Here's what's going on now.
I went off the painkillers for seven days, started to think clearly again, and realized that I was I was much happier emotionally. Only problem is, my chronic pain kept me in bed. I had to grab a
Percocet and take it. I didn't want to, but I had to get out of bed. Now, my wife is supporting me and helping me monitor my dose. I'm taking it ONLY when I need it now, because I realized when I was off it, that I enjoyed the feeling of being OFF the meds rather than being ON them. I still get 120 per month but have only taken two pills in four days. I'm much happier now, and realize I can live without the pills. I'm also going to talk to my doctor about switching from Percocet to
Ultracet.