I am happy to here you are making it through this challenge in your life I wish you all the best.
I only wish to offer another option to people who may want to find another way that they so far do not know about. The bad rumors about "it" come from a miss understanding of what it is about and lies that come from people with vested interest, ie. 6 billion dollar a year pharmaceutical companies and psychiatry who are pushing these drugs for profit. Sorry I suppose that debate is for another Forum or thread.
Keep fighting the good fight were there is a will there is a way. You can do it.
Matthew Baldwin
http://www.cchr.com/
Citizens Commission on Human Rights