone like that. Even if I was wrong it still should matter that I'm upset and two adults should be able to discuss things instead of argue about them. My feelings are valid, and I feel like they are constantly dismissed. I feel like he's used me as a place to stay and get high and >>>>... a part of me feels that way but I don't know what to do.
My bestfriend said just to tell him it's done and I can't be wit him and I'm sorry but I feel bad being so cold. He's an addict. As much as it's his fault..... I do feel for the trials and tribulations he goes through cause I see it in his eyes he wants out of it... but the w/d are so much to handle, and he's fearless and feels he has nothing to live for really doesn't exactly add motivation.
I feel like I have to catch him in a moment of clarity to discuss how I feel and his whole drug problem other wise he gets aggressive about it and it comes off like I'm "attacking" him.. but I only care for him... I see how capable and smart he is and he could have so much for himself and his life...
Anyone understand how I feel?
Anyone have advice for how I can approach this situation?
please if I'm doing anything wrong let me know... I just want to help ultimately. Even if that means letting him go. I'm just scared for him. ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction LadyM87 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/really-dont-know-what-do-63474.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/need-help-questions-about-methadone-ativan-use-63473.html Sun, 19 May 2013 02:45:47 GMT I have been looking for help with some questions i have , So i signed up for this website because i thought it would be the best place to go to when... I have been looking for help with some questions i have , So i signed up for this website because i thought it would be the best place to go to when looking for help with my questions , The questions i have were - I am currently on 75 MG of methadone , I went down 10 mgs within the last 2 months , And i am going to be working on getting of methadone within the next year or so , Because i only see my doctor once a month , And i feel as if i need to give myself time to allow myself and my body to get use to the dose being tapered off every month , I have been on the methadone program for about 3 years now , Due to my addiction to 80 MG oxycodone / oxycontin , And general opiate addiction , Pretty much anything i could get my hand's on when i was addicted , But my main addiction was the 80 MG oxycontin due to the availability , But the methadone isn't my main concern , It's the drug interactions between my methadone and my other medications , And my questions about an Ativan / Lorazepam addiction i have been starting to form , I was put on Methylphenidate about a year ago from another doctor at my methadone clinic who i talked to that my main methadone doctor suggested me to , The doctor that put me on methylphenidate / Concerta , Was basically a psychiatrist , And i was suggested to see him from my main methadone doctor in the same clinic because i was having bad thoughts , And i was constantly thinking about things that worried me , So i was put on methylphenidate in the morning , And i usually take this about and hour or 2 after i have had my drink of methadone , And it basically keeps my thoughts in tact throughout the day , And it has been working great for me ever since i was put on it , And then i was starting to have severe restlessness at night and i wasn't able to sleep and i was having bad anxiety throughout the day so i was put on mirtazapine from my main methadone doctor , And i was prescribed 2 a day , One in the morning , And one at night , And i have also felt that to work great as-well , I take one when i wake up after my methadone and methylphenidate starts to wear down and it helps me with my anxiety , And one at night also to help me sleep through the night , And i have been put on these 2 drugs on top of my methadone to help treat my problems within the last year or so , But those 3 medications i am on are not my problem , I have listed them just to give people a better idea about my situation thought , I just thought it might help people give me a better idea about things when they're reading this , But anyways i wen't to my doctor in November or December , Because i was having severe panic attacks and severe anxiety to the point where it would feel like i was going to pass out , Or like my heart was going to explod out of my chest , And i couldn't stand to be out in public due to these situations with my anxiety and panic attacks , And it was embarassing , So my doctor prescribed me 10 Lorazepam ( 0.5 MG's ) to last me throughout the year , And he said i was only to take them if i was having severe anxiety attacks , And was basically hesitating to prescribe me them because he didn't wan't me to end up like a zombie being on all these different mediactions , But my main concern is that i have been using them on and off every know and then when i have bad panic attacks on anxiety attacks , And i felt that when i took the ativan throughout the day it would calm me down and help me sleep , Rather then having a panic attack / anxiety attack , And i happened to love the way it relaxes me and helps me fall asleep at night , So i started taking them every few nights , Along with some of my moms bromazapem to provent me from running out of my ativan and not having it when i need it the most , Which is when i have my attacks , So i think i have been developing a dependence for this medication at night to help me sleep , Even though i am already taking meds to help me sleep , And i have basically tooken about 6 of my lorazapem and 2 of my moms bromazapem within the last month or so every know and then to help me sleep , And i have tried purchasing those ezee sleep tablets from the drug store to help me sleep some nights through the week rather then taking the lorazapem , Because i am worried about some of the stuff there is to be said about attivan , And i was basically just wondering , If it is very dangerous for me to take this medication every know and then to help me sleep , Or if i should just stop taking it all together and start leaning towards the over the counter sleep meds rather then the ativan ? , And im worried to tell my doctor about the dependence i have been starting to develop on them , Because he told me not to take them like that in the first place , And i feel like if i do run out of them , And need something for my anxiety i could always take my moms bromazepam ? , So if someone could help me out i would greatly appreciate it !! , Sorry for such a long story but i didn't know how to explain my situation better !! ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction TheHippyMan420 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/need-help-questions-about-methadone-ativan-use-63473.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/new-needing-help-advice-support-please-63466.html Sat, 18 May 2013 06:22:37 GMT I'm terrified. Terrified of quitting my love affair with percocets and terrified of continuing them. Been taking them since 2006. This last yr or so, I've been taking btwn 2 and 3 percs about 5-7 times a day, give or take a dose. I have enough to get me through three days and would rather not get more but can if I'll need more to taper down so the wd's arent so bad. I buy them from the street and can't get a script. I've only ever gone 16 hours without and the restless legs made me want to cut them off.....BUT......

It's time to stop. Give it to me straight, how bad is it gonna be? Can't go to the Dr.s for help. I'd like to taper off but I'm not sure how or if I can. IIs going cold turkey on this amount dangerous?

My family and friends have no idea I'm in trouble and the only way I'll get their help is if they think I have the flu while I'm withdrawing. I have sml children and my ex has threatened to expose me and take my kids but even he doesn't know how many I take now.

Any advice on how to start?

I've heard there's a few things I'll need, lots of water, imodium, vitamins etc. I'm almost as afraid of quitting as I am to continue taking them.

Any help is greatly appreciated....xx ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction wishthiswasover http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/new-needing-help-advice-support-please-63466.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/fentanyl-percocet-63462.html Sat, 18 May 2013 01:49:42 GMT I wass put on 5mg percs 2 years ago for fibromyalgia. A year ago fentanyl patch 25mg every 72 hours for fibromyalgia leg and arm pain was added. 8... I wass put on 5mg percs 2 years ago for fibromyalgia. A year ago fentanyl patch 25mg every 72 hours for fibromyalgia leg and arm pain was added. 8 months ago percs were increased to 10mg and fentanyl to 50. A month later patch was changed to every 48 hours. NOTHING was helping so they wanted to do injections in the spine (no x-rays had been taken). I demanded them and turned out I needed total shoulder replacement, hip replacement, complete reconstruction of rotor cuff in addition to severe arthritis of spine. Shoulder surgery completed 3 months ago and that feels great. Leg has worsened and getting done in a few months. PROBLEM: Depression set in on top of everything else. Told it was due to all I've been through but just read on this site that fentanyl could be the reason. I'm sick of all the drugs that don't even seem to help. That being said I stopped taking percs (i was up to 10-20mg 4-6 times a day) a week ago. No diiference in pain level. Amen! Now I want to quit fentanyl by going from 48 to 72 hours then quit entirely. QUESTION:Will I need to restart percs to come off of fentanyl? Please help! They want to increase my depression meds next week and I want to prevent the need. ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction mae1946 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/fentanyl-percocet-63462.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/bupenorphine-cya-63455.html Thu, 16 May 2013 00:46:44 GMT BUPENORPHEEEEEENNNNEEEEE
My happy place my memory my fake reality , cya, havakid18years,havastopsignandforeveryouwillstop, I'm 3 in and done totellastorywouldbedumbjustreadothers ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction chachie0011 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/bupenorphine-cya-63455.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/oxycodone-withdrawal-timeline-i-tapered-down-per-docs-orders-63453.html Wed, 15 May 2013 20:27:50 GMT Was on 60mg of Oxycodone (for pain) for roughly 6 months (started at 30 for 2 months, then 60 for about 4, then a month taper). Started the taper... Was on 60mg of Oxycodone (for pain) for roughly 6 months (started at 30 for 2 months, then 60 for about 4, then a month taper). Started the taper based on my pain mgmt doc last month, and took my last 1/2 of a 10 mg pill Monday the 13th at 11am. It's now Wed 15th at 5pm. I don't feel good, but really not terrible. [coldness, malaise, anxiety and very acidic feeling in my stomach]
My question is: Am I almost through it actually or is it going to get worse? (I have had some help with a couple klonopins (prescribed), immodium, zantac and ambien (they don't really work well, but I'm sleeping ok; also prescribed)) What can i expect moving forward?
Many thanks! ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction weagle http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/oxycodone-withdrawal-timeline-i-tapered-down-per-docs-orders-63453.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/here-we-go-again-63452.html Wed, 15 May 2013 20:11:45 GMT I just need to tell someone my story, the god honest truth. I'm sick of lying to everyone i know. :(

The first time i got prescribed percs was when i was 14 yrs old.

I had an all or nothing attitude. If I wasn't the best I wasn't good enough. My dad was a track star when he was young and he expected nothing but the best. He's also bi polar and a recovering alcoholic at this point. He was relentless, so i trained harder than everyone, and in turn, I became the best. However, with being the best, with training so hard it became an addiction. An obsession. I would get injured and ignore it, showing pain was weakness, it was unacceptable. i was the toughest that ever lived, at least in my mind. Then one day i twisted my knee. I pulled half the ligaments in it. they told me I was lucky i didn't tear anything, slapped a knee immobilizer on me and sent me away with a script for some 5mg percs to take as needed for pain for the first few days. I took only a few in the beginning just to take the edge off. Then a week or so later I started training again, against the doctors wishes. I worked through the pain, i was the toughest. About a year or so later I started training for my black belt. It was a year long process filled with training meant to break you physically and mentally. And it did. they pushed me to Hell and back. My body showed it. The doctors at the e.r nearby knew by name we'd even joke about my injuries. I had "my own" room even. I hurt my knees all the time, i dislocated my shoulder, sprained things, broke things. It was insanity. I see it now, hind sights a >>>>>. But every time I went to the e.r they gave me those little pills. I started taking them so i could start training again faster. They made me feel good. Alive. Finally, I made it through, I got me black belt and decided I was going to fight professionally. That has been my dream since I got my black belt. After that I began to teach classes. I was a role model. I did great in school, never got in trouble, and my students loved me. It was perfect. When i think back to the greatest time in my life I think back to that time.

Then my world got shattered. Ripped to shreds. It haunts me to this day.

I tore my ACL in my right knee. Now I know it sounds like I'm being dramatic, but all I knew i was, everything I wanted to be was martial arts. If I didn't tear it my life would be different. There'd be no depression that led to self medicating with something so addictive. I was stupid. I thought I could do anything. But you can't. Sometimes you just can't.

I tore it when I was 16 yrs old at a tournament. I won the match and that's what I cared about, but it changed the course of my life. I won in true karate kid fashion. I hurt my knee right in the middle of the match and went down. I got back up. finished, and won. Only to be taken out by ambulance. They took an x ray and said I dislocated my knee cap. And just like every other time, gave me a knee immobilizer, and pain pills. Only my knee cap wasn't the problem. Every 2 months or so like clockwork I'd hurt my knee again, go to the e.r, and blah blah blah. Every time making the tear a little bigger. It hurts? Oh here's some pills. You'll be ok. Only i wasn't. It got to the point were I'd be walking and my knee would just go. I couldn't hold my weight. I had to be so careful but it still would just got out. It took 4 different orthopedics to finally figure it out. I had my surgery 3 days before I turned 18.

After that, they just threw pills at me. My physically therapy was brutal but i had to get full mobility back so I could fight. I was teaching again in 2 months, mostly from a chair but i hated it. Finally, 6 months later i got cleared for physical activity. But everything was different. They didn't see me as that rough and tumble girl that only trained with the boys any more, i was fragile, glass, something that could be broken. I tolerated it, but every now and then i'd re injury it. I found I was afraid to hurt it. I had never been afraid before. Every one told me i couldn't be a fighter any more. I lost my self. I identified my self as the karate kid. That's what everyone called me. But now I was a has been and I was only 17.. I was going to be a champion. I tried to train as hard as I did before. But i was always made to stop. How could i regain my status as the best if i couldn't fight my way back to the top? The depression set in and I started training less. But I found i could get the same rush i got from training, from pain killers. It started off slow, I'd skip a training session to go hang out, but I'd be high. It got worse and worse to the point where I stopped training all together and just taught. But then even that couldn't keep me going. I was a lair. Then one day, I over dosed while teaching. I had popped a bunch pills before teaching a class. It was more than I'd taken before but i thought I could handle it. I blamed it on food poisoning and went home and threw up for about 8 straight hours. Worst night of my life. After that I said I was done. That was it. I detoxed over the next few days because it was to the point where I was high everyday. It didn't last though.

Not even a month later i started using again. My dad has a really bad back so if i ran out of my script or my connect was dry i'd just steal some from him. I still have no idea how he didn't notice. Then it started getting expensive so I decided to sell to pay for my habit. After that, I was never sober. Never. It got to the point where I didn't know what it was to be sober. That's when I quit teaching. I was 19. I then tried going to a community college for a while but that didn't last. I started dating the guy i'd been in love with for yrs and he just got an apartment with some friends. It turned into a party house. A house where no one was every sober. That's when I tried Ecstasy and some other drugs but I always had my pill stash nearby.

Then I quit. Cold turkey. I still had some of my black belt self control left I guess. i was sick for 4 days. But on the 5th day i realized it was so bad. I could do it. I did have some help from some muscle relaxers and Xanax. But after about 2 weeks i felt so much better. I tried to start training again, and it was good, for a while. About a year later we started hanging out with some of the people from the old apartment again. They were still doing drugs but my boyfriend and I still managed to stay clean, for a while at least. It started again, slowly at first. Maybe only once in a weekend. We would pick up 30mg percs. They were great. But I made sure it was only once a week. If it was regulated, I thought, it could be controlled. It wasn't long that it went from only friday nights to friday and saturdays, and so on. There was always an excuse.

At this time i went to school in the morning until 2:30 and then I'd go straight to work til 10-1030. This is were things got bad. It started off we'd grab when I had a rough close a head of me so i could power through it so i could get my homework done. But then 6 months later the closes were always bad and i always needed a little push to help. i called them "worcocets". To make matters worse, we made friends with our dealer, so he was always around. And if he wasn't good we'd find someone else. Just call everyone we'd ever met to see if they knew anyone that was selling.

This brings us to the present. The dealers are different now. Some have died, some arrested, some we just got into fights with. But the problem is still the same. My family doesn't trust us now. My boyfriend and I are living my mother's attic because we can't save money because every dime we can spare goes straight to percs. We were doing about 120mgs at least, a few weeks ago. But I haven't been working as much so we've been forced to cut back. We talk about quitting every day almost. About how tomorrows going to be the day, tomorrow we quit. In the past 2 years or so I'd say the longest we've gone is about 4 maybe 5 days. But then we'd get money or we'd get that long awaited call of our dealer that he finally has something. I'm so sick of depending on this >>>>. I used to be someone to look up to and now I'm just pathetic. We steal, lie, and sell our stuff just to get our fix. I hate who I've become. My little brother who I was best friends with barely talks to me, my mom doesn't trust me. About 7 or 8 months ago we got kicked out, we stayed in a motel for almost 3 weeks, and still we got high. I'm back at my moms now but I have no friends, at least none that don't do drugs. I look back at my old life and I wish i could go back. My family now thinks that we're clean. That was the condition of us moving back in. but were not. It feels good to finally admit that. Event if no one reads this. Its the first time I've said it to someone other than my boyfriend.

We're trying to ween off now. For the past 3 days we've only had 15mgs. I'm hoping to cut that in half over the next few days. I just hate feeling like >>>>. I hate the thought that I'm so weak when I used to be so strong. God give me strength. This is probably the 5th or 6th time I'm weening off. Each time I was clean for a few weeks. Til my knee started hurting bad,, or my back or my shoulder. I always had an a reason. An excuse. Always. But this time I want to to work. I need it to. I don't want be a junkie any more. I don't want my first thought in the morning to be "how am I going to get money to get high?". I'm smart I could have gotten into an ivy league school, with a scholarship. But now I can't even go to a community college because i cant afford it and I've signed up and dropped out so many times. I need to get clean to have a life. I have big plans. I still wanna fight, but maybe not professionally any more, I want to be a nurse. I want a house, and vacations, and a nice car. This time, I want it to stick. But we're gonna have to go it alone. I'm too ashamed to tell anyone I know. I want to be clean. I need to be. I think that's whats going to make the difference this time. I hate myself and to fix that I'm going to get clean.

If any one actually reads this whole thing I'll be surprised. There's no one that know besides my boyfriend, no one that actually knows the story. There's a lot more bull>>>> littered through my life by my own hand because of drugs, but this is just the main points. I used to put myself in unsafe situations all the time. I thought I was invincible. But, i digress.

I just needed to say it. I needed someone to know the truth as i wade through my river of lies. I needed someone to know.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference. ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction the_karate_kid06 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/here-we-go-again-63452.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/hey-looking-some-advice-63432.html Wed, 08 May 2013 22:01:34 GMT Well it all began this year I was going threw a lot, I started having severe panic attacks everyday in January, couldn't figure out what was wrong with me kept going to the hospital but they wouldn't do anything, I finally went to a doctor who prescribe me lorazepam 3 mg a day, But I only took 1.5mg a day, I was never told about withdraws by anyone including my doctor, so things were going down south me and my girlfriend split up so I ended up moving across state with my family, so and I found a nurse practioner. I told her I have been taking 1.5mg lorazepam a day for 3 months, She told me we don't like benzo's here. But she knows your not supposed to c/t so she wrote me a script of 0.5mg twice a day, and also wants to start me on paxil and start weaning off lorazepam. I was use to taking o.5 three times a day, and now I'm only taking 0.5 in morning and 0.5 in the afternoon went threw some withdraw by doing that. I told her I want to slowy gradually wean off, so what do you think I should do start taking paxil and try weaning of the lorazepam. I don't know I'm just confused she doesn't seem to know how gradual the does reduction should be. And I don't want to start paxil and be hooked to and then withdrawing off the lorazepam how the hell will I keep my paxil pills down. Thanks to anyone who can help me! ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction billybob4200 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/hey-looking-some-advice-63432.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/xanax-withdrawal-how-much-longer-63424.html Mon, 06 May 2013 19:27:57 GMT Hi Eveybody,

This is my first time using this forum. I'm getting off of Xanax after 6 years of on and off use. I'm going through some lingering withdrawal after getting down to a quarter mg. once a day, surviving like that for a week, and having my last dose on Friday (it's the following Monday as of this post).

How much longer can I expect this to keep up? It's nowhere near the excruciating withdrawal I've had to go through before when I've run out of it. But still, there's this jitteriness I feel, and when I'm walking there're moments where I just get really rigid and jerk a little to one direction. My movements feel rushed, tense and uncoordinated.

The insomnia has basically passed, along with that week of time being drawn out; this is a lot milder, but it's still been lingering.

I've basically been on Xanax the whole time; the periods I've gone between refills never had to last a week or so until I was able to get more. So I guess I've never really officially gotten off of it. Being on this drug has always meant that I've been perpetually in xanax withdrawal because I'd have a good 3 weeks, then run out too soon and have to go through hell until my next prescription.

This has really been a love-hate relationship with this drug; yeah it calmed me way down, when I'm naturally always nervous, jittery, and stiff. It's the only thing that works; without dealbreaker side effects. We've tried everything. But the problems, and reason I decided to get off of it, were that it made me act pretty stupid and say stupid things; I'd forget stuff constantly, and repeat myself. A few months ago I mouthed off at work and almost got fired. I was starting to realize that this drug was getting to be a problem. Besides, it wasn't really improving anything that I was taking it for.

I've been on 3-4 mg/day the whole time. About two months ago I was running out too fast, and I was forced to rapidly taper. I went from 3 mg's a day to about 1.5, for 4 days or so, then 1 for 3 days or so, then I was out. After 24 hours had passed one afternoon, I thought I was, physically at least, in the clear, then at about 2:00 the next day I collapsed at work from a seizure. I don't remember much but from what they told me, it sounded pretty humiliating because they people were around and I was babbling incoherently to my boss about work and a task I was completing. I was taken to the hospital by the EMS people.

I've read before that you can expect withdrawal to last about as long as you took it. Is that true, and if it is, would it be this strong for the whole 6 years or so? Feeling like this for 6 years sounds pretty hellish, and I'd almost prefer to stay on it.

Should I still be at risk for another seizure? I'm also on Lamictal. The day I had my seizure, I had also been taking Wellbutrin, which I've eliminated. ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction Arl2013 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/xanax-withdrawal-how-much-longer-63424.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/i-just-took-tramadol-during-my-subutex-withdrawal-thought-safe-so-scared-63421.html Sun, 05 May 2013 22:17:47 GMT I have been totally off of Subutex (weaned down to 4 mg/day before going cold turkey) for nearly a month now. The w/d's have been relentless and hideous, and I've been SO worn down. This morning I found some tramadol that I'd been given while weaning off the subutex. I'd taken it then some, but it never seemed to do anything. I was led to believe by my doctor and a friend who was going off of Norco at the same time as me that it is very safe.. I certainly wasn't told that it is an opiate!!!!! I went ahead and took the one dose I found, thinking maybe it'd help now and give me a little break. Well, it sure is giving me a break, so much so that I got suspicious and started looking for more information. Some say it is not an opiate, but many say it is. I am horrified.. terrified that I've set myself back to square one? This has been such a long and horrible experience.. that thought is nearly unbearable. :(

I won't be taking anymore, obviously....I just wonder if I'm going to have to start over completely. So FRUSTRATED!

If anyone has any experience or advice for me, I'd sure appreciate it.

Thank you.......I need all the help I can get right now. ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction opiatesarehideous http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/i-just-took-tramadol-during-my-subutex-withdrawal-thought-safe-so-scared-63421.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/day-4-my-crossroad-63393.html Wed, 01 May 2013 11:42:11 GMT Hey, this is day 4 for me of no hydrocodone, well technically around 1 pm will be a full 4 days for me. I took them for severe pain due to herniated... Hey, this is day 4 for me of no hydrocodone, well technically around 1 pm will be a full 4 days for me. I took them for severe pain due to herniated discs in my thoracic spine. I hadbgotten as bad as taking 15-20 pills in 24 hours of either 7.5 loratabs or 10mg norcos. The last few days ivebbeen taking some valiums to help but inonly have 2 of those left... I have a chance today to get 10- 5 mg tabs I'm on the fence about getting them to help taper off. .. I am not sure what to do... I have 2 boys to tend to and these withdrawls almost keep me from doing anythingalso the pain is still very much there and hurts to do anything... I've tried injections physical therapy.. all s orts of prescriptions from my pain management dr.... nothing helps the pain... I know I have an addiction but I also know this pain is real and not just from withdrawls.... thanks for any help or suppport... also I must say I have toughed this out other than the valium I've delt with the other withdrawl symptoms including the diarrhea while using nothing else. ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction cimo1112 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/day-4-my-crossroad-63393.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/hello-i-just-joined-course-i-have-some-embarassing-questions-63391.html Wed, 01 May 2013 05:20:56 GMT Hello everyone, I have been reading all your posts for quite some time now and they have helped me when I was going through wds or was about to. ... Hello everyone,

I have been reading all your posts for quite some time now and they have helped me when I was going through wds or was about to. I can admit that I am addicted/dependent to or on Norco but at the same time they help me with my chronic pain from multiple herniated discs. I just recently moved back to NY from MI where I was seeing PM DR and he prescribed them to me 150/month.
I moved and finally got ins and an MRI! Now I worry bc I did something stupid and entered myself into an outpatient suboxone program and am on my 3rd day. Right before the suboxone I saw a PM DR here but he only gave me enough for a week and wont see me until he has medical records and the MRI results which should be here by the end of the week. That's when I can make the appointment but now I'm so embarrassed bc I have suboxone in my system bc I was so afraid of wding.
My PM does take a urine sample but will he test for the suboxone? I am very grateful for the opportunity to try suboxone and that it prevented me from wding but it does nothing for the pain and makes me tired, sad, groggy, and slow. The Norco took my pain from an 8-9 to a 4-5..I have an 8 yr old girl that I want to take everywhere to show NY and just can't seem to even sit @ the playground on suboxone.
So my question with utmost humiliation is will the suboxone show up on my urine test once I make the appt with Pain Mgmt? Thank you again for allowing me to read your posts for the last few months and find comfort in the fact that there are others going thru similar issues. ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction nume23 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/hello-i-just-joined-course-i-have-some-embarassing-questions-63391.html http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/looking-advice-people-recovery-63387.html Tue, 30 Apr 2013 02:08:31 GMT I will try to make this as short and concise as possible.

I've developed somewhat of a fondness for someone who is a drug addict. I have no interest in being with someone who has a drug addiction. I really really care for this person. I am overall a very caring individual with a big heart and this man just pulls on the strings. I have used with him before, when we first started talking and hanging out, I didn't really know how bad his problem was. Now that I see it I don't ever want to go near drugs again. He's really far in... almost 10 years in. He's at the breaking point, he's currently not able to work until he goes to rehab and even then he may not have his job back.... His family has tried very hard to turn their backs on him as they've had enough of his lies and manipulation.

I don't know what to do. We have something special, and I see him for who he is without the drugs and I am really fond of this person. He is addicted to opiates, primarily percocets and cocacine. Both addictions have their hills to them... With the percs, he will deliberately injure himself and get a prescription if he can't get them off a dealer. I've sat in the hospital with him... he does have a bit of a back problem but he's admitted that he can purposely throw it out to get percs... and when I was at the hospital with him the whole time I couldn't trust that he hadn't done that. Now with cocaine... he's a monster... he doesn't know when to call it quits... he's gone on binges that last longer than 24 hours, calling drug dealers off the hook until he gets a hold of one at all hours of the day and night, meeting people at 8 or 9 in the morning... and between meetings with dealers all he is doing is railing more lines, once he runs out the only thing out of his mouth is about how to score some more...Bare in mind, we haven't been seeing each other for very very long... but I've voiced my concerns to him and it's different..... like the addiction, it consumes him... there's no rationalizing (IE: It's 10 AM you've been trying to score for 5 hours now maybe it's time to call it quits...) but there's no stopping him once it's in his head. He's not the same person when he is high.

He tells me how badly he wants to quit and how he literally has no choice... he was staying with me for a few days cause he had no where to turn his family kicked him out... It was the only time I'd ever seen anyone do that much coke. I get it I'm a bit of an enabler but it's an addiction he's dealing with... if I go 100% full force against it I feel like I'm against him and I don't want him to feel like that.... I'm in his corner routing for his recovery. I am soo terrified... because I like him, and I feel like a trapeze artist tiptoing on the thin wire that is not being able to walk away when it gets too hard for me. I won't, he has never ever wronged me or disrespected me other than his typical addict lies... but I can't take those personal right? (clearly in way over my head here.)

So that's the background here's why I need advice... He's in a detox centre right now, for 10 days and then he's going to a private rehab facility for one month. He called me today, and I was caught off guard. He sounded so upset, he kept saying he's trying his best, it's boring here, he feels like >>>>, he misses me and wishes I was there, he's scared... I tried to cheer him up.... I mean... there's only so much I can say without sounding like a broken record... and I don't want to lecture him or give him anymore reasons to be upset .... Anyone who can relate and has recovered... was there anything that you found most comforting to hear from a friend or support person? I feel so bad that I can't help him... I know he needs to go on this path as alone as possible.... but when he reaches out to me again I'd like to say the best thing possible.

Sorry for the length of this post I just figure each individual case of addiction although similar in many ways probably differs... and thought to give some background. Any advice and/or support is welcomed. Thanks. ]]> Prescription Drug Addiction LadyM87 http://www.drugs.com/forum/prescription-drug-addiction/looking-advice-people-recovery-63387.html