Hi Thunder and Everyone Else: Thunder, do you feel like the psychological dependence is as bad as the physical? I congratulate you in cutting down. It's great that you have a spouse to keep you on track. I've written a previous post in this topic and also the explanation of my situation in another drug forum on this website #3589 Titled, 'Percocet Addiction' I was taking 5 to 6 Darvocet 100's a day for about 6 to 9 months, at least, and for 3.5 years prior to that about 3 - 4 a day. Actually, a lot more when out of the country on trips during that 3.5 year prior time frame. More like 8 pills a day when on yearly one month trips overseas. I am a homemaker, no children. I went to see a pain management specialist for Chronic Fatigue Immune Disfunction Syndrome, which makes you feel like you have a bad virus every day. Aside from that I have horrible intense pain related to endometriosis and adhesions from numerous surgeries related to the endometriosis in my 20's. The doctor prescribed Methodose/Methadone to me for the pain 2 weeks ago and directed me to take 3 pills per day. I guess that I'm suppose to take this for the rest of my life? I'm only 33 years old. I went through withdrawl symptoms with bad leg cramps for about 5 days even while taking the
Methadone. I guess that I had the leg cramps b/c I stopped taking the Darvocet cold turkey. I'm suprised that I had such bad leg cramps while being on the Methadone. I'm a small person so the amount of pills that I was originally taking was substantial compared to a medium size woman or man. I was so determined to quite the Darvocet 100's. I had already started to taper off of them before I went to the pain management doctor. Now, I'm going to get addicted to a stronger pain killer? I wonder if the withdrawls from this are going to be less severe since this is a medication also given to help people kick opiate pain killer addiction. I've already caught myself abusing the Methadose, Methadone, whatever, over the past 5 days or so. Luckily, it makes me tired so the more that I take the more tired I become which isn't too fun. I think that I am more psycologically addicted to pain killers than physically. I totally know what your saying about traveling and worrying about running out of pills. I was prescribed the Darvocet by a doctor in another state, where we spend a half of our time, so I have to have it sent overnight Fed-Ex when I want it from my pharmacy there. I'm a well educated individual (not such a good speller though!) so please don't try to physcoanalize me and say anything about looking deeper into my personality to see why I am psychologically addicted to pain killers. I guess that it's always been 'my friend' when it comes to pain. I took Vicodin off/on all through my 20's for numerous surgeries for the endometriosis. I am a VERY happy individual and I'm very happy to have my life where it is, so pychologically I don't know why I am addicted to pain killers. Also, I am a Christian and pray about this. It's amazing what kind of answers I've received from God after praying and then reading my Bible. I write the passages, in a journal, that really touch me so that I can refer back to them immediately when I need to. I can't tell any of this to my husband. The support that I have is from God and this drug forum. I think that this forum has helped me quite a bit, which to all, thank you, I know that I'm not alone as a homemaker dealing with this.