Hello, I am new to this forum. It is my time to say goodbye (once again) to painkillers. I am one of the many who have on and off taking many many painkillers and experienced many withdrawels (for over 20 years). I have no excuses for taking them, no pain and no prescriptions.
Each time doesn't get any easier and of course I sit here once again scared of whats to come. This time I am tapering and I am tapering quite fast!
I started with good intentions to taper my
percocet, just to find out that I was taking more and more each day. Yesterday I took 140mg. I finally gave them to someone I could trust and now I am cutting back severely. I will be completely out in 7 days.
I know perhaps such a cutdown is not recommended, but I have no choice at this point. I just wanted to say how nice it is to read these links in here. I no longer feel "strange" about what is happening to me and I now understand that my major fear of symptoms is a normal result from taking these pills.
One of the reasons I always gave in and decided to mess up my sobriety was because of my lack of energy, depression & anxiety and thinking that I was always going to feel that way without the pills. I realize now that this is part of the process and things do get better.
I am bound and determined to get ME back. My energy, my humor and my motivation and love of life. I have always underestimated the power of those little pills to suck the life right out of me. So here I go once again with my supplements in hand, ready for a new life.
Perhaps writing here will help. This time I have switched to taking Percocet instead of Vicodin and I have noticed many differences in the withdrawels. Expecially the achy legs! Percocet have given me achy joints and much more depression and anxiety then Vicoden. That is just my observation.
I guess I will just follow my plan and pray this time works for me.
Im so tired of feeling like a bouncy ball and I'll do what it takes to stop this terrible cycle.
Holli