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I was taking 3mg Risperidal for 1week, 2mg for 2weeks, and 1mg for 1 week. This was for the treatment of bipolar. On 3mg I started to have difficulty breathing and muscle stiffness. At one point I even hallucinated while ON the medications. In addition to Risperidal I was taking 10mg nozinan, phenothiazine, as a sleeping pill and lithium.

While discontinuing the Risperidal, I would get burst of energy and feel myself, then I'd feel like ********. After completely getting off the antipsychotic, while remaining on lithium, I felt apathetic and amotivated. This has persisted for weeks along with td-like movements above my eye brow ( it twitches )

I think it has something to do with the antipsychotic itself and not my illness. I don't have depression I have anhedonia. I'm not suicidal or have feelings of worthlessness. I just feel dead. Like a ghost, feelingless. My mind feels blank sometimes and I can barely think. I thought it had something to do with upregulation, and oversensitization, of dopamine receptors in response to extremely low ( difficulty breathing ) dopamine levels.

Does anybody have any idea why I'm experiencing this psedo-depression, whether it'll go away and how to get rid of it?