[Angel of Devotion]

Hello Everyone,

My name is Angel. I came here looking for some support to help me beat my long time addiction to opiates. Granted Ive only been doing them for about three years, that is still a long time when your only seventeen. I have destroyed everything I have ever cared about for those damn pills, but I have been lucky enough to find some purpose in life. I've found a girl who I love so very much, but I know that everytime I take those things Im hurting her. I can't allow myself to hurt her any longer. I always figured I could kick it on my own, but with the exception of a 5 month period spent doing crystal meth I never been off of them for more than a few days unless I was in a position where I couldnt get them no matter what I did. Ive gotten to a point where the withdrawals wont be that painful for me due to the level I have gotten myself used to, it isnt that high right now, I know I can get through that part. In short, I need help. No more can I allow myself to hurt her, I love her too much and I would rather be dead than cause her pain. Im asking the community here to please help me to destroy this thing that has controlled my life all this time. I know it will never really go away, but if I can learn to live with it, then I know I'll make it.

-Angel

"I'll tear me open, Make you gone, No longer will you hurt anyone, And hate still shakes me, So hold me until it sleeps..."
-James Hetfield