Abey,
Sorry to hear you gave in. I completely understand the entire process. You know in your mind that you shouldn't do any pills, even when given the opportunity. But the voice in your head telling you to go for it, always seems to win out. I'm sure if my supplier was still in the State, I'd be doing some as my willpower just isn't there yet. Maybe when I feel more close to normal and I have more energy will I then be able to fight any future temptation. I just miss the energy and calmness and the social personality it gives me. Maybe I will gain all that back soon when I"m more sober.
Today is day 4. About 88 hours into it. Feeling just slightly better today, but still a bit achy and not much energy. Looking forward to a better tomorrow and day after that.
What strenghty vic's are you taking?
I"m sure you know you will go thru withdrawl symptoms again and so your battle will start all over. I am hoping I am not as lucky (or unlucky depending how you look at it) to come across anymore pills. Yet I find myself constantly thinking about them. Which tells me that if I found some, I'd be snorting them in a heartbeat.
Anyway, keep in touch. I am concerned about your upcoming withdrawl when then vic's run out. Hopefully you have some meds from your Doctor to counteract the withdrawl symptoms.
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