Hey Play,
Hope you make it this time. And like you said it gets harder everytime.
Oxycodone is quite a bit stronger than
hydrocodone. The withdrawals suck! But it is temporary. Just remind yourself of that. After the first week it gets better. I have been off the opiates for over 8 months and I have become a new person. Like you said I got ME back. But I do go through depression at times, but it is perfectly normal. My body chemistry is balanced and after a decade of hard use my body has made a come back. Just to give you an idea I was taking 3,500 mg of opiates a day and booting 30 to 40 cc's of Dilaudid and Hydromorphine a day. On top of that I was taking 40 to 50 mg of
Xanax a day. I died three times from overdose and at the end I was given 2 weeks to live. It is truly a miracle that I am alive and praise God. My withdrawals went on for months and was bedridden for the 1st month and suffered over a 120 seizures in the first 30 days. I went cold turkey off everything. Not a good idea with benzos. After 4 and a half months of chronic withdrawal syndrome the doctors placed me on a medicinal dose of
diazepam and in a few days I was feeling well. They explained that I had done permanent damage to my CNS with the benzos because of 20 yrs of use for an Anxiety Disorder. But the long acting benzo works great. I don't get buzzed, sleep well, and have no hangovers. No more seizures and my physical ailments have pretty much been resolved. Crazy to think that just a little over 8 months ago I was on my death bed. Now I am in perfect health, except for the CNS problem. I feel really good. At 41 yrs young I have died 3 times, been shot 4 times, had tragic car accidents and had near fatal injuries playing pro sports. I have so much titanium in my body. In fact, I detoxed just two months after I had reconstructive surgery on my neck from breaking it hitting a wall at 85 mph. Talk about pain. So hang in there. Even though I have these injuries I live with little pain. Again, I believe God has healed me. It is the only explanation. The doctors don't have any answers. According to them I should of been a quadrapalegic. God is the Master Physician able to heal body, soul, and mind.
Right now I am going through some personal struggles and it would be so easy to go back to popping and shooting that poison. But that is death. Life is suffering. Once you realize this fact it is a lot easier to accept the bad things that happen to you in life. With suffering there is also joy and peace. God is love and He will set us free. God Bless.