Makisupa,
Hang in there. I have an adult daughter who mom (my ex wife) gave her drugs at 12. She was in an institution for over a year. She got out and it got worse. Too long a tale of woo to cover here, but the DEA caught her with OVER a kile of coke. She turned her boss over and the gang nearly killed her...only a car driving up in the restaurant parking lot stopped the guy from slitting her throat after he cut her up. She disappeared. No one could find her. I called the US Marshall's office and told them who I was, who she was and could they please tell her to call or email me. They denied knowing her, etc.
She called from a private line later that day. Said she was ok, in a hospital and would be gone for "awhile". I said "I love you, be careful" and she was gone. She was..maybe 18 or so at that time.
Many years later...she has her own business and just sold it for over a million dollars profit. Fairy tales can come true. I get to see her
once a year, briefly, but we don't call her, we mostly email to her many email addresses. I don't know her name, location, etc and I don't want to know. I am just glad she is ok for now.
Soooooooooo moral of the story is you too can come back if you fight for it.
As for
Xanax, I was shocked at how I felt after only a two of the one mg pills and then a .5mg pill. I flushed the rest.
I AM lucky. I did SSRIs, Xanax, and several other legal drugs for over a year and just quit cold turkey one day. I hate them.
Morphine..I am on
Avinza. 409 days now. I dropped from 180mg a day
to 90mg in one or two days. At 60 mg I hit withdrawals.
When they figure out how to keep me breathing, they want to insert a morphine pump, Medtronics I think. Problem is...my hind brain forgets to tell me to breathe. Twice during the Bronchoscopy I quit breathing,
they had to pull the camera out of my nose (YUK), then put an oxygen mask on me...yell in my ear to breathe....get me breathing again, then start all over. The dr. told my wife to get me off the morphine before it kills me. Some people can do drugs, some can't. Luckily, so far,
at age 61, I never did ANY drugs before this, never smoked, drank or anything. But I seem to be able to walk away from it for the moment.
Well...at least down to 60mg of morphine. I am on
Kadian as of today.
100mg a day.
I wish you luck on your problem there. I have got on my knees many a time and thanked the Lord I can quit so easy...SO FAR.
I emailed the FDA about my question, they will contact me shortly and I will let you know what they say.
Wish we weren't here doing this.