[saralin87]

Hi all,
I'm new here but so thankful to have found this community so I can finally ask some questions! Some background, I've been a drug user for nearly 7 years. Started with meth and then moved to cocaine before "discovering" heroin. I've been to rehab and detox a few times. Right before I started using drugs, I noticed that I was very depressed all the time and increasing anxiety but when I tried to get help from my mom she just dismissed my thoughts. So I self-medicated which only led to years of addiction. LONG story short, I was arrested and sent to rehab last April. I detoxed with suboxone and it worked very well! However, since I've left the rehab nearly a year ago I've used other drugs to cope with not using heroin and to ward off cravings. I've also suffered from panic attacks and depression. It's hard for me to deal with these things because it's been so long since I've felt actual emotion. Everytime I've felt any kind of emotion, I reach for the nearest thing I can abuse. Sadly, I am also pregnant which doesn't stop me from self-medicating. I've tried very hard not to use anything while pregnant but I get so overwhelmed with everything I feel like it's the only thing I can do. I'm due in June and I'm getting more and more anxious and depressed as my due date approaches. My boyfriend is also extremely anxious that I will start using again after I have the baby because I'll be so overwhelmed. I wonder if I could go back on suboxone to help me deal with the cravings and depression but since I haven't used heroin in a long time but I have subsituted with whatever else I could get my hands on I don't know if they'll let me do that.... Any advice on my situation? THANKS.
Sara