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Originally Posted by me717  mommy3, I know, my thinking really needs to change if I am going to overcome all this.  I am also extremely anxious to know if I am going to get a job I REALLY want. Today is tough for me...but I am so glad I found this board and people to talk to. Thank you.  I keep chanting to myself, "I just need to get through today." |
Mommy3 is right. As addicts the one thing we all do is use. When we have just a little clean time under our belts it is so easy to do it again, especially when we are under so much pressure and are having pain. I know I have relapsed a lot worse than taking a couple pills. My last relapse almost destroyed me, it almost killed me. Just recognize your actions for what they were and allow it to make you stronger. Beating up on yourself accomplishes nothing. Sometimes we have to do what you did to make us see how a little mistake can cost us everything. Then we don't do it again. You are not a loser. You have come a long ways. Just take this as a learning experience so you don't make the same mistake again. Good luck and God bless.