[todrugornottodrug]

I relate to the lack of sex drive some experience while on this drug. I have been on Lex for two years. Overall, I have to say it helped me at a really difficult time. I was suicidal, had terrible anxiety and had just been diagnosed with a chronic illness. Since Lex, I have been able to find a better a job, got married, started playing my music again again and have been dealing with my disease OK for the most part.

HOWEVER, after two years, I have decided I want to try to start coming off it. I had started to feel numbed out to everything. My sex drive has been zero, and my ability to feel, that "sensitivity chip" has just been really compromised. I wasn't able to be intimate with my husband anymore, (this was a gradual decline in sex drive) it was really starting to affect our relationship. Who knows, maybe it has nothing to do with the Lex, but if I don't try going without for awhile I will never know what is causing what.

I went down from 15mg to 10mg. I am at 10mg for about a month now, I have noticed an improvement in my sex life, for starters I feel like having sex again and I it is easier to shall I say, "get there," I have been able to cry again, which is something I pretty much had stopped doing.

The downside, I have been feeling really angry all the time and have been having heart palpitations, some sadness and some of the old constant negative feelings have been rearing their head. It's scary, I do not want to go back to where I was two years ago before Lex. BUT, I have a good therapist and Psychiatrist. I'll just take it one day at a time for now.

I want to come off Lex completely and see how I do.

If the depression gets really bad agian, I will probably try wellbutrin, which is supposed to have less sexual side effects. It is a journey, and I try to keep all my options open, I want to try more holistic approaches to dealing with depression and anxiety if I can.
BUT, sometimes the odds are stacked so high, you just need some immediate help, and that is why I went on Lex two years ago, the question is will I ever be able to live drug free again?