Hey there justaguy~
I'm glad to see your stayin clean. It does get easier. I was on day 6 until I had a root canal done today and gave in to a measely 20 vics. SAD! I couldnt get to pharm quick enough and had to pop 4 of them. If I was smart I'd use the 20 for a tapering, but damn I cant control myself when I have them. The mental part is the hardest. I sit and dwell all day and think, If only I had a couple more, or dwell on the feeling. But u wanna know what? I'm not even impressed with the feeling I had when I took the four. Why did I even give in? Now in 2 days I'll be a cryin depressed fool all over again. Whatever u do, try not to give in to temptation, as it will get better, i know its hard to believe but I was actually starting to learn how to do things sober again. When u do give in, u'll wish u hadnt because that feelin just aint what it, and what u dwell it would be. I will keep u in my thoughts. I will look for ur future posts. |