[notEVERlookingBACK]

DAY 4

first off to bkfizz... listen to me and listen good. you are helping me too. it is so much more comforting to think im not doing this alone. we are in hell right now, yes. but we are almost done. you have more than yourself to do this for which makes me respect you even more for your strength. your kids, your husband all want you back and most importantly you want yourself back. its stuff like this that i think all day. if we can get through this, we can get through ANYTHING the world can throw at us. seriously... no break up with a girl, no loss of a job, no accident where you get hurt is worse. nothing coudl stop us. its because it just grinds on you and grinds on you and ill say it again because you know what i am saying when it GRINDS ON YOU!!! its so long and so bad. but the way i am seeing this is that we are almost int he clear. 2 of my other friends have said the worst has already come and though tomarrow we wont wake up and be completely good it will be better than today. its so hard for me to keep typing this because i feel so bad right now. im so depleted of energy. today was the normal grind. hard to sit still but i forced myself to do something. make sure you exercise like you said bk. it helps so much. i have to go but i will be on here early tomarrow morning. STAY STRONG... IM RIGHT HERE WITH YOU!

bye