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Originally Posted by me717  greenday, you are so right...i don't think I ever want to go through the wds again either...your advice of checking the boards often is good...it is what I am doing now. I kind of suspect I will always have the cravings but I guess more specifically, will they always be like they are now? Hourly, daily? I mean, does it get to where I will not be thinking about them as much?  |
I don't know that there is an "absolute" answer to your question. In my case I spent 40 years putting something in my mouth, nose or whatever almost every day. So it stands to reason that I would have a lot more problems with that addictive behavior than someone who did it for a much shorter time. You have not been addicted 40 years, but you have used for some time. I think it would be too optimistic to think it would all disappear, even the thoughts, following detox. You will have to re-program your mind to produce constructive thoughts throwing out the addict thinking.
Just accept that this will take some time ... but it will go away eventually. I still have some using dreams occasionally and I have been clean, except for my last relapse, for a pretty long time ... years. I relapsed for several months, but all of that old recovery was still there. It came right back really quickly. I find that talking with God throughout the day helps me a lot. Not just a methodical prayer but really talking. I do it when I am driving or most anytime it is quiet and I am alone. It really helps me. I am not going to use while I am in a direct relationship with God. It just won't happen for me or anyone else I don't believe.
This will get better for you but you are still taking baby steps in recovery. Don't ask for instant gratification like we did as addicts. We are doomed to fail if we place unrealistic expectations on ourselves or on our recovery. Just take it as it comes. Then you won't be disappointed and think it's not worth the battle anymore. It will get better ... accept that blessing for what it is and look forward to each new day clean. God bless.
