I relate to everyone on here....My husband has been addicted to pain killers on and off for years!We have been married for 5 years but together for 9....all through our relationship he has "popped pills" he had a surgery for a torn ACL after that it was all down hill.....lost jobs...cheated,I feel so stupid for staying with him..but I know this is not him!It's like a demon possesed him and dosen't wanna let go.I mean everday I say I'am going to leave and then I look at our son and decide to try and help him out of this horrible addiction.I grew up with an alcoholic mother and had a rough life..I never thought in a MILLION years I would be going through this in my adult hood.My husband has a really good job right now..and he could lose it over this!He constantly lies about the stupidest things...has major mood swings...and when he's clean he's distant.I don't know if I can take this anymore...I feel lost,all our friends and family know about the past and what he did but he picked it up again and now they all have blinders on...I feel like I'am fighting this battle alone.I love him so much but I don't think love is not enough anymore...I forgot to mention he gets his "goods" from suppossed "friends" who go to dr's offices and get a script and sell the pills for like $5 a piece..I told him to stay away but he won't of course.I just feel good knowing I'am not alone.....but the question is do I stay or do I go?I'am so confused how long can someone go through this?  |