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Originally Posted by erinkj  Teenager...OUCH. Adding pubecent hormone fluctions to LEX withdrawl...You have your hands full! I can relate to the teenage part as I have an 18 year old daughter. I cannot begin to fathom how trying it must be for you at times. Looking back to my daughter's mid-teen menstrual cycles, I admit there were times I could have gleefully choked her.  . You certainly have my respect. She will thank you for it all one day! My daughter has had a few panic attacks in recent years (hereditary disfunction) Thankfully
I was able to be there for her when they occured. I have been very furnunate to have her. She is very understanding about what I am going through now as well as what I have been through in the past. We have very open discussion there.. I pray that she never has to go through what I have. She will start college in the spring and is majoring in psychology. I am very proud of her. I will check out the links you provided and get a copy of Dr. Tracys book ( Im an avid reader) I had an apt today at the psych office with a clinician and a therapist ( the new psychiatrist doesnt start there until dec, I think the last one tried to kill me with the taper he had me on) I think they are putting me back on Celexa starting at 20mg. I will know for sure when I go to the pharmacy in the morning. I made it clear to these people that my goal is to be SSRI free, and that I will follow their direction so long as I am comfortable with the care given. Otherwise I will go back to my GP for treatment. ( I trust him, he actually cares about my health) My migrains are back which complicates my healing. It's been 3 days now and starting to peak so, I am likely hours away from an E.R. trip. My options for migraine treatment are very limited because of the 11 yrs of SSRI. I cannot take ANYTHING that works through the serotenergic pathways or is caffiene based.(rules out migraine meds) So, I cope. (wearing sunglasses to type this) Ive been feeling very weak since stopping the Lex 4 and half weeks ago, and most recently alot of body aches. My youngest son (he is 11) hugged me tonight before bed and it hurt. Im getting pain and numbness in my arms and hands to ( likely from the migraine) I spent most of my day on the couch and accomplished nothing. I feel like I am being Lazy. I know excersize helps however, my center of balance is slightly off right now, so I wonder if I should start walking now or if I should wait a bit. What do you think? Erin... |
Hi Erin...
Thanks for your support. I can see we're going through the same doubts and misery... except you are probably where I was a few weeks ago, and I believe even deeper... Well I'm with you in thoughts. In my worst I felt like in a dark tunnel, not enjoying anything out of life anymore... and sleeping 15 hours a day... Now I'm not sleeping before 4 to 7 in the morning, and waking up... throwing myself out of bed around 12 to 5 PM... I'm having bad and better moments. I don't have the guts to look for work, and kicking myself just to do some errants, cook and clean after myself. Tonight, I said the hell with it and ate 6 toasts (only fast food in hand, without going out), and two glasses of juice. Got the steam out. And that pressure in my head... and fuzziness. I wanted to respond before to your encouragement, but did not have the drive... Now I feel better.. at 3:30 in the morning... yeah great. I hope you have understanding people around you... I guess what I wanna tell you and to myself at the same time is ... well let's not put too much pressure on ourselves right? We are obviously not responsible for this.
Thanks for being open, it did me good.
God bless