Outdrlvr....you have my sympathy and understanding of what you are going through. I have cold turkeyed a few times. But recently, I went to a clinic that prescribed med's to ease the withdrawl. Mostly anxiety pills (librium),
ambien for sleep, and NSAIDS for my back pain (which didn't do much at all for my back pain). I have to admit, it did help me through withdrawl. Why suffer so much if your withdrawl pain can be controlled. Keep on posting, others will respond and offer you good advice. Just hang in there. The first 3 or 4 days are the hardest then by day 5 I bet you will start feeling better.
Abey...when I read what you write, it sounds like me writing. The withdrawl is almost gone for me. Just a bit antsy at times and still a bit depressed since my "entertainment" (the pills) are no longer around. Now I have to relearn how to be sociable and personable around others without the drugs. I'm sure it will come if I stay clean. The mental part, building the willpower not to give in if I come across some pills, is the tough part. Right now, my willpower is weak and I am vulnerable. Luckily, I have no access to pills unless I went to a doctor and complained about my back or whatever else. And I used to do that but not anymore. I felt cheap when I did that. Even though the backpain was legit, I need to control the pain some other way.
Anyways, I hope you are staying clean. I am now 61 hours clean and feeling ok today. Have a long conference to attend today so that will hopefully help keep my mind off the pills. I have found that drinking lots of water helps flush out the impurities in my system and I actually sleep better and feel better after a few days.
Hang in there! Be strong..and be clean today!