Hello, I have been lurking around here for a few weeks. I am addicted to opiates, with my favorite drugs being
hydrocodone (10's) &
oxycodone (7.5's). I can take between 10 - 15 pills a day when I have them and have been doing so for about 2 years. I am 31 and a mother of 2 beautiful children. The only person who knows of my addiction is my husband and he really is of no support. He actually helps add to my problem because he gives me his pills for his chronic pain. I decided to join and post today because I need real support and advice. I know I need to stop and I have tried cold turkey several times over the last few months but the wd's are so hard that I usually end up caving...After reading posts, I decided to go to a clinic here to see if anyone could help me. I met with a therapist for an intake evaluation and I walked away a bit disappointed and felt worse. I had done research on
Suboxone, even had them mail me some of the literature on it and the web site said this clinic was suppose to be trained in dispensing it (that is why I chose them in the first place). I need an outpatient program because I am a mother of 2, with one of my children being disabled, work full-time in a very unsupportive environment and I have a husband that is more like a child than an adult. I thought I had explained this to the therapist pretty clearly but she said the only way they could begin to treat me is by me checking into the "Recovery House" for two weeks and then doing intensive outpatient care 3x a week for three or more months. She also went on to tell me that I would have to quit taking my antidepressants (Cymbalta) while i detox because wd can mimic everything and I might not even be depressed. Now I have been on antidepressants since I was 19...I have tried to stop taking them several times but my world falls apart...I know that I am just one of those people that have to be on them or I will kill myself so her telling me that scares the stuffing out of me. She also said that they don't prescribe meds for addiction. I know that breaking this addiction is going to be FAR from easy and uncomfortable but what this lady told me made me feel uneasy and a little worthless...I was proud that I had put myself out there, on my own, and tried to take steps to get clean. So I guess why I even wanted to post is to ask: Can I look around to see what other programs are in my town or is this pretty typical? I don't even know how to bring this up with my family doctor. I guess I just need some feedback and advice.